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1st Contest Freewriting Please, read the complete text before you join this contest! *Here* *you can read the announcement of the first contest on read.cash for freewriters.* *You can practice first and as many times as you like.* *Set a timer for ten minutes, write about* ***self-motivation,*** *and use the words: cooking, laughing out loud, and cps.* *Submit your entry to* *the community Self-motivation* https://read.cash/@wakeupkitty/join-write-and-win-657a56e0…
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Alcohol kills **What alcohol can do with you is more than most people see or will admit.** *If you drink you think you are funny, especially if you have a company. If you don't drink your day out is spoiled by a bunch of drunk people and the only thing left for you is feeling annoyed or leaving the restaurant.* *I never really visited a pub mainly because of the smokers. The smokers are no longer allowed but some pubs don't care and still let them in. I no longer care…
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Bor the Wolf **June 30, 2020** I had breakfast in the kitchen and some dinner too. I have no idea where Soot is. Yesterday he was taken away. He's a baby and cannot be with our other dog. Monty is big and a boy too. I can not walk with him because he is too big. I am not sure who does let him out. Perhaps he does it himself? If we go to my granny Monty sits in the back of the car. He's always sick and vomits just like me. I cannot go to the living room because my mother…
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The evil brain **Stepmothers** Fairy tales are where most of us get to know them first. The stepmother stands for an evil scrupulous woman. A woman who will try to get rid of the children and lay her hands on the fortune of her new wedded husband. Of course, the husband is way too good of trust, blind, stupid, and no matter if he is a king or salesman he disappears, gets ill, and dies (sounds like a black widow to me). As a child, you learn stepmoms are the worst thing that…
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Be aware of Grammarly! Do you use Grammarly? Know it changes the prompt "perplex" into "people". Please, check your text if you use this prompt! All six prompts you can find back in the community it's tagline too. The prompts are: ashes - charming - release - perplex - support - worm If you used more than three prompts there's no need to change your entry.
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If parents drink *A father drove into a school.* *He wasn't satisfied with the school, argued with the teachers. He went home and after some drinks, he no longer hesitated to get his right, he would teach the school of his child a lesson. He didn't care about the fact children, parents and teachers were present or what hos child would think about him. He ended up on the schoolyard flat on his face handcuffed and taken away by the police.* *A child lives for years in a closet…
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Before I can leave **Usually, I travel a few times a year over a longer distance.** At times I went by plane but more frequently by car. The reason is for meeting my children, arranging things, and meeting friends (their home or mine). By now it's eight years later and the number of friends I meet decreased. I still have contact with them but it feels it's kind of pointless to me visiting them if I am exhausted after a long drive while they cannot even find the time to drive…
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Reading is useful **Life of a moderator** July 3, 2020 **Do you read?** I mean do you read all those people you give a thumb-up to or is it just about doing them a favor because they do the same for you? It's not such a long time ago the point system changed and @Read.Cash told us the upvoting circles are forbidden. I think they still exist. I believe most of you hardly read and spent more time in a quick post than taking the time to read, compliment, and click on that thumb…
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Turkey with mixed vegies **Let's use the wok again** As soon as Summer starts I am no longer in the mood for cooking. My kitchen isn't more than a small hallway and it doesn't even have a window. This means cooking smells drift through the entire house and because the ceiling is low (no way I can stretch out I broke a great lamp by trying it once) the temperature easily rises. Outside is no longer an option. There are too many flies but my fryer (French fries) stays outside.…
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Lack of motivation *Yes, there are plenty of times I suffer from it especially at this moment, and laughing out loud doesn't help me neither does music or sport. I am not sportive if it comes to jogging (my feet always hurt) and you won't see me at a gym (I consider it as a waste of money).* **At times not much is needed to give up on everything.** No worries, I will not grab one bottle of wine after the other nor drink myself into a coma. It's not a habit of mine. No habit…
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My words, my language *You love to speak, read, and talk in your own language, the one you grew up with?* At times I miss it. Mainly because of the richness in expressions, the idioms used. I can't find as many back in foreign languages. For sure they exist but it's harder for me to find, recognize, and use them. Something is missing, the emotion behind the words. There are so many apart from those I use and know. The older ones are hundreds of years old, the newer ones are…
