Happiness is free @theramdomrewarder

5th of February 2022

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Hello everyone! I woke up feeling happy this morning for no reason at all, and I consider it a sign that today and the coming days will be really wonderful. I haven’t felt like this in a long time, it’s always been depression and lack of interest coupled with a little bit of regret about certain decisions I should have made earlier in life which I didn’t.

Recently, I’ve been trying to push my regrets aside because I began to realise that stressing upon the past will not solve any problem but make things worse. The best move is to take note of mistakes made, work on them and make sure to not repeat those same mistakes.

At some point in my life, I used to be scared of making mistakes, scared of being corrected or scolded for my short comings, I used to feel like my life was worthless and meaningless, and lacked the necessary self-esteem every normal human had or was meant to have. I found myself struggling to be accepted, but it seemed like the more I tried, the more rejection I received. This made me heart broken and scared, I began to withdraw from people and found solace in being alone- something the English refer to as “solitude”.

With time (which is equivalent to “recently”), I began to realise that I enjoyed my own company more and didn’t care about being accepted anymore. In fact, I became a very selective person that I decided I should be the one to accept people into my life and not the opposite, hence the beginning of my confidence. Now I’m no longer scared of making mistakes but look forward to making them instead so I could learn from them and allow myself grow while remembering to not be too hard on myself.

Speaking of happiness, waking up happy today is a really wonderful feeling, I haven’t felt this way in a long time and I look forward to feeling this way more often. I got a load of activities before me today and I’m already enthusiastic towards working on them.

Surprisingly, I decided to check out my notification here on read.cash, and realised @therandomrewarder came visiting about three more times or so… (I think I lost count). This is really exciting and has motivated me even more to not give up but continue to write until I attain perfection. Thank you @TheRandomRewarder, I love you so much!

I’ve got a smile on my face today while pushing through each activities the day brings, I feel like something good is coming my way, I can feel it and I will remain optimistic until it comes through. I don’t have a certain thing in mind but I know it takes a little faith for a miracle to happen, and I believe this miracle is coming my way in a not too distant time!

In the end, I realise that if happiness can take over me for no reason, then I can consciously choose to be happy as well. I see that happiness comes from within and it cannot be given by finance or material things or by anyone. The above mentioned can only amplify your happiness, but for this to happen, happiness needs to already be an integral part of you.

Special thanks to my friends and loved ones @Mafer8886 , @Mazekin @GarrethGrey07 , @Ellehcim, @CoquiCoin , @Sequoia, @Bloghound, @gertu13 , @bmjc98, @Kushyzee , @Alther @irene , @Jinifer, @BCH_LOVER , @infinity, @TengoLoTodo, @King_Gozie , @George_Dee , @Officialrosh1 , @Belozoriana , and so on... … I love you all.

If you're out there thinking your life is worthless and you don't deserve happiness- think again. Happiness is free!