Dear Brain, Can You Stop Thinking?

Have you ever tried pleading with your brain to stop thinking for a while and take a rest, but it didn't work? That's what's happening to me. The brain cells are too active thinking about my upcoming interview. My recruiter told me it might be a panel interview, making me even more nervous.

Panel interview? Gosh, I haven't been into that ever since. Just thinking about one on one interview with HR is already terrifying. How much more with panel interview that consists many people from the company. However, I have to be strong.. this is what I prayed and worked hard for; I must get it done. I will do my best, and whatever the result is, I won't regret it as I did my best.

I've been busy crowdsourcing the possible questions for a full-time writer position interview. I got some excellent replies to my post on Facebook, combined with my research, and my mind started formulating answers. It doesn't stop even if it's already late at night.

I even got up and went to the kitchen as I was hungry. My mind didn't stop answering questions that made me hungry, even if I did my best to shut it. Maybe I was just too anxious because I've been applying as a freelance content writer recently and just got this serious application going after so many failed applications.

I was also overwhelmed because if I got hired, it would be my first ever experience with an employer. As you all know, I just developed my writing skills on this platform and didn't have a formal background in writing. All my experience is just like a writing gig, so having this formal employment as a writer makes me thrilled and nervous simultaneously. I hone my writing skills by self-learning.

I was overjoyed, even if I was still in the application process, as I had already proved I had great potential as a writer. Reading the editor-in-chief assessment on my test saying, “Let's proceed with this applicant,” made me giggle. It means I was the best candidate among the applicants.

I also remember one of the users in noise.cash told me that my writing skills are not yet fully equipped to be hired as I write based on my point of view. My brows raised upon reading his comments way back, but I replied to him politely. He said I should write from a broader perspective. I know the guy is not an experienced writer, too, because he doesn't know that writing has different voices. You can develop those voices once you have the format and instructions to follow.

My test post shows I can be a brand writer, following format and instructions just by reading guidelines given without being nosy. This is not the end of it; I believe I still have a lot of potentials to unlock as long as I won't stop learning. Being a working-in-progress person is complex; there are downtimes, but as long as I am persistent, I will progress eventually.

For now, I'll strive harder to digest the information I need for the interview so I can practice how to stay calm later before my interview on Monday at 10 PM comes.

My progress may be slow as it is based on my time management; being a mom is already a formidable job and is time-consuming, but I still believe I can slay my dream career soon. I've never been so eager to pursue something in my life, so I think this is my ultimate passion to be a full-time writer. Fighting!

P.S this was written a week ago when I was too anxious about my interview.

P.P.S the interview went well but I still have two weeks training to undergo before the final assessment if I'll pass on the full time writer position. Hopefully, I can make it.

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