So basically today, the world celebrates Mother's Day and so I greeted all the Mother's that I have known personally and even virtually. But unfortunately I failes to talk to my mom today as when I dialed my brother's number his not home. My mom's phone was in my brother, his the one who's using it as my mom don't know how to use it. I don't know why but even I have already teach her how to use the phone she still don't want to use it and so every time I call her, I have to make sure first that my brother is with her or else I can't talk to her. But anyway, mother's day is not only just today. Mother's Day can be every day and so I can still greet her tomorrow or the next day.

Anyway to all Mother's in this community, Happy Mother's Day to each one of you. You are all amazing and special person in this world and so you all deserves the love and appreciation from the whole world.

However today is just an ordinary and busy day for me. I was busy with the house hold chores including laundry. I don't even received greetings from my partner 😂, but will I am not expecting it from him. He isn't really the type of a guy that was sweet and fond with greetings.

I didn't bring my son for walk today, I was really tired and my back is aching. I just let my son played inside our house. Luckily he got busy playing or else he would definitely force me to go out with him. He already love to go outside and socialize with the other kids and so every afternoon we always go out, it's only today we didn't as I am very much tired. I just accompany him.

Meanwhile while he was busy playing I have noticed that he looks like he had lose some weight, as his body become thin.

Suddenly a guilt feeling came in. Am I neglecting my son? What kind of a mother I am to my son? Am I being a good mother to him? Am I taking care of him properly?

I suddenly felt sad with those thoughts. Honestly at his age his still dependent to his milk. And since he was very hyper, his activeness makes him lose some weight and that makes me worried.

I tried to introduce him some food but he only spit them, he don't like vegetables. He do try to taste some vegetables tastes and then throw it up eventually. He don't like to eat if the food has a taste and so mostly he only eat plain rice and sometimes porridge but it has no nutrients. He ates bread and when it comes to fruits he only ate banana. He used to like oranges and apples before, but not now anymore. I don't know why he suddenly changed.

Honestly whenever I saw an article about motherhood, I'm always excited to read it. Specially if the topic is about parenting, like how they discipline their child, how they love and care their child and what food their child's eat, etc. I am eager to learn some ideas from parents like me.

As a first time mom, reading their experiences being a first time mom inspires me. From their story I got a lot of chances to be a good mother to my son . How must I stand as a good example to my LO and how should I understand his tantrums and also about the foods that was good for his growth.

In the comment section I always share my thoughts and opinions about parenting too. But somehow I never knew that Empowering those opinions and thoughts are difficult😅.

Anyhow I always tell myself that I shouldn't let my son grow up as a spoiled child. I won't tolerate his want's and I should let him understand the difference between right and wrong. But he grows up a little silly and he also gets what he wants🤦. I cannot picture myself as a good mother to him anymore. I know I cannot be a perfect mother to him, but I think I shouldn't allow him to behave like that.

I also told myself that I should let my son ate vegetables and fruits as those are good for him but I failed to do it as he grows up not liking vegetables and fruits.

Where did I go wrong?

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