Hello, read.cash frineds! I hope you are all happy and safe.

I have been feeling down lately... again and again.

I kept thinking about why I was feeling like this and now I realized why.

I have been in read dot cash, noise dot cash, steem, and hive and well, I followed a significant number of people even more than twice the number who follows me. And every time I read ther people's posts, I get depressed about how wonderful the words in their articles are.

It's not envying when I take it. I sure love how wonderful their words and posts are. It made me wonder

• where on earth did they get that knowledge and wisdom?

• Where did all the knowledge that I got from school go?

I sued to be very good in English subject and in fact, I was the only one that passed on my school's JEEP(JOB ENABLING ENGLISH PROFICIENCY) program.

That subject was done on a computer and we had an exam on the very first day about how well we know English. I got more scores than anyone and was the only one exempted to take the course but where did it all go? It's depressing me.

I have been relying on Grammarly all the days that I had been here and my typing is not accurate. Imagine me clicking all those red lines on the screen because I mistype and into nad and the into the. Those two words alone can cover over 20 words in an article for Pete's sake!

What have I done ot myself?

Last month, I posted on one of the platforms. That was the best words that I can give and one of the curator suggested that I should do his and that.

(Of course, all of you who read my articles here noticed that was only using simple English that describes how my day went and some activities that I share. )

I was a little offended of course, that is all I got but he wants more. Maybe he just wanted to motivate me but I was ashamed of my work since then. I am even afraid of posting in the same community again in the fear of receiving similar comments.

But if I would follow the flowery words that h was suggesting, it would not be from me already. I was writing to express myself being me and giving flowery words just to capture anyone who reads my piece is not me.

Ooh, maybe I was just overthinking things again but the thing is that I lost confidence in my work.

But where do you guys get all that wisdom you used for posting articles?

Mmmm, I never knew where my article is leading so might as well end it here. Thanks for passing by.