I am out of energy to pretend that I am fine anymore.

Hello, Corpsekkuno here.

Good day my beautiful and lovely readers. I am doing this Blog as a sign off and just leave things for a while because that is what I deserved. Taking a break and think about things. Because I realized that everything just went downhill in my life and I don’t have the energy to pretend that I am fine anymore.

I have so many realizations and I began to lose my own will and passion in writing, reading, singing and everything. Thankfully I am still into drawing though.

I became lazy, too lazy and it is not okay. I am not leaving this platform of course. I just needed some time off and figure out life that is why I am writing this.

I Need A Break!

I need a break doesn’t mean that I am quitting this platform and leave everything behind. It means I need to find myself because I lose myself in time.

I need a break doesn’t mean I am leaving forever. I mean that I am looking for what is important and truly matters.

.....MYSELF.....

Pause

As much as I wanted to move forward and continue reaching out for my goal, My 1BCH goal just to be exact because I am almost there. I don’t have any appetite to reach that goal anymore.

As much as I wanted to sing and play my guitar. My fingers just began to pluck different strings and chords which made a terrible sounds. I am lazy to make an effort to play anymore.

As much as I wanted to write, I can’t help but get stuck in the middle of my writing and I lose all my ideas. I tell myself to stop and rest but in reality I just can’t think anymore.

As much as I wanted to read so many Articles that I become curious of. I don’t have the effort to pick up the words and my brain isn’t working to process the thought of the Article.

I completely lose myself and do all the things I used to do.

Breathe

I need sometime to breathe and feel that I am alive and have a feeling and not paralyzed.

I need sometime to heal and to fixed and find the broken pieces that has been missing for a very long time.

I need sometime to taste, the water and food that I ate everyday because I forgot how good it actually taste.

I need sometime to listen, to a melody especially the voice from within me, my heartbeat and what my brain wanted to say.

I need sometime to rest and be able to take a deep breathe and to worry less.

I lose my air to breathe. Felt like I live with no oxygen floating in the outer space.

Think

To be able to think, I must free my mind from the negative thought and things that could give worry and could negatively affect me.

To be able to think, I must have a peace in my mind, see the world, spread my wings and fly freely.

To be able to think, I need to reset the things that I used to do, my passions in music and writ the universe and milky ways inside me.

To be able to think, I must do the procedure that I need in building me.

Closing Thought

Sometimes I just feel like I only belong to the freak world and not here. I am too stupid to be here. That is just what I think and trust me I am not saying mean things to myself.

I need to find myself and spend sometime with me because I felt so lost and the only person that can save me is me.

I hope that when I comeback, I am still welcome here. Maybe I’ll be back in a week or two, I don’t know, but I am looking forward in finding myself.

Date: August 12, 2021
Author: Corpsekkuno
Title: Pause,Breathe,Think.
Article No.: 42

Sponsors/Supporters

I want to express my gratitude to my sponsors, readers, commenters, up-voters, fellow writers, and to all my online friends who never get tired of reading to my nonsense and keep supporting me. You are one of the reason why I keep sticking around to this platform and keep writing. Thank you 😘♥️

I apologize for failing your hope for me. I am so sorry if I am not strong enough to handle it any longer. It consumed me and I don’t have energy left. I am so sorry and I promise I will be right back.

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Author’s Note

THANK YOU FOR ALL OF YOUR SUPPORT.

I will comeback that’s for sure. It’s just a short break for me. I love you guys but I love me more ♥️✨