Mon, Nov 8
Hey there, my motivators! Labyu! ❣
It's already 8:30 pm and I have not started writing anything yet. Why? I don't know lol. Maybe because I am having a hard time putting my ideas into words. Or maybe I really have no idea how to start? I am always like this you know. A lot of ideas, subjects, and topics running inside my head but the moment I open this notepad of mine, my fingers can't type anything anymore.
The introduction was written yesterday. Looking at it, obviously, I ran out of ideas of what to write next and how to support the main topic. I thought of writing something random yesterday but nothing was made. But it's okay because I was able to rest myself after that.
Now, I finally have something to share with you. Thank you master Teddy pogi for giving me an idea of what to write about today. You're the best! I always need a push. Thank you for the push! :D
I started working at home for more than a month now. So far, I am not satisfied with the results of my choice. I expected that something might help me there but it become worse instead. It is not about my family, well sort of, but the main problem is my performance at work.
Thoughts before leaving...
I thought that if I worked there, I can save money. I am really trying so hard to save money for myself, for my future.
Why is that? I am paying no rent anymore, I don't have to buy food for myself since I am home, we have gulay to cook , so why? Well, I just found out that we have load of debts to be paid before this year ends. Much more than I expected. So as much as I love to save some money, I have to pay for it first. I want to end the year with no debts. I want to start 2022 free from debts!
I thought that it would be conducive to work at home. I thought that I will no longer experience any distractions and noises.
I am wrong about this again. There are more distractions at home compared to the place that I am staying in the city. We have neighbors shouting and nagging so loud early in the morning. I have my younger brothers fighting plus my mother shouting at them to stop. Also I have my eldest brother who is very noisy when drunk. I told them to stay quiet during my working hours, they will just nod but they never behave.
I thought that I can maintain my good performance at work. I thought that I can focus more on hitting my goals.
The internet works fine at first but in the following days, it started messing up. Aside from the internet issues, there are unscheduled power interruptions that will last for hours. With these two going on almost every day, my performance at work is no good anymore. My supervisor wondered why and what happened to me. I am always a special mention for call-outs and poor performance. Poor me.
I thought that I will be able to solve the problems at home that I've been dealing with. I thought I can finally sort things out.
The more I stay at home, the more problems I get. I don't know if the problem is me because I overthink too much about everything. Maybe it is really just me who's making my life miserable. I don't know. I think I am going crazy.
Oh God, here we go again, talking about problems. I don't want to talk about this anymore. I have to stop right here. I don't want to think of it tonight. Thinking about my problems at home will just ruin my mood. Why am I so dramatic? LOL
Well, I guess that would be all for today, my awesome read-friends! Thank you for giving me some minutes of your time. I appreciate it so much.
Thank you for reading!
God bless us all!
Working from home is not as easy as many people think, unless everyone respects the working hours, but there is always something to do and it seems that working on the web is not a job, but a fun. I do have fun working on the Web though. I hope your situation improves.