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Norms and values **Politics, it's a word many people avoid.** It's seldom seen for positive. Once a debate starts a part of the population hits the road and the rest shows interest or is angry. The anger increases if it affects someone in a negative way. Cheering for what benefits others is not a common thing to do. Who lives in poverty will not cheer for the rich getting richer, the wealthy ones will not cheer for a better life for the poor and the middle group gave up on…
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Back to school The last time I wrote was on Monday, July 1st. https://read.cash/@wakeupkitty/bor-the-wolf-76702ecc I went back to school and did the test. I don't think anyone missed me. No one asked why I was absent. They never do. I think they are used to me being sick. They are but I can not get used to it. I don't think my mother calls the school, the doctor never visits us. Sick means I have to stay in bed. I stay a lot in bed because my parents don't like me to be in…
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65 lost posts **Just before I went to bed I received a message.** "65 notifications are...." it said. Sixty-five are you kidding me? I know my connection is slow and it takes me a lot of time to moderate but it's what I do from early in the morning till bedtime and once I go to bed all posts are read and approved (if not rejected). *"Let's have a look at what kind of notifications there are,"* I thought and clicked on the red bell... *Moderate*... *"Whaaat is everyone awake…
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Stop fooling yourself *You drink to make life easier, to forget problems and it helps you to relax? You tell yourself you deserved it after a day of hard work, and use it for an excuse to empty one bottle after the next? Know you can't fool yourself or your brain. Even if you are unconscious the problems remain. This means you need to drink more to feel a bit better for a very short moment only. The sleep of a drunk is not like the same as one who is in control of his own…
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If food talks Scientist say food is alive and real. They say they proved plants do feel and respond on pain just like me. If you touch them you can easily see they are suffering and you feel their misery. Now I know... But my concern is what about me? What should I eat, how can I stay healthy? If what's on my plate keeps begging me with tearing eyes "Please, set me free. I'm a living person, I guarantee I'll never kill like you intend to do with me"? *"Look at this little…
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Auntie **Yesterday my aunt came to visit us.** She is kind to me but my mother doesn't want her in our house. She has a funny car. It's blue and she says it's a duck. It shakes if you sit inside and wiggle. I am not sick in her car. She never ties me up like my father does. Auntie waited long till my mother came downstairs. I think it's rude to let visitors wait but they all say my mother is the queen and it's what queens do. They make you wait. I saw the queen on…
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More alcohol *"They drank it,"* the teacher said, *"it's dangerous but there was nothing else during the war and they broke into the pharmacies to get what they needed most".* He showed the glass bottle with what looked like water. We were not allowed to have a sniff or sip. There was no need for me to know how it smells. I knew already the use of it just not that people drank it. We had it at home, next to the iodine and all the other medication and things the first aid kit…
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Your comment counts! **The 1st freewriting contest came to an end.** So far we had 46 participants and about 71 valid entries. The winners will not be announced yet because it's not sure who will win. It's waiting for the notifications, how many more will show up in the next 40 hours. All entries need to be read and approved. It may be clear freewrites written from now one can be added to the community but will not count if it comes to winning. **This contest started to help…
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Owls **She was special Birca my barn owl.** I had a male too he always screamed. I didn't raise him but he came to me because he drove his owner crazy. Later he went to a hunter at that time he learned his screaming brought him nothing. Birca stayed with me. She was my baby and made the sweetest sounds I ever heard. She didn't like strangers and only my eldest could reach her. It's strange how each time an animal dies something died inside me. If I think of her I could cry…
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Readers asked to comment. Dear freewriters, I hope you are still awake and give the writers of the next articles some support. It's nearly midnight with me which means bedtime. I had a long day and started at 5:30 am reading. While I sleep it's your turn to read and comment. **If you read my earlier post you will know the choice who won isn't made yet.** I wait for the last entries to moderate. If you read the announcement you know this contest is about freewriting, writing…
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Light in the dark **June 6, 2020** At school, we always listen to a story out of the Bible first. It's a different Bible from ours at home. This one had pictures. I like to listen to stories but the Bible at home is difficult. I don't understand the words and I do not like my mother's voice it sounds sharp and she is not a good reader. My father's voice is better. The teacher knows how to tell stories. Perhaps she likes to tell them? We all have to sit at our desk and…
