A Not so Happy New Year
I just want to give you an advance sorry for this rant of mine. I just want to share what I felt right now. I've already shared it to my friend and surprisingly realized that it's my first time to share my pain in personal. Yesterday was supposed to be a happy new year, I woke with a message on my tab that a friend of mine is asking help since she's at unknown place and she wants to go home now. I taught she's just joking but she starts sending crying emoji. I woke up in my bed without washing my face then ask some details where she is, she told me that she's on Pateros Hospital, I'm worried since she might got in an accident. I messaged the exact location nor a land mark where I can see her but she told me that she's near on Hospital. I immediately check my wallet if I have money yet there's nothing, I remember that I used all the money to buy firecrackers last night. It's an emergency that's why I asked my brother if he have money then I'm gonna borrow it, sad to say he also doesn't have money left. My sister is still sleeping that's why I didn't bother her to wake her up then ask money.
Then I saw a hundred pesos on the table. I told to myself that I'm gonna borrow it but I'll return it soon as I cashout the money. I used the money as a fare in tricycle, I don't know where pateros Hospital is that's why I'm feeling lost. I ask many drivers and hopefully they are telling me the way. I reached Pateros Hospital then message my friend where she is. After 10 minutes of waiting, she finally showed up with her boyfriend. When I see her together with her boyfriend, it made me piss off since what's the essence of fetching her if she's together with her boyfriend. Then I ask what's she doing in this place then she told me that she went into her boyfriend's house and they drink but when she woke up she's alone and don't know how to go home that's why she contacted me. I am really disappointed on her, I really thought that something happen on her but i didn't bother to scold her. She's a kind person yet immature.
Im just trying to warn her about her act since she's a girl and it's not good that she left drunk and asleep on someone's house. She said sorry to me, I feel pissed off yet I'm trying to ask if she's okay. After that I accompany him in terminal of tricycle then we ride home. I sent her home then I also went home. There's a 20 pesos left on me that's why I return it on the table and planning to return full 100 once I got the money I am planning to cashout. A big shout out to Kuya @Eunoia since he's the one who helps me if I have money to transfer,a big thank you for you Kuya. While I was busy reading on read.cash suddenly my sister called us and told that a hundred peso is missing on the table. I immediately told her that I borrow the money but I'm gonna return it once I got the money I cashout. I already explained that I'm gonna return it but she start saying hurtful words, the most hurtful word that she told me is that, I'm a thief.
She keeps babbling other hurtful words then that's the time that I low my pride, I didn't answer her nor explain myself since what's the essence of explaining yourself if you won't get heard. I am a type of person that don't want to argue since I prefer to become quiet in order not to make an issue. I open my tab then watch Black Clover since it's serve as my stress reliever. I didn't cry but deep inside those words inflicted me so much. I try to erase those hurtful words that I hear on my mind but suddenly my tears fall on their own. I feel devastated, it's the first time that the pain defeats me. I cried while watching an anime. Then someone messaged me, a good friend of mine @Master_Romz143 that the money is ready to cashout that's why I prepared myself even though I have teary eyes. I went on Centennial then entered in their building. I knock on their door then her mother is the one who opened it.
I asked her mother if she's already okay now since she's having an illness. After that we go to neighbor house to cashout the money. When we return to their house, he asked me if I'm okay then that's the time that I didn't stop my emotion. A stream of tears fall on my cheeks then I told him what happen. I don't know where I go wrong, it's just a hundred pesos that I borrow and I already told that I'm the one who borrow it but why do I need to receive those hurtful words. They don't know what I'm doing inside the house, if there's no rice and viand, I'm the one who buying it without saying it to them since I also want to help inside the house.
I can't stop my tearsfrom falling, hopefully my friend is there to comfort and give some advice to me. It's the firs time that I release my pain to someone who ready to listen to me. It's a new me that sharing my problems to others. He keeps giving me advices and even let me play mobile legends on his phone so that i can temporarily forgot the pain in my heart. It's so hurtful, I know this may sounds cringe and some of you may tell that I'm just overacting but the pain stored in my heart for decades and it's the first time that I got breakdown. Sorry for this kind of nonsense article, I just to release the pain I have right now. I am still hoping for prosperous new year heheh, maybe?.
Damn dude, you should ask for my help. I'm near to Taguig pateros hospital and can reach you in no time. I'm willing to lend a hand I swear. That's what I don't like about drinking liquor for they make people unaware about their doings. Also they even disturb some people that should be resting.
Also about your sister, I don't wanna say a lot for her for she's your blood related but that was so mean. For just a hundred pesos, she says all those words to you? Damnn dude. I'm also having sickness right now just sharing. I wanna accompany you right now but I needed to prepare for midterm examination. If I have free time, let's meet up sometimes!!