Hello my dear friends, it's me again. How's your day so far? I wish you are all doing fine and wherever you are now, I wish you're all at your comfort.

Today a lot of thoughts keeps on bothering my mind and it really brother's me a lot, to the point that I am already questioning the state of my motherhood, again. Perhaps I am overthinking again this time. Well who wouldn't if someone will gonna asked you about the development of your own child, as they felt that your child is not developing.

Actually, I hate to think that someone is trying to compare my child to another person's child, as we all know that children's are all difference.

But however last night I made up a decision already. I decided that starting today, I will lessen up my time on my mobile phone. That means my activeness to this community will be lessened and even to my other blogging site and social medias. I have to, not because I'm being triggered or I'm being competitive here. I just want to give more time to my child's development.

Starting today, I will start to focus on my son as he already grown up . Suppose at his young age I should start teaching him and I should start helping him to recognize things and even sounds to improve his development. So I must done some sacrifices this time.

My son is already one year old and seven months, and I have noticed that he learned new things already . However, instead to feel proud, it made me feel guilty. He only learned those things he knew, from watching his favourite nursery rhymes every day. I'm always busy with my chores and for grinding BCH 😅. I'll be honest about that.

Although I give time to play with him with his toy's, and I bring him outside for walk and to socialize, I felt that he isn't learning anything from me. Actually I teach him to pick up his sleeper's, cover his bottle feed and picking up some of his toy's, but I'm still not yet satisfied with his development.

My son is currently belongs to basic learner, and I believe that if I would give more time to him, he might level up into advance learner. Skilled level is too much for him and so I think advance is enough, as long as there is no pressure.

I don't wanna stressed him at his young age and besides I already knew my limitations as a parent. That is why today, I downloaded some app's from the Play store that may helps him to recognize letters, sounds, colours and even numbers while his having some fun. I just need to accompany him so it would be easier for him to recognize everything that he can watch inside of that application. I also need to teach him how to properly speak some words, as this time he can only speak few words, but some of his words are still not really understandable.

He speak like this;

Round- he would say it as roar

Dirty- he would say it dirta( with a long pronunciation of diiiiirrrrrrta)😂.

And the rest are really not understandable. But he can clearly say No! Then Cocock for actually the sounds of the chicken and miiimiimiii for miming(cat), Hahahaha

Anyway, to all Mother's like me, how do you normally talk to your little one's at home? I mean do you talk to them in English or just your mother tongue? In my part I talk to him in different languages? Lol. This I must be cautious and stop as it only makes him confused.

According to the experts, if the child can hear too many Languages inside his/her home, speaking woud be harder for the little one. They must only hear one or two languages so they won't get confused and they can easily learn on speaking.

Furthermore I decided to share this with you, so atleast you had any idea where am I, if I become less active to this community, and I hope you won't forgot me😁.

Managing time is really hard for me, specially that I easily get distracted.

This is my daily routine that makes my time preoccupied daily.

My busyness starts as early as seven in the morning, as I do usually wake up at that time to go to the market.

Upon waking up I'm gonna prepare my son's milk so when he woke's up he can just suck his milk from his feeding bottle, then I'll go ahead to the market. After buying our viands I will start cooking and while cooking I am also washing my son's feeding bottles. Then at around 8:30 or sometimes 9:00 we will be eating our breakfast.

Furthermore after breakfast, I'll have to accompany my son and bring him to bath. Since he loves to play with water, after I wash him I let him play and I'll be going to fixed our bed. After five or ten minutes I will get him and dried him up and change his clothes.

Then I will let him play for awhile. Sometimes if I am already done with my chores in the kitchen I accompany him and while he was playing I will start reading articles here in read cash, but starting today I'll be cutting this sneaky part's. I have to put my attention to my son rather than allowing him to spend his time watching over his phone. This is not really good, and I should also starts teaching him. So maybe I can visit your articles late from now on. However I would still support you in my spare time.

At around 11 AM, ( but sometimes he takes his nap at 12 sometimes at 1:00 in the afternoon and so the whole morning I'm really busy. The time is fast if I am busy indeed. ) he will takes his nap and that's the time I will start writing my article. But writing my article also takes a lot of time. How I wish I can finish my article as fast as five minutes like how others do with their articles, but I am not like them and I can't be like them. Mostly I can finish my writing after 2-3 and worst is five hours before I can finally published my entry (article).

The problem here is, my son sometimes only sleep for one hour and sometimes two. So sometimes before I completely finished my four minutes of reading article his already awake. He won't go back to sleep again as he already have lots of energy to play and so I just let him play by his self and I'll continue editing my article. That is why I really don't have much time to teach my son and so I decided that from now on, I'll be lessened up my time on my mobile so I can have enough time to my son.

Sometimes we really need to choose, if things are just getting complicated. I also don't wanna pressure myself and so this time I am gonna choose my son first.

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Anyway this is getting longer and I don't wanna waste your time with my nonsense, and so I'll be cutting this blog from here.

I am not saying goodbye, I am just gonna limit my time on my phone for my son. This is actually hard, and maybe you found my competitiveness here but for me I am not into competing. I just want to be responsible mom to my child. .

Thank you for reading and 'til next time.....

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