Wake Me Up When September Ends!

"Wake me up when September ends!"

This line has never hit me like it did when September of 2021 arrived.

I am actually always optimistic every start of the month because it is a reminder of a fresh start and a new hope that the month will be productive, full of positivity, and bountiful blessings. I was hoping I won't encounter any negativity last month and just enjoy every single day full of love and enthusiasm.

But from all the months that passed, it feels like September was the worst month for me, and I hope that these remaining three months of the year will be the best months for all of us.

Last September, it felt like I was in a battle with a lot of issues and problems in the real world and also in the crypto-verse. I had been constantly worrying, stressed, demotivated, and slowly losing my excitement to keep moving forward. I had been very moody, always losing my cool and being irritated even with small things. Even the simple word that I don't want to read affected my whole being.

My parents being always too toxic every single day didn't help at all but even worsen my mental state. Being woken up by their fights early in the morning would make me think of completely moving out from my own abode, run away from them, and live my life independently in an apartment in the city. Sometimes, I would think of leaving my parents behind and live my life according to my own terms, but I couldn't do it because I need them in my life even if I'm already tired of this same scenario.

My virtual on-the-job training has also been giving me headaches because after an incident happened from our original company, we were transferred to another organization, and up until today, we still haven't resumed rendering our 600 OJT hours. Our team is already left behind compared to other teams. We need to complete the OJT hours before December 20. Good thing, we were given an option where we could render 200 hours by attending webinars that give E-certificates.

My mood has been such a mess that my emotions would sometimes get the best of me. I did not even attend the birthday party of my friend's niece even if I went there before the day and I promised that I will attend. I also missed a mini get-together with my friends a week ago. I was not in my best self at that time and I think it is a valid excuse to choose to be alone than to be in a crowd.

And here comes the crypto-verse being bloody for two weeks, where after Bitcoin Cash pumped to $800, it dumped back to below the $500 levels again. I'm actually used to these dumps already and it's also an opportunity to earn more while in the dip. However, I can't help but be emotionally affected because the biggest bag of coins I have and my favorite crypto lost 40% of its value in just a short period.

And because of this dump, my overall Crypto Portfolio unrealized losses are down with a negative 50% from its all-time high again. Seeing those digits just hurts my naked eyes.

Having a constant egg from my short posts in noise.cash also made me feel like a laughingstock. It made me always wondering and singing, "Tell me, what did I do wrong?" Hahaha!

A wise man once said,

"Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it." -Charles R. Swindoll

And I agree with it. We can't control the things that happen to us, but what we can control is our attitude towards it.

I am aware that I have an attitude problem. Sometimes, I would react without thinking, and that's when my emotions get the best of me. I am insensitive yet also overly sensitive. I would easily be irritated without noticing that I'm also irritating.

Even if the odds don't always go in our favor, let's learn to control our emotions, and think before making an action.

September is over, you can wake up now!

A new month is here. October has arrived!

While September felt like the worst month, I will claim that October will be the start of something great and will give us greener and more fruitful days.

Just like a flower that blooms in the morning, this new month brings us a new hope that better days are coming.