July 10, 2022
Its been how many weeks that my family is going through a rough day, I feel so sad on whats happening but I dont know what to do, I know its a family matter but I just want to open up or share here a lil to lighten up the burden that I am carrying, I can ignore all this matter coz I am far from them but I can't coz they are my family and the issue is our mother..so I dont know where to put myself now. I feel like even they are just neighbors there but there are hearts are miles part kaya nakakalungkot talaga..hayssst!
Ung pmangkin kasi namin na kami mother namin nagpalaki is may boyfriend na and I think she loves the guy so much that nagagawa nya magsinungaling at make excuses just to meet the guy and un kinakagalit ni mother, and ayun nga pinaglitan and harsh words alam mo na kapag galit, then one of my siblings naman is somewhat kinakampihan si pamangkin pabayaan na daw at dalaga na, I get the point but what my mothes get angry is ung pagiging sinungaling nya, then ung ang ending my mom and my sibling is ndi nag-uusap, and it gets worst pa daw kasi even my niece is living with our youngest sibling si mother minomomitor pa din ito at pinapagalitan at minumura, so my others siblings are affected na din coz of our mothers attitude daw.
Then my mother is chatting me naman what happened and I am telling her that keep off her attention na sa niece namin dahil kung ndi na tlga masaway bayaan na, to avoid issues kaso she is still looking after on the actitivites of our niece. So now they are in cold war.
As much as I want to be an itruder, but I dont know how to approach my siblings ung tipong ndi ako lalabas na may kinakampihan dahil ayoko tlga gusto ko maging masaya sila uli dun gaya dati kahit mlayo ako, then I want to explain to them to have a long patience with our mother dahil matanda na ito, at marami na din nararamdaman sa sarili, pero ndi ko alam paano ko gagawin ang bigat sa dibdib na kagalit nila si mother namin at they are telling harsh words na din kay mother.
I know our mother is too strict tlga I experience it during my elementary days that even I had the most unforgetable experience with her and makes me feel cold to her way back, and during high school days I was nakawala from her kasi I studied in manila then after my high school days nagwork na ako, so we never had too much time together tlga, maybe my siblings suffers from her too much kaya nakakapagsalita sila ng ganun, but my point is matanda na sya para patagalin pa nila ung samaan ng loob nila, why not let her enjoy her days on earth.
If my mother is chatting me, she keeps telling me that if they dont want to talk to me fine, dont ever talk to me until I die and I dont want that to happened naman, kaya ung puso ko ang bigat tlga, but I dont know what to do lalo at malayo ako, alam naman natin minsan sa chat iba ang understanding ntin sa gustong iparating ng kachat natin and vice versa. Hayssst life!
Sorry for my rants guys, just want to open up this issue baka sakaling gumaan ang pakiramdam ko! Bukas ko na share ung gala namin today.
Ganyan po talaga ang mga nakakatanda di namn sa pagiging strict pero we know na they are just doing it for our own good, at di talaga maiiwasan ang conflict na ganito kasi between our oldies and us we are growing up on a different generation and comparison still present there.