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The power inside **I am not a Christian.** I do not believe in what is preached and my doubts about religion started during my childhood. To some the stories in the Bible make sense to me they don't. I do not see God as a person who is honest, fair, and full of love. All those tales full of life lessons, it beats me. I can not find the so-called message. I hear and see something different. Something they do not want me to see, they try to talk out of my head because…
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Why you don't like me It can be the first impression that makes us not liking someone. The brain registers within a few seconds if a person is good or bad. The decision is easily made. Who is like we are is good, who is different is wrong. Wrong means danger and it's better to avoid it as giving it a fair chance. To the brain, it's hard to cope with differences and it's a natural thing to flock with the same birds of a feather. The more civilized the human being is the more…
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And the winners are... **Let's keep this post short - it's bedtime for me - and announce the winners of the first (free)writing contest on read.cash!** Thank you all for participating and showing what you are capable of. Thank you for reading and commenting on each other. You proved in 6 days' time you are not only freewriters but fast students and supportive as well. My compliments to all of you. It was a hard task to read every post and I even read them three times.…
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No news, good news? *There isn't real news today which means what we read is not worth the time reading. It's found somewhere, made up, or can be years old.* **Today's headlines are**: police officer saves a dog out of a burning house, how to avoid maggots in your compost, a story about being kidnapped and molested by Serbs, the lack of houses plus their increasing prices. *I assume we have no pets, no burning houses, and no police officers to write about.* **Maggots**...…
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The "holy cow" **Will I travel again?** It's questionable and if it comes to one of our ministers the mob should not. It should be forbidden for them to use an airplane. Did I read that right? Yes, I did and I can't say this restriction gives me a great feeling. Perhaps I should buy a rubber boat and paddle my way into freedom, a country far away. I dump my ID into the sea and will have a new identity. I can be 20 years younger, play dumb, and build a new life. No need to…
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In the picture Do you love to be in the picture? You like to be noticed by someone or hope what you do will be seen by at least someone? Some people do the weirdest things to make that happen. Jumping off a cliff or make sure to get into the news. No matter if it's good or bad... it's an advertisement. A Dutch expression says "People can better talk about you as eating (from) you". **This flower likes to be noticed too.** The problem is it doesn't grow in the field with…
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One-pot dish For me, it's not interesting enough. I am fine with a plate of rice once a day. My youngest didn't eat it during the first year of her life. She knew what it was but had no intention to even try it. *"Only mommy eats rice"*, she said. It was true at that time now she does too. The first year she lived on pancakes only, next came French Fries. She still loves it but " mommy" hates to make it. **What did I cook?** Not what I intended to make which was meatballs…
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Banking He hesitated in front of the bank. Not because of all the warning signs. Reminders about what isn't allowed. Skating, ice-creams, photo cameras, weapons, uncovered faces. *"The face mask... It was right there in his left hand, right?"* Without one he was not allowed to enter. Only children till the age of four could do without but what didn't they need a bank for? He examined what happened inside, stared at those who didn't care. They all had a face mask to wear it…
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My friends **July 8, 2020** It is Wednesday. My mother drove me to my friends William and Addy. I felt afraid because it is the first time. What if she leaves me here, what if I do something wrong? I played the whole afternoon with them. They are in my class and nice boys not so stupid and mean like the girls. Now I know they are neighbors too. Both live in a cute little house and the mother takes care of them. Addy's mom played with us and she gave us something to drink and…
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Away from that door *"Move away from the door and let me ."* He pulled her by her hair backwards, not cared about her screaming, she was hurt. He held his breath while pressing his ear against the door. *"What's that sound?"* he hissed. *"Bugs, I think the room is.."* she cried. *"Bugs? Stop that nonsense woman!"* As if bugs make such a sound. His entire life he observed them, already as a toddler started his collection. A loud crash came from inside, the door moved. What…
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Car check before leaving As I woke up I felt nervous. Nervous about my car. Mainly because I was afraid to find a pool of oil underneath it. My car is a Renault Clio and by now 21 years old. It's great for a city but not really meant for driving dirt roads up and down. So far the car didn't let me down just the mechanics did. I can not get rid of the feeling each time I asked for a check-up something new was broke. The great car one mechanic - only two years ago - said about…
