A Fearful One!

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"Fear is not real. The only place that fear can exist is in our thoughts of the future. It is the product of our imagination causing us to fear things that do not at present and may not ever exist. That is near insanity. Do not misunderstand me. Danger is very real but Fear is a choice." -Pinterest.com

Maayong Adlaw sa tanan! (Good day to all!☺️👋)

"Lutang mode ba kamo?" Well, what would you expect tho? Actually, I was not in a good mood today, I don't came up at any topic to write on and share it in here. Still, I don't settle for good. I pushed through my limits, yet it came up with nothing. All I did was scrolling, reading, and commenting some of your articles guys.😊 Fortunately, I came across with ate @Zhyne06 's article and I got an idea to just share mine too. Actually, I then realized that one of my dearest sponsors, Ma'am @Bloghoundtagged me about the topic through the comment section hihi. (Lutang talaga eh noh?)

So, as for this very moment, let me tell you my story haha, charoot lang. Well, seriously I am demotivated right now, aside from rusty's smaller upvotes, (but still happy and blessed to have it) I kinda missed my MGD, co'z he already went back to the place where he worked at. (I'm a bit sad but I need to understand) Okay, so much for that "kadramahan" chuchu, now let's go on to the topic.

So here's the thing;

I am afraid of something that crawls

-Huhuhu... Snakes are the ones that I most afraid of. I have a trauma back in my elementary days. There was one time that my friends and I decided to get some Cacao Fruit, when a snake suddenly coiled in my right leg. When I looked down, OH MY!!!😱 I was about to faint. I was jumping all over the place. Luckily, I was not bitten by the snake. Woah.. I am also afraid to centipedes, earth worms, caterpillars, "basta yun na yun." (I've got goosebumps right now)

I am afraid of Frogs

-Yayyy! Honestly, I eat frog especially when it was prepared using coconut milk. But yeah, I am afraid of frogs. I remembered when I was still in college, everytime we went to the sea, (nasa likod lang nang bording house namin ang dagat) I saw some frogs jumping all over the place. And I was like, "Ahhh..Don't come near me!" My friends/classmates, even my MGD laughed at me for that reason. I want to cry tho, but I controlled it because I don't want to be embarrassed in front of them, especially to MGD.

I am afraid of Rejection

- I have experienced this a lot of times, but still I am not used to it. It happened when I applied for a job. Maybe I am just expecting too much. But what else to think? I am not too confident for doing so, I am just really eager to have it, but eventually, I ended up with nothing. My mama told me, maybe I'm not doing my best, and she's somewhat right for saying that. Maybe because I am not actually into it, I am just being forced to do so. "Kung hindi para sayo, tanggapin mo nang buong-buo." I believed into this one, but I am hurt by being rejected. Who else to be blame, right? I can't blame other people, I am lacked with something. I'm so sure about that. But still, don't know what exactly it is. Its a long story to tell tho, just let me share some of the details.

I am afraid of Death

-Its a common thing. Not all, but maybe more than a half are afraid of death. Just my guess. 🤷

I am afraid of death, in the sense that, I am not confident enough to be placed in Heaven. I am afraid of death when it will happen to my parents. I am afraid to be left alone. Even just thinking about it for being an only child, Oh No! Please God, not now.🥺 If given the chance to choose, I should be the one to left earth first not them. I couldn't imagine myself living without my parents. Yes, time will come eventually, but I am just hoping not too soon.

I am afraid to face Hell

-I mean literally. Eternal Damnation, I said to you! I am indeed a sinner. I keep committing sins even I repeatedly say this. I seldomly read the Holy Bible, but I read all the parts of the book of Revelation. I know sharing is caring, yet I chose to share just this part. Bottom line, I am indeed afraid to be face Hell.

I am afraid of Betrayal

-I already shared to you my experiences about betrayal in my previous articles, right? And yes! I am really afraid if it will happen again. Its hard when someone broke your trust, especially when that someone is really close to you. After that incidents, I now have trust issues. I know I did the same thing but it is really hard to win back the trust that was already broken.

I am afraid to Let go

-Well, its not actually an easy thing to do. And its just hard for me to let go of someone so dear to me. I published an article before about my late nanay (lola in mother side). Yeah, even until now, I am just afraid to accept the fact that she's gone, that I can't see her anymore. But what else can I do? She's not here anymore. That incident made me realized that I should show more care for the people around me. I should love them while they're still with me. I should value everything they gave to me.

That' it for now fellas! I have more things I am afraid of tho, but let me just share these things to you, because some, let just say, confidential or something like that. And remember, Aristotle once said, "He who has overcome his fears will truly be free."

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I hope you all are doing well!☺️

Thanks for reading!📖

To God be all the Glory!😇

(July 28, 2021)