It's been three weeks since my partner left the country to work abroad. At first everything was fine. I can perfectly manage everything since I was very independent since then. Though he left me with an empty handed, I can still sustain my needs.

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Actually my partner want's to make a loan in the bank for our allowance, but I stop him. I don't like debt's and so I told him that I'm okay and I can sustain my needs until he can be able support us. Besides after one week I will be going to get his remaining salary from his previous work, and that would be enough for me. I told him that he don't need to worry if he can't give me any allowance because I have online side hustles. I don't want him to feel guilty so I told him that I'm okay.

• Last September 05 I received his salary. I received 3,100 Php ($55usd) for his last eight days of duty.

When I received his last salary, I immediately went to grocery store to buy my son's milk, diaper and I also bought toothpaste for me, sugar for my coffee, then bath soap. Over all I spent 1,458.25 pesos ($26usd) for my grocery. My son's milk was quite expensive because of the inflation, and yet he can only consume it for 15 day's, sometimes less, which means before the month end I need to buy him another pack of milk. This is stressing me out actually, most specially that the market keeps on dropping each day. So how I wish it will rise before the weekend since I have already open the last pack of his milk.

The remaining 1,600 pesos($28) was the last money I have in my pocket, and yet I still need to pay our monthly amortization for our house. That is 1,400php ($25). Since I cannot rely the payment for the amortization to my earnings here in readcash, I keep the money instead and just use the remaining 200 pesos for my daily expenses. 200 pesos($4) is very small because I still need to buy some rice, so I really needed to withdraw some of my earnings. I don't have any choice because I need to eat, otherwise I'll get sick and it's additional problem.

Moreover I can say that I don't have any problem with my daily expenses, the real problem is the fact that I am alone. You might be wondering why?

We simply because I have a toddler and if the weather was like this and it was non-stop, I can't go out to buy food.

Since yesterday the rain keeps pouring heavily and it was non-stop until tonight, so going out is quite impossible. We don't have refrigerator at home and so I cannot stock some food. I don't like instant noodles as I don't like it's taste, and I also have allergy for egg, so yesterday I only eat bread but I already consume all our bread and so today I really needed to go out. Plus I also need to buy medicine for my swollen gums because my face is already swollen.😭

Luckily the rain subsided for one hour and so I took the opportunity to go out and buy some food for today and medicine. I only buy food for today because the last money that I have in my wallet was just 100 pesos ($2). Tomorrow I needed to withdraw again.

Can you spot the difference between my left and right cheeks? If you can, then let me know in my comment box.

The swollen area is really visible in person. Luckily I can hide it with the help of facemask. Anyway I'm so sorry about my haggard face and messy hair as well😌. That little guy behind my back loves pulling out my ponytail and now the airport is visible, I mean my wide forehead rather. Lol.

I really don't have enough sleep last night because aside from my toothache my son also can't sleep properly because of the itchy rashes on his body. That rashes literally makes him grumpy last night and even if I am already sleepy I don't have any choice but help him scratch it. I don't know if what time we fall asleep last night but we still both wake up so early this morning. I don't know why 😅.

Writer's epilogue;

So this is the real struggle if you were alone at home with a toddler. If the situation was like this, I mean raining and yet you don't have any other company at home, then for sure nobody will gonna help you, since you don't have anybody. The situation may only become complicated and difficult because you have to prioritize the safety of your toddler.

However whenever my partner aske if I am okay here, I always said I'm okay, but it's actually a lie but I have to. His situation isn't good abroad as well so he must not worry about us too much.

Anyway on Sunday my parent's in-law will come over so I won't struggle anymore of being alone.

So this is all for today and thank you for reading ❤️.

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