Savior psychosis

Last Sunday, i met a cousin who I literally see almost on weekly basis through out my life. He was in a serious financial crisis. He had been swindled by one of those fraudulent platforms that promises it's members bogus returns of investment when they invest heavily in them. Needless to say that this was never the first time he would be falling for such scams. What made this worse than the previous ones was that he invested with borrowed funds and is now in a huge debt.

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From a distance, one could clearly see the look of great anguish in his eyes and he needed all the assistance he could possibly get. After he had told me about his predicament, I wasn't quite surprised when he asked me to help him in the little way that I could so that he could offset some of his debts. He said that the pressure and humiliation from his creditors are becoming more and more embarrassing on a daily basis. I really felt sorry.

Honestly I didn't have much in my bank account at the moment, so I told him I really wished I could help him out but I am unable to But deep down , I knew I was in a position to help him if I wanted to. I had some funds in my Bch wallet but I felt I shouldn't tamper with them at the moment since they were valuable assets that should be left alone for a long time so that they could appreciate .

That evening , after I and my cousin had parted, my heart was heavy and I couldn't sleep much the whole night. I knew I could have helped him . I tried to imagine a brother, a husband or a father in such a position and i felt an ominous chill run through me. Then I realized how insensitive I was. No doubt, if any of my loved ones were in such a jam, I would definitely not hesitate to put on the market all that I ever owned just so they could be free. I felt rather ashamed and asked the Almighty for forgiveness. After I had sold the funds, i immediately called my cousin and requested for his account details.

After the transaction had been made, I felt a tranquility I'd never felt in a long while. Even though the money was quite a substantial sum, it seemed I didn't care whether he paid back or not. As a matter of fact, my whole being was overwhelmed by the exceeding gratitude in his voice when he called back and confirmed that he had received the funds. It made me felt that I had done the most impressive thing that I would ever do in my entire life. Not that I felt powerful or Superior afterwards, I only felt glad.

This is definitely not the first time I have experienced restlessness after initially failing to oblige someone else's needs. I'm quite sure that some of my friends here also suffer from such a psychological phenomenon.

Ever since I was younger, I always tend to develop a rapid and strong emotional connection to people who are in dire conditions. Irrespective of how they found themselves in such a situation or wether it was entirely their fault they fell into such a hole , I don't usually care. I wouldn't even consider the possibility that I might be implicated or fall into thesame hole when extending an helping hand.

I'd always feel like, if I don't help him/her, chances are that no one else will. This was why I called this a psychological issue. My mental health could even get worse when I begin to imagine that the person might think that I deliberately refused to offer an assistance.

In the nearest future,wether or not the table gets turned and I find myself at the other end, i wouldn't bother much if thesame individual failed to assist me as much as I have assisted them in their own time. No doubt, I would definitely feel hurt and cheated, but trust me, such feelings are only ephemeral and don't last long.

In no time i would ever use that situation as a justification to ignore the person or cut them off, just like how some people would do. Neither would i ever refer to such past disappointment or use it as a yardstick anytime I am about to render a similar assistance to others.

Demonstrating such kindness to others is a major path that leads me to abundant peace of mind and satisfaction. We should always be ourselves and always follow our hearts no matter what. So long as we are sure that we are doing the right thing and wouldn't hurt anyone.

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