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Single I am a single and a single parent and I like it. Once we had the BOM. It stands for a deliberately unmarried mother, in English a DUM. DUM isn't equal to dumb. It's not a heavier task than raising children together. In reality "together" is rarely the case. My grandmothers raised alone, all people I know do it. My friend says her boyfriend is after twenty years a bigger child than her children are. He's the spoiled child that will never leave. Leaving is what she…
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Singing ***"Do you sing?"*** This question was asked to me and it was not about if I sing but if I was willing to sing in English. Singing in English is not that difficult, hardly anyone sings in my language. The radio mainly plays English songs. Only toddlers are taught children's verses in Dutch except if they aren't Dutch because some foreigners think a riddle taught well to practice pronouncing insults their god. *"Even if I could I won't do it"* was my answer. I showed…
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Multitasking As soon as I plan something and it doesn't work out the way I planned all motivation is gone. No internet connection, not being able to find the information I need, to send an e-mail or do an urgent payment is a good reason for me to lose my motivation to do something at all. I wonder when this started, if I always had it or if "being busy" was the reason I never noticed it. What was it that triggered me after 60 hours of work for two employers to go back home…
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Grandpa **June 11, 2020** I have to wake up at 5:30 am although it's Saturday. The house needs to be cleaned and my mother wants it to be perfect. We go to visit grandpa. He lives in a big villa and he is the only grandpa left. The boy is there to help my dad in the garden and shed. After he leaves my father takes me with him to the supermarket. It's called "the white shop". My dad said he forgot the shopping list but he is very smart. "You know what? We take 3 of each", he…
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1800 kilometers **It's Monday, July 13, 2020, a few minutes after midnight.** Monday just started and today is the day I'll leave on my way back to my daughter. I spent about three hours in bed. The children didn't sleep. One checked the oil of the car and hung the laundry, the youngest did the dishes, both were enjoying themselves as I came out of bed. Before I went to bed I fed the wolves and filled many basins with water. The only thing left is three bones for each of…
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About men... Yesterday I showed my children quickly around a place called Velp. It's in the Netherlands. Velp is where my grandpa lived and partly worked. He bought houses to renovate, owned shops and restaurants. https://read.cash/@wakeupkitty/grandpa-6c7836c7 "Was it there when you lived here", my children liked to know. Some parts were others not but that is not the photo I will share here. My eye catches a statue. A statue that wasn't there as I lived here, I visited my…
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It's a piece of cake And it is. Baking a cake I mean. It's not a masterpiece and you cannot do much wrong. The great thing about cake is you can keep it simple with only a few ingredients (that way you can even call it "vegan' which sounds cool and more interesting than "a cake for the poor"). **The classic cake (three pounders) is baked by using the same amount of ingredients** if it comes to butter, sugar, flour, and eggs. My grandmother was very precisely if it comes to…
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Write It is the first time I use a laptop again to write. It's been a long time ago and I have to do it with a weird keyboard. It's Hungarian which means each letter is at a different place and it's hard to find back some letters. What did I do? I type blind. There's no need for me to look at the keyboard my mind knows where most letters and signs are. I switched to the UK keyboard and as long as I do not start thinking it all will work out fine. I wonder if typing this way…
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The school doctor The doctor will visit the school. I do not want to see the doctor. I am not sure why he has a look at all children. I see many doctors if I go to the hospital. I do not like to visit this one. He is an old man and I do not like to stay in my underwear in front of strangers. He sits in the teacher's coffee room. Once I had to go over there during the break. All children were outside at the time it was my turn. The doctor did not close the curtains. Why did…
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Angry I am so tired but I have to wake up. Do all children get out of bed at 6 am or 5.30 am? I couldn't sleep because my mother came back home in the middle of the night and she was angry. With angry, I mean really angry. She shouted and screamed at me and yelled the house is a mess and I have to clean up. She dragged me out of bed at my hair and pulled the cupboard forward. Everything fell on the floor. Why does she do such a thing? I cleaned it up and as she came back she…
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The bank rules This morning at eight I went to the car service. The Renault Clio will have it's an annual test and I picked up mine. I saved to buy a car and thought I could pay for it. Credit cards are not accepted but I have my debit card. Here we go. **It was the same misery as two years ago.** I could not pay for the car! I paid what was allowed (the daily maximum amount) and for the rest... I could watch at the amount I have saved. Annoying, yes that's what I call it…
