Planning My August. (My Goals vs. Never Ending Chores)

It's already August 4, 1:09 a.m. and I'm here typing my plans and goals for this month. ( I fell asleep and wasn't able to publish it earlier lol)

I have a lot of plans in my mind for this month. Goals that I want to accomplish both in my personal life and as an entrepreneur. But my August started with rollercoaster energy that ruined my schedule.

Here are the plans that I want to accomplish for the month of August:

• Make time for painting/ artworks, once or twice a week, either digital or traditional.

• No to impulsive buying

• No complain Wednesday

• No to Thriller/Crime K-drama

• Publish article here everyday

• Don't skip deep work.

• Additional Designs

• Inventory, encoding expenses, income, budgeting

• Deep Rest

• Cleaning and Packing our stuff

They're my plans for this month, the realistic ones hahaha, I keep on adding goals and eventually delete it, coz I'm in a situation right now that hinders me from achieving more.

- Making time for my artworks is the one that I want to prioritize. The problem is, this brain of mine is not trained to explore arts if my mind is not into them. I have those creative blocks moments that I want to paint badly but my mind is empty. I don't want to waste art materials coz it's a waste of money. To make some art for the sake of so-called "goals for this month". It's like attending the class (and don't listen) for the sake of attendance. Our creative director in my previous job once told me that "you can use your emotions while doing some designs" and I answered "If I use my emotions right now and make a design out of it, you won't approve it because it will all dark/black" lol. That's what I want to do and practice, that even if I have a creative block and am not in the good mood, I will try to paint and see what will be the outcome.

- No to desires, and buy only the things that I need. That's my goal and I think I can accomplish it. Why? coz I don't have much to spend hahaha, kidding aside, I already bought my needs and desires last month actually, so I'm good now. No to "salamat shopee" for a month.

- I've watched a vlog, but I forgot the specific channel. She shared about her no whining Wednesday. Just no single complains for that specific day. Even the simple things that tend us to complain. That's want I want to try, because I noticed that I have lot of complaints lately, in the general aspect of life. I want to slowly reduce it.

- Thriller / Crime / Mystery is my favorite genre and I finished 4 Kdrama's last month. Like OMG, my "1 episode only" per night didn't happen haha. That's why no more for this genre this month. Planning to watch 1 romance Kdrama only. The plain love story is really not my favorite, the last Kdrama love story that I watched was "The Undateables" and I finished it in 2 months even if I love the main lead actor. Unlike the thriller ones, I can't stop watching because of the thrill it gives haha.

- Publish article here every day is one of the most challenging parts. Just like in art, I can't write if I'm not in the mood. I tried it before and I got frustrated. Before I told my sister that I want to blog but I'm not good at English and in writing as well. She said that "you can write in Tagalog" But I can't even write even in Tagalog hahaha, maybe I'm really not destined to be a writer lol. I was a frustrated writer even in high school. My sister was an editorial-in-chief in our school newspaper, I always read her articles, poems, and short stories and I want to be as good as her but failed haha. We really can't have it all lol. My style here is freestyle writing, even if I want to be as good and formal as others, I can't. It's not me if I do that. I want to write comfortably, sharing my experiences, my emotions here.

- No to shallow work during my deep work session. Shallow works are reading emails, excels, encoding.. those works that I can multitask. Been practicing deep work since last month and I'm not yet consistent, but I can stay 2 hrs straight. I just need to improve it by doing it everyday.

- Focus on additional designs for our shop during deep work, finish those pending that I can multitask with other chores.

- Deep rest is kind of challenging. Deep rest is an important partner of deep work. You need to sleep deep in order to replenish the energy. But I was deprived for these past few weeks because of the never-ending rain. We have a falls inside our house hahaha, our roof has holes, not only one but moreeeee huhuhu. And I was worried because we have a lot of boxes on the floor right now, even some of our appliances. I've got anxious and slept always around 3 to 4 am. We don't have a plan in replacing our roof with new ones coz we're going to leave this house soon. I put vulcaseal in other areas but there are still many, I can't reach it anymore, it's too high for my height lol. I'm the one who always sacrifice time because my schedule is flexible. I don't have a boss who will nag at me for not attending work on time, but I always feel guilty for not giving my best at work all the time lately because of other issues at home. I'm the one who's in charge of cleaning, laundry, taking care of our pets. Our mom and cousin are in Bulacan so I don't have a choice. My siblings are kind of lazy with house chores, okay, go, be busy with your work and finance what we need at home lol. Except for my personal bills and share in the house though. Others thought that I always love to be a night owl, but nah.. I'm want to be a morning person but there's too much on my plate right now, I'm tired physically and mentally but I'm doing my best to balance my schedule.

-Our target month to move to our new home is next month, and I've been packing stuff since two months ago and there's still a lot of things to declutter. That's my situation right now, my parents are already in Bulacan since last year, they look after the house, This is my biggest dilemma while thinking about my goals for August. Should I give one week straight and only focus on packing and decluttering? It's really frustrating. But it won't give me peace of mind because I will keep thinking about my business and other hustle. This is the time to focus on additional designs for our shop because of ECQ. Every quarantine, like every other small business, it affects our sale. Actually, we don't have sales for a week now but it's okay ;). I don't want to stress myself. This too shall pass.

I think I can have the focus that I badly want when we settle in our new home. I'm tired of complaining about my never-ending chores. Lately, I'm just doing all of them quietly and emotionless, hahaha. I even want to throw all of our things here para matapos na, but my mom will kill me especially if I throw her tupperware. hahaha.

I'm still hoping that I can make all of my goals this month. Fighting.

Thank you for dropping by. Stay safe.

*Lead image from Unsplash.