Blog#145 February 11,2022 no.10

Hello my dear friends and family, how are you? The valentine's Day is almost here, so any plans with your special someone? Anyway this past few days I have read some stories from some users about their past , and since this month is called love month. This month could be as sweeter than usual to those who are in peacefully inlove, and bitter as bitterest to those who are in a warzone, charot.. somehow let me share to you my past and yet not interesting past😂 but please bear with me 😉.

I'll start sharing with you my four days relationship that I had with my second boyfriend. As I remember I am just 20 years old and my boyfriend is already 27 years old that time when we meet. He is working as a security guard while I am working as a salesclerk in the same Mall. He courted me for like more than two months before I say yes to him. His not a good looking guy anyway, but because he showed me his sincerity and respect to my whole family, he finally got a special place in my heart.

Eventually, when we become girlfriend and boyfriend he suddenly becomes so touchy and I felt uncomfortable by him, since I was born conservative. Holding hands is a big NO NO to me 😅, but everytime were together he keeps on holding my hands although he already knew that I don't feel comfortable about it. I don't know why but I felt awkward everytime he holds my hands, I'm not comfortable and I found it disgusting lol. I think it was maybe because I really don't like him that much😅 or was it only because I'm very conservative, I don't know. Since we work in the same Mall, we use to see each other everyday and every day he used to accompany me to the jeep station before I go home after our work.

We are just four days of being in relationship when he sneak a kiss on my cheeks and that's how everything changed. I really didn't expect that he would kiss me. Our relationship was just new, so I thought he wouldn't do that. I was really disappointed on him that time as I felt that his being disrespectful. I almost cursed him by doing that in public. I really felt ashamed to all those who saw what he did and how I wish the road would swallowed me that night lol. I was really mad at him and right away I broke up with him. He was very curious with my reaction as for him a kiss on cheeks isn't a big deal, well it's on him, not to me. He tried to calm me down as he wanted to talk to me and say sorry but I just push him away and when he tried to come near to me I punch him. I really don't want him to touch me nor come near to me anymore. When the jeep came, I immediately go inside the jeep without looking back at him. I was crying with anger that night, I was really disappointed and all I felt was shameful. Because of what he did, I regretted that I trusted him (sobrang OA noh?lol).

On the next day, I didn't saw him in our workplace. At first I thought he was just absent, and he would go to work on the next day. But eventually he didn't come anymore. I didn't heard anything about him for a week, not until I heard from our co-workers, that he already went back to Cebu, which is his hometown. His friends say's that he wanted to say sorry to me personally, but he just can't find a courage to talk to me. He was afraid to approach me, so he just keep looking at me from outside the mall. I suddenly feel guilty,but what can I do, he was gone already. That time mobile phone is very expensive so I still don't have phone even I'm already earning my own money . That time, my family's expenses is more important than having a mobile phone.

Message to him;

Wherever you are, I hope you really do understand with my reaction that time. You know that I'm still young and you know how conservative I am and my family. You might be matured enough that time and a kiss is just normal for you, but I hope you also consider my conservativism. I think our relationship won't ended up that too soon, if you only waited for the right time and until we fully know each other. I know I also made mistakes and misunderstood you, but I hope you have forgiven me now. I hope you are happy now with your family. I have already forgiven you. Anyway past is past, and so Happy Valentine's Day.

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Anyway after I broke up with him, I stayed single for more than a year. I was already 22 when I had another relationship with my third fling boyfriend. My third boyfriend courted me for six months and yet our relationship only last for one month, and I think he was my karma as he was the opposite of my second boyfriend lol.

I will share it to you next time...

Thank you for reading..

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