Am I a bad mother?

Olah ! Read casher's all over the world.

How was everyone here?I hope that you are all doing great fine.

Yesterday was'nt a good day for me ,I was suffering headache maybe its because of lack of sleep last night.My cough was already as wellas kids but last night my youngest son keeps crying at night ,I don't know why .I checked his temperature but its fine ,he don't have cough but he was still having colds.

He is not comfortable at night ,everytime he awake ,he cries and so I am ,I need to attend him so everytime he is crying I am comforting him ,asking what he want and carried him.Even my husband was helping me since he was having a work in the morning I choose to take care and nursing our baby alone.

So yesterday I wake up around 4am even if I am too sleepy because of not having an enough sleep I need to wake up so early to prepare my husband's breakfast and the things he need to bring to his work.Around 6:30 in the morning ,my husband leave the house and there I I wanted to go back to sleep coz I am too sleepy ,then when I was about to closed my eyes ,suddenly my baby was awake and cried,you know that feeling that you are exhausted but you don't have choice coz no one will take your place as a mother.

Am I bad a mother?

So yesterday he keeps crying and I don't know what he feels ,I gave him all he want but still he cries and then he asked if he can go to his grandmother's ministore so I take him and then he started eating candies and lolipops .I tried to stop him but he really wanted it and he will cries if I get the candies ,so we let him eat what he want and suddenly he complain about his teeth and I said its because of candies so I gave him water.

Around 10 am I take him to sleep coz I am too sleepy and feels exhausted but then he don't want to sleep,I take him to sleep so that I can rest but he don't have plans to sleep.I was mad and can't control my emotions because of my headache.I was at him and scolded him then after a while he sleep.

I got the chance to take a nap,I was tired and before I sleep ,I take medicine for headache.I was able to take a rest for a hour when my baby awake ,he was asking anything but if I gave him ,he will throw it away .But still I was trying to manage and control my self .I quickly prepared our lunch and eat but then he was throwing the food and because of it ,I was'n able to control my self ,parang nagdilim paningin ko ,yan ang ayaw na ayaw ko yung magsayang ng pagkain ,I know how does it feels to have an empty table but he was throwing it show his tantrums.I got mad and spank him ,I wasn't able to control my self and he keeps saying "sakit mama"or it hurts mama.I told him not to do it anymore.

I was guilty when I saw him crying ,I don't want him to act like that ,its nit easy to find a food and it easy for him to waste it.I was mad but of course as mother I need to control my emotions so that I can't hurt him more.

In the afternoon ,I take him outside we roaming outside for him not get bored,since he don't want to use my phone so I take him out and then he was complaining his teeth ,so I checked it and there I've learned that he was on teething ,in of his last teeth was already out ,I felt so guilty of what I did and asked sorry to him ,I know its nots easy to have that pain ,it really gave so much pain when a baby was teething.I keep hugging him and asked sorry for what I ve done ,I felt guilty and thinking I was a bad mother.

And now he is not totally fine ,at night he awakes and feel uncomfy at least now I know what does he feel.

And thats all for today ,sorry for my inactivity yesterday its because of what I feel and now I will try to stay active here.

Anyway ,my apology of not renewing my sponsorships to some users here ita because I don't have much amount on my wallet ,my eldest son birthday is coming and my earnings for this week will be spend and I'll give it to my friend who was having a finacial problem now becaus of her mom.Lets hepl her mom to pray for her successful operation and fast recovery.

Thats all for today ,thank you and have a blessed friday !