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Unconscious
**From one moment to the next the spirit left me.** The good one, together with the good vibes. It's the moment I ask myself how to go on. Is this what I want for me? Hanging around, wasting my time by doing what I don't like. Who do I benefit if it isn't me if it is no longer me who feels enthusiastic about the things I do? I quit jobs because of the same feeling, the feeling of losing myself. It's clear, it should be clear I can't always do what I like. Not because of a lack of time or the responsibilities I have but because of my lack of everything. Energy to start with. I wish I could recharge myself as easily as the old cell phone but I can't. Even after a night rest, I am not charged for 15%. I guess my battery is nearly dead and there's nothing for sale I can replace it with. I gave up on **cooking** weeks ago to save energy and while the clock ticks I continue posting stuff (**cps**) for the children to leave a bit behind of me. The person they might easily forget together with all the other memories I tried to create during the past years we had. While laying on my bed I hear them **laughing out loud**, the joy scatters around. It's not with me but what counts is they are happy. Device: mobile phone Egg timer: set at 10 minutes Prompts: written in bold
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I can see that you know what you want
It's more that I decided to give in to things I can no longer do or control. It feels good if people, my children, can still laugh no matter what. 💕
Okay
I am back my dear frnd❤
It is good to see you back. I could ask where you have been but I assume if you want to share that you would have. Welcome back dear. 💕🍀
Hmmm so much about you.
I hope the drive to do things will always be with you🤗
My brains still work but the neck damage causing me being unconscious will not heal. The drive is back if my conscious is back. 💕
Then i pray for your conscious to be back!❤
Make your children an inspiration to be charge 100%. Family is the drive, the reason we are, and why we strive to have a better life.
Thanks for the tip but that won't work. The unconscious is unconscious. If I hit you with a big hammer on your head or your neck you are knocked down and no family will recharge you. If it only was that easy. 💕
Invest in your children, they are your family now, bonding with them, being close with them is your charger when being knocked down.
Even if my family can recharge me the other things around me will take away the charges, so I do not think that I will ne able to be a 100% charge.
This is what I felt now. If I have the option to quit my job, I have done to few.years back. I do feel like I am losing to myself, forcing myself to work things that do not give me enjoyment in doing so.
It sucks when we feel like this. There are days when nothing helps and you just feel like a worm, slithering in bed. Nothing appetizes you and nothing moves you. The only thing we can do is let that feeling pass, but it may not.
I've been in this situation for years. Only to find out that I am not the only person who feel this inside our workplace. I discovered a lot of people who's also struggling emotionally but the good thing is we help one another to cope up with this feeling.
I think it happens to many more. The main problem is we continue, continue because it is asked from us, we are forced to. We do it without a break till the moment we discover it's no longer possible.
I know how it feels. No matter how hard to tried to escape, there is always a time where it needs to be felt like we're obligated to.