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Window shopping What exactly is the fun of shopping? If you ask me it's no fun to walk from one shop to the next, go in and outside, have to find your way in between many people. It makes me nervous plus it tires me out. I am the kind of person you will rarely find in a shopping center. For about 15 years I lived in the city of Arnhem. During those years I might have been visiting the city center about 5 times. Interesting fact: before I moved to Arnhem I more frequently…
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Beauty It's in the eye of the beholder. How easily we get used to our own environment. Being a tourist in your own country, starting with the village you live, is a good way to discover the world around you with different eyes. A camera makes it possible to do so. On those rare days, I take some steps outside and I do not forget to take my phone with me I search for something special. I do not need to take many steps outside. I even did on bare feet at the end of the day.…
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Respect **How come she is different?** I don't believe she is my mother. We do not have the same looks and she hates me for a reason. It must be a good one. Perhaps I am adopted. She always says I need to be grateful. "Grateful" I hate the word and I do not see anything to be grateful for. I do not like and can not eat the food, I spend days in the hospital, my days at home are filled with fear. If you never know what will happen the next minute you are in trouble. **The…
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Piet Pelle **If you are Dutch you know what a "Gazelle" is.** It's one of the brands of bikes sold. Strangely enough, the first bike brand which pops up if you ask me is "Batavus". The reason I think of Batavus is a commercial I saw on television. A guy made a test drive on a bike (yes, this is common and allowed). You watch him drive over a hilly landscape, through dirt and mud and if he finally arrives at the bike shop he says " It's a great vehicle but don't you have a…
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I can stay home alone. **I did it.** I asked if I could come along with Francoise to her grandparents in Belgium. My mother said nothing because she was at work. I asked my dad. He said he would visit Francoise her parents to inform. I hope this is a yes. I do not like to stay with strangers but it's better than staying at home with my mother. She's not the funny type and not caring. She cares about herself, her hair, clothes, and mirrors only. My father said they might go…
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Ponder! *Let's write about using our brains and the never-ending thinking, even thinking over and over again during all those days you could have been active, doing some fun stuff or catch some sleep instead.* **It's always busy in my head which means it's an easy task for me to ponder without ending it.** Can I stop it? Partly because I take many notes and this means to me *"noted = no need to break my brains on it by now"*. The note is part of my to-do list, a list with…
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Allow yourself mistakes *If you read* @Morningstar *his* *21 commands* *you know it's command number 17.* https://read.cash/@Morningstar/21-things-that-manifest-growth-eb6c3c62#comment-a75bda26 **If there's something I cannot stand its commands, rules to live by.** As an individual, I do not easily accept things for true. I am critical if it comes to what "they say". That's why I stay away from those who talk badly (command 11). To me gossiping is talking bad. You talk…
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Be creative *Is parenting difficult? I always say with creativity you can solve each issue. Do we need to pass an exam to be a good parent? In some countries, you say people do. I doubt it will help. If it comes to parenting all you need is some common sense, a dose of humor, self-esteem, and creativity.* **We can discuss what makes one a good parent.** As a parent, I can say I did a great job or I sucked at it. In the end, my children are the ones who can label me as a…
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OC gives a bad name Life of a moderator **June 20, 2020** Suddenly the articles I wrote are no longer exclusive. The OC checker used by @Read.Cash labeled my diaries and more articles as such. It makes one think at least it makes me think. Can the OC be trusted? Can any plagiarism checker be trusted if some words in a row let the alarm go off? Each diary, each article took me hours to write, more hours to edit, upload photos which are made by me, or if not they are free to…
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Communicate School was okay I guess. I didn't feel well enough to join gymnastics but the teacher made me. She can't see the blue spots all over my body because we keep our clothes on. We had to do running games outside on the schoolyard in the sun. My feet hurt and it's hard for me to run. An accident happened. The teacher swung a rope around her we had to jump over it. The rope made a girl fall and there was blood everywhere. Her teeth are broke and she cried. The teacher…
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A mechanic's art I love art. Not all kinds of but I do love it and especially if it shows someone's creativity and there's no waste. On my search for a different car, I ended up at the wrong car seller. The one next door. I noticed the old DAF and told my daughter "That's the one, even the wolves fit in" and next saw this happy guy. **Look at this happy face!** While so many throw away everything and even make a huge garbage heap out of their own garden here someone created…
