Sentiments of a drunken man

Is there a truth about “drunken man words are man’s sober thoughts” From my point of view people who are under the influence of alcohol can not behave properly, in fact these can cause further problems in the end. These can sometimes lead to a worst situation because through alcohol they have the confidence to say the words they wanted to say to someone. When we are under the influence of alcohol we sometimes can’t control our emotions and lead us telling our inner thoughts about this and that. Funny thing about it, is that we tend to forget the things we’ve done while we are so drunk the next day when we are already sober. But do we really forget it or we just felt embarrassed for the actions we’ve done the other night.

The reason for my today’s topic is because the other night, my husband Anthony video called me after he and his friend are done with their drinking session. He was really drunk and he knows it well too. Honestly though, Anthony has high alcohol tolerance and even though he has consumed a big amount of alcohol he has to stay sober because he needs to drive us back home. Fortunately, all these years he has been a careful driver and we always got home safe. But I guess we were just lucky because accidents can really happen anytime most specially if you are under the influence of alcohol. It is something that must not be tolerated that is why I always told him to minimize his alcohol intake. And one more thing, when he is very drunk, he is so talkative and never run out of topic to talk about. I hate it sometimes because I am so sleepy whenever it does happen. I just want to sleep but my roommate keep on talking and annoyingly disturbing my sleep. And then in the morning, he can’t remember anything he did from the last night.

Going back to our conversation via video call, just like when he is very drunk, he keeps on talking about his big brother. If you remember guys I wrote about my sentiments on his big brother. If you haven’t read it, please check it out here. Right now, Anthony stays civil with his “Kuya” he was really hurt because it seems like his brother has forgotten all the good memories they had together back when they were young. He has lost all the respect to him when his brother message them “magkalimutan na tayo” (forget about their brotherhood) in one of their group chats. He eventually deleted the message after some realizations but the pain and the hurt that everyone in the group chats felt remained. This was during pandemic time when only his big brother has an stable job. Funny thing was that, we weren’t even asking for any financial help at them. We had plans, because they were one of our last options if in case we run out of budget. And if ever, that would be the first time that we were going to ask a favor from them. Honestly, we haven’t borrowed any single cent from them, it was the other way around. But from what we have observed, it seems to us that it was his way of telling us to back off, you won’t get help from us.

After that hurtful comment from their big brother, I can felt that my husband was really hurt. He stays in the group chat but never joined in the conversations. The rest of his brothers stay connected out of respect for their big brother. It continued like that until last December, they bought another car. So apart from the one they are using which they finally fully paid, they got another one on that month. We really don’t care though, they can get many cars as long as they can pay for it, but the timing is just very off. You were enjoying your new car, while your brothers were having a hard time. Can they be at least be sensitive with the situation and have their new car next time instead. For heaven’s sake it’s pandemic and people were having financial struggles and there you are flaunting your new car, right after you’ve shown your true attitude about helping your brothers. And what is something funny, is that on that same year they sold their second hand car for the reason that they can’t have two cars because Kuya is working from home. So if that was the reason, why need to buy a new car? Well the answer to that question will be revealed in the next part of this article.

I will stop this ranting for a while and will continue it next time. I am sorry for pausing at this part. There will be a lot more stories to be revealed in the next part. Thank you for bearing with my sentiments for today. See you in the next part.

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