It's been how many months since I last published a blog here on ReadCash? As long as I wanted to write a blog on all the platforms I joined, my depression was killing me every day, to be honest. I lost all my energy and inspiration to blog and earn due to the sickness I am fighting and my family, who always think of me as their bank account and only think about themselves.

You know, sometimes I think of marrying someone so I can do all the things I can do freely. However, I remember that I couldn't. I can't marry because I am sick.

What's funnier is that I met my dream man at the wrong time. You know how much I hate talking about getting married because of trust issues, as I stated in my previous blogs about my life here. But when I met him, all of a sudden I wanted to love him and I wanted to get married. I was happy when I finally fell in love again, but my life is out of luck now that my sickness is back. 

I've been living here at our sister's boyfriend's place since that time, and it's been a month since I wasn't home at our grandparents' place. But last Saturday was our great-grandmother's death anniversary. We get home to attend the occasion. Though I really don't like to go home because I know that we will talk about money again, I need to since I missed my cats and dogs, of course.

That day, I thought I can able to have some a nice and well day.    We talked nicely about everything that I did here and how my health is. Then after that, since I'm already at their house, I remember the phone that I let her borrow since I have my Metamask wallets and my Bitcoin.com app there.

When I opened my phone, I searched the applications, but I didn't see anything. So, I started to feel nervous. I searched for it again in the applications, but I really couldn't see either of the two applications that I mentioned. 

I started to calm down and started to inhale and exhale because I knew that at any time I would burst out in anger.

I go to the kitchen where my grandma is and ask her calmly, "Where are the two important applications that I left?" and tell her not to touch it because I can't find it. And she said she didn't know anything.

I go to my room and find my old wallet, where I put the seed phrases for my Metamask and bitcoin.com wallets. I really hope that I can still recover it. However, I only saw my metamask seed phrases there, and I couldn't remember where I put my other seed phrases. 

She told me to get my phone back already, so I did. because I wanted to recover all my accounts. I never told her how much money she lost, and I just got home smiling bitterly.

When we get home, I never say anything, but you know when my sister and her boyfriend only thought of their dogs and never read my mood or how I was during that time? They only thought that the money that I lost was just easy money to save again. They didn't know how much I suffered to write and earn those bitcoins that I had there.

How much money did I lose? The time that I remember is that I still had 3 bitcoincash during that time plus the other tokens in my Metamask wallet.

I recovered my Metamask wallet by asking some friends how to recover it and where to find the addresses of some tokens. Sad to say, I didn't recover my bitcoincash since I couldn't find the paper where I put my seed phrases for my bch wallets.

It's so very depressing! But I can't just blame my grandma for everything because I also made a mistake in trusting her. How I wish I could just go back in time to when I didn't let her borrow my phone.

Conclusion...

If you asked me if I locked the applications, yes. I locked the applications and put some pin passwords. Actually, I really don't like to let her borrow my phone since I know that she has very itchy hands, but I feel guilty as her granddaughter as I saw her patiently using her old, broken phone to connect with her children and other important people in her life.

I couldn't do anything but feel depressed, and I am miserable right now. I need to earn back the Bitcoincash that I lost, but the question now is how? How will I start again?

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