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Vaccination *I am not fond of it. Mainly because vaccinations just like medication are drugs and harm the body, influence/change, and attack the immune system.* There's a good reason why so many suffer from autoimmune diseases (women more than men), have hormone inbalances (it shows in both genders in different ways: mood swings, depression, and infertility issues are not the only symptoms), illnesses like ADHD and short-tempered are more common than rare. `The human race is…
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Principles My values are the principles I live by. Some of them have to do with advertising. Although some commercials can make me smile and I can admire the one who thought it out, generally speaking, I have an aversion against it. I don't like the sneaky way how people are talked into buying something and if they can't afford it they can easily take a loan. Advertising, commercials I consider as a scam. I always told my children *"It's not real!"* If we have a slogan it's…
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No way! They had to make sure that none of their colleagues noticed as they. The small chapel on the first floor was where they met. There had been many theories about how she had been murdered and they were close about solving the mystery. The proof was inside. Everything about her was a lie. It was a mystery to them how no one had figured it out. How long ago it had been it happened? Years passed by and not one single soul ever doubted. "Rule the day" was written on the…
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A sick person *A bully is sick. If you never met one you might have heard stories about bullies. An interesting fact is many people are bullied, we hear the victims but rarely meet the bully or someone who says "I was a bully and I regret it".* The bullies invited for a television show, with the intention to meet their victim and talk over what happened, sit next to each other. Three big women with an emotionless face. At times one of them shows a slight stupid grin. Apart…
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Close up There is hardly anything interesting to photograph. I thought while doing some necessary things outside (read: in town) shooting some photos would be a great idea. What is left is having a closer look at the normal things in life? Nature. A video might paint a better picture of what life looks like over here but I have no clue how to post it. I love green, the color green. The photo above is not made because of the don't balls in it, neither the Christmas lights…
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Weekend **Michael won't come back.** He helped dad with the garden, cleaning up the shed and washing the car, not the outside but inside. My mother likes a clean car. Customers can not sit in a dirty one and it would make her fancy clothes dirty too. I think Michael has a vacation and perhaps he goes on a long holiday. I go to Belgium but I am not sure if I like it. Francoise is not really my friend but she asked me. In the afternoon I was outside for a while but it's quiet.…
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CPS **Life of a moderator** **July 23, 2020** I thought it might be a great idea to ignore the list with notifications (my central post system) and read some articles on the homepage, read.cash's **cps**, for a change. Just to motivate me and discover some new talent. With 11k accounts, it must be possible to read something good or? Good is good enough to read, comment, and reward with some money instead of the upvote/like icon. I just created some extra time for me to do…
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Breaking news? **Why we do not wear face masks?** Because it's not said they are effective and the greatest fear is people will *no* longer keep social distance! The Dutch Health Institution advises the government, actually, one single person does. I forgot his name. It happens to me frequently if I consider what is said nonsense or if it does not make sense what is said. This institution seems to go where the wind blows. The PM does the same. By now mayors and the…
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Those 7 goats She felt tired at the moment she woke up. Being a mom of seven isn't an easy job. She had to admit she had it with it. Those seven sprouts were already awake, jumping on her bed. Screaming for food, wrecking down the place, it drove her mad. "I am too old for this" she bleated while she tried to stand on all four. One jumped on her back, the youngest bleated for more. "Milk!" "Do you mind!" Two pulled her goatee and one bumped into her behind. Shopping day. No…
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Fear It is the last week at school. Today the teacher gave the report card. It's not a card but a booklet and it's blue. School's name is printed on it and we have to put it in a plastic cover to keep it clean. At home, parents have to look at it and if school starts again we have to give it back to her. I don't know if mine is good or bad but it doesn't matter. What is good or bad depends on my mother's mood my notes have nothing to do with it. My mother's mood isn't good.…
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Dying **At home I have to make the beds and polish the shoes.** It's two tasks now. If I do something extra for my mother to help her next it's my task. Monty let himself out. He can do that and I think he likes it more. If he is back he sits at the front door. I let him in. It's not allowed for him to be in the house. Only the kitchen. He has to stay outside or in the kitchen but never alines. I don't think he will break or steal something. He's a good dog and just wants…
