What is the distinction between uncontrollable and suicidal thoughts?
Before I say anything else, I am definitely okay, and this suicidal topic came out of nowhere. I’ve watched several movies pertaining to how suicide came about and how it affects the community. I would like to ask you: have you ever thought of doing suicide? I know there are valid reasons why you will do it. Perhaps you cannot bear the pain, the humiliation, and the other factors of the environment you are in. Sometimes, we think we understand the person so well, but it turns out that what we see is just the shell of an egg.
When someone reaches the highest level of stress and depression, there is a huge tendency to have a mental breakdown. According to Curtis, signs of a nervous breakdown are the same as signs of a mental breakdown, though potentially involving more anxiety. That is, when you experience a mental breakdown, you are unable to function normally. It is the hardest part of the process because, although you want to get out of the situation, you can’t. You can’t feel your pain, your environment, or the people who show them to you.
I knew someone who committed suicide in my neighborhood three years ago. He was a young man—no, I consider him a man—but he’s actually gay. He was known for having a bubbly personality. Whenever the barangay sets up a local volleyball tournament, his team will always join. I do not remember the last time we talked, but he seemed a good person. Back then, there were rumors that he and his parents were having a big fight. At the time, it was not clear what the problem was.
A huge surprise surprised the community when they found out that he was found dead in his room. He was hanging in his own room, the chair was far from him as if he had kicked it so that he could no longer step on it, and his parents were shocked as well. Of course, who wouldn’t be shocked when you found your child dead in his room? He was last seen the night after he found his friends. They came from a birthday party, and he was not drunk. His friends said that he was happy and didn’t share any problems that night.
But some of them said that for the past few days, he had shown extreme body loss. He appeared to be eating, but not enough to meet his daily calorie requirements. He must have felt that he couldn’t escape all the problems in his life. Thus, he decided to end his own life in the most miserable way possible. How sad it was for someone like him who’s very young; good opportunities are all in vain, and he couldn’t even taste the goodness of life. I mean the abundance of blessings that we all wanted.
After the incident, it spread like wildfire in the community. It's been a talking point since he was buried in his own grave. I didn't go to those nights when people flocked to see his dead body. I feel like I am not ready to see a young individual die and be laid down in his coffin. It was a very sad event, yet we all learned from it. When the time is right, the verbal abuse you hurl at someone can grow large and ripe. The person will just burst like a dam that cannot be contained anymore.
If you, like me, are emotionally and physically hurt, don't be afraid to share your burden with a trusted friend or family member. I believe that my transparency, or ability to share my life with others, aids in the release of stress and depression that has accumulated in my heart and mind. I know it’s hard to share when you are not comfortable at all, but you have to bear it. It is not for the benefit of others, but only for your own. Isn’t it good that you have no burden in your heart? to live freely and happily without being bothered by thoughts Always choose the best course possible.
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Self pity is one of the feeling that they had and overthinking also. So bad if they feel that way. Mostly teenagers now really commit suicides, they waste their lives so quick. Sarap kaya mabuhay. Pero tao lng din nmn tayo na marunong masaktan.