What if everything you believe in is a lie?

Today looks like Tuesday to me, oh it is Tuesday, how can I forget is Tuesday, it is that I am losing track of the date and everyday seem to be the same because I am still on holiday from work, haha, its been good though but not too good for my financial health, local man is broke and I am looking up to God to fix me.

How's your holiday over there, my apologies if I haven't checked on you for a long time, I find things difficult to do these days, I can't even remember the last time I take myself for a flex, I really miss the happy and jovial me, I am stilling to reconnect with him, but I don't see us reconnecting anytime soon, because he's someone I used to be when I wasn't too exposed, but now that I am exposed, I don't think we can be in the same page again, some call it maturity, that there's age will you get two, you won't be impressed by so many things that use to give you goosebumps, you will now see them as nothing. 

Sometimes I wish I didn't know something I know now, I just wished I took the blue pill and continue my jovial life instead of taking the red pill that opened my eyes, I see now, I see the truth all in front of me but if only I knew the truth will turn me into a saddest, I would have just continue living in lies and living my life. 

Some things use to give me motivation and I was using it to hold myself through the rough things and keep telling myself I will get through it, but what if I am just the one putting myself in the rough times, maybe to prove that every struggle has a happy ending. what if the button of success is just in front of me and instead of me just pressing it, I concluded that it is too simple and I should look for clues that will take away my time. 

What if everything we believe in is just a lie, I don't say there's no heaven or hell, but what if God doesn't have religion and the name of His only begotten son is not Jesus? How do we clean it off our minds before the next generation takes it from us, how do we even teach the next generation that fraud is a sin when all the fraudsters are living the life of a king and building mansions, they are being recognized in the clubs, social gatherings and even in churches as big names? 

They contribute the highest amount of money to church buildings, the pastor will start calling them son/daughter, giving them a seat at the front as someone after their heart, why won't the younger ones in the church go into fraud too, maybe a youth at the church has been trying to get his pastor to call him son, he became diligent in church duties, but someone that just donated millions to the church automatically become a son of the pastor, even if is just his first time of entering the church, how do you think the youth will feel, something he has been working hard for years now, another person just get it without stress but just with a transfer, doesn't feel right to me. 

But what is right? Do we know what is the right thing to do? How do you define right from your perspective? Maybe you will say "live a Godly life, do good to people, never hurt anyone, get married, have kids, grow old and be merry" though the bible said that go into the world and multiply and replenish the earth, is that what we came to life to do? To multiply and fill the whole earth with more people, yeah, I know is instruction but some of us don't like taking commands, I am here to live a life that I will be happy about and not to go with instruction on how to live my life, I don't believe that there's anything like wrong or right decisions, I believe in faith and fate, a lot of people has left and the worldly things and became Christians, they start saying that worldly life is demonic and they are happy they left, while someone left the church to the worldly life and they say that church life has deprived them for so many good things in the world. 

I'm tired of convincing people not to do what displease God according to the bible, not that I don't believe in God, but I have come to realize that salvation is personal and God blessings the ones God want to bless and God does not look at your religious beliefs, because God doesn't have religious, so when they do want they want to do, I observe and learn, carrying the bible doesn't make you a true child of God, you can be carrying the bible and still be committing the worst sin on earth. 

Being true to yourself is a choice, trust me, you have so many options out there and you still choose to be true to your dreams, you been broken so many times by things that would have made you change, but you still decide to stay true, I have so many people I look up to as mentors, but I have limits on how I look at them, so I won't copy the influence that displeased me, I know I am not much of Christian because of so many things that I have seen and heard, but one thing I know is that I have a believer of God and that is one thing I need to know. 

Doesn't matter how everyone labels me for me what I have done and what I am going to do, I know they won't call me a Christian, but does it matter, humans only sees the body and tell what is good, but remember is only God that knows Good. 

A random article from my broken mind again, I hope it is not that broken anyway. Haha

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04/01/2022