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A way out In the afternoon my mother asks me if I like to keep her company. She needs to pay some people a visit. Why does she ask me? I do not like to sit in the car it makes me feel sick us it's boring. She's not the mother who talks to me and I cannot talk to her. I am not allowed to leave the car. I have to drive along with her and wait till she's back. I cannot say I want to stay home, watch television, and don't want to be with her. I nodded and feel miserable by the…
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Ducks **School looks empty.** I helped cleaning up the classroom. In turn, two children sweep the floor, wipe the blackboard, water the plants hand over, and collect schoolbooks for one week. Before a lesson starts the book needed is handed out and so is our notebook for that lesson. At the end of the lesson, it is collected again. The teacher always gives two notes. One is for doing your work, the other one for neatly writing. Today she gave us our drawings and notebooks. I…
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Sunflowers Who observes sunflowers know they do not always face the sun. Great tales are written about sunflowers, how they came alive (a girl fell in love with the sun, was allowed to marry him but not look at him. Exactly that was what she did...) From a distance, the field of sunflowers looks great but once near there are some strange creatures growing. So many heads are bend down. It's kind of depressing. There are plenty of sunflowers among the dirt road I don't need to…
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Say cheese again My mother yelled at me as I came home at noon. I don't know why she's so angry. What did I do wrong? She hit me and slammed me on the floor. I fell over the phone and it fell off the phonebook and both of the answering machine. She kept screaming and no one came to help me. I wonder why the housekeeper never asks how I am doing. I don't know if I miss her old one. I had to clean up the mess my mother said and she left. I cleaned it up and found a white piece…
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Team work "Discipline your children". It sounds not only odd but unfriendly to my ears. I do not disipline or train my children. I never did. Discipline sounds like a training camp or army to me, training is what you do with an animal. You can litter train a dog or cat. As my children were younger I mainly cared about their needs. I fed, washed, changed them. I carried them and drove them around, observed them and at times I played with them. They slept at thise hours the…
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Responsibility I've been raised with the bible. Those phrases, Bible texts were literally beaten into me. I assume it was quite normal to raise with fear. Not only if it came to God but parents and the principal at school too. At that time it was called "respect". What those people, those who loved to punish, humiliate, threaten with plagues, etc didn't know was it did *not* impress me, they couldn't force me to fear what I did not believe in or to respect those I didn't…
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It's time The first day of the Summer vacation. Schools are closed and I have to help clean the house. Cleaning is cleaning. Everything is taken out of the cupboards and has to be cleaned. How can anything get dirty in our house? We always clean. The housekeeper is at home. She has a vacation too. My mother wrote in a booklet about how she has to clean the house. Each thing that needs to be done. She tells me how to do it. Keeps repeating herself and checks the booklet. If…
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Prince charming Had he been **charming** at all? She tried to remember the first time they met. It was at a dancing school in the city. Not a place she liked to be but it was her sister who dragged her along, forced her to join. It was not about dancing but boys. While her sister had what she wanted, she had to keep the friend company, cover her up. The sneaky meetings escape to places she was not invited to. Did she make a mistake? For sure she had by sticking around, by…
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The fun(ny) factor **No, I am not a funny person.** Because of my lack of humor, I stick to the people who share the same humor as me. It's the ironic one, the bittersweet humor which makes me laugh about your own misery instead of complaining and praying for help. Rowan Atkinson is if it comes to it my favorite especially as Blackadder. The help it isn't on the way. If you want something to change you need to work for it yourself. With work, I mean honest work. Not by…
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Unconscious **From one moment to the next the spirit left me.** The good one, together with the good vibes. It's the moment I ask myself how to go on. Is this what I want for me? Hanging around, wasting my time by doing what I don't like. Who do I benefit if it isn't me if it is no longer me who feels enthusiastic about the things I do? I quit jobs because of the same feeling, the feeling of losing myself. It's clear, it should be clear I can't always do what I like. Not…
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Hurt **It's easier to feel you are hurt as to notice you hurt someone.** Is it possible to avoid hurting someone else, "stepping on toes"? It is questionable but if you love to tiptoe, watch every step you take, weight each word you say, and are able to show the right expression at the right moment to the right person you might succeed. In reality, this is an impossible task. In the long term, not one single person can succeed without harming himself (mentally) or... being…