Be There For Yourself.

A few days ago, I wrote about something which made me depressed. I was depressed to the point of going to spiritual homes just to check if something is wrong with me or not. I am not a fanatic of things like that but some situations will just make you visit spiritual homes. I don't know if it has happened to you before. I am always part of those people who think that going to spiritual homes is trash but the burden and problem was too much for me so I had to go. This happened to me last year, in October. In the last article I wrote and I wrote about this, someone said he guessed that it was a relationship issue and I am sure that is also what everyone will think of but you all are wrong. It is never about a relationship. It is more than a relationship and it made me feel like I had a spiritual problem but I am glad that it was not. Hahaha

What do you do when you are depressed? Some people talk to other people, some listen to music and some people do the other things that they love to do. I am talkative and I love music so much. I have always listened to music so I came up with the idea of making new friends. Talking to the so-called friend all the time will not make me think about what happened to me. This has worked for me so many times. But I realized that I still brood whenever my friends tell me goodnight. I will no longer be myself. The depression will just come from where it is hidden. It is crazy but that is the way it happens. I don't know if you have ever experienced this. If you have, you will understand what I am talking about. My heart will begin to palpitate which is not very good for someone at my age. I then realized that the method did not work. What other method can I use?

Then, I thought of it and realized the greatest too that can help me fight this depression is myself. I need to do this. I then took enough time for myself and decided to stop talking to everyone to see if I can chase away the depression alone. It did not work and I had to come up with another idea of getting busy with other things. That was when I became very serious about Hive. I am still not making a reasonable amount of money but I have never closed the day with less than $1. I was even able to improve in some skills that I have got and I think I can proudly say that I was able to utilize the time well. That was how I was able to come out of depression. I got out of depression by being there for myself. I am the only one who can be there for me.

I need me and it will always be. I am just glad that I am thinking about what made me cry now and I no l longer care again. This is the most beautiful feeling.

Also, I have been single since last year June and I decided to give love a chance again. I met someone who I am getting along with and I have been taking my time to know him before I do anything crazy because I may be very clingy. Hahaha

Well, I will give you a gist about that tomorrow. It is funny and crazy because I noticed something which is a red flag to me😂.