I wouldn`t know how to rationally explain that.. simply, love came into my life suddenly and turn me upside down.
I was a 27 years old girl with a great job, many good friends around me. I could afford expensive trips, outs, shopping.. I had a good life. The only thing in my life I was not satisfied with was the love situation.
Namely, I was in an open relationship with a man who is 18 years older than me. He is a sportist, good looking and all women wanted him. Often we had quarreled about that. I always doubted that he cheated on me. We were breaking up 3 times in a month. It was a turbulent relationship with a lot of ups and downs, full of passion and stress too. He was a widow with 2 kids, he always had some problems, and I did not have an understanding of it. In that period mother`s instinct awoke in me. I had a wish to have a child. There was no future with my man.
Somehow, in my life comes a new man from another town: good, gentle, full of understanding. Apparently, a great chance for marriage. I fell in love like a teen. It seems everything will be great, I will have my family, kid. I forgot old love. I was angry at him, because of all that quarrels and problems. I tell him, I will move from this town, we had a big quarrel that night I will never forget. I was so mad, did not want to see him anymore. That night I decide to start living with my new boyfriend from another town, I leave the job, family, friends, and starting a new life. But, there were things about my new boyfriend that I did not know.
That things (alcohol and drugs) will later kill my ex-husband.
So, the lesson from this article (frame from my life) is to not make big decisions in rage, fury, in stressful moments. That decision is always wrong. No matter what is about, wait. Calm down, sleep, get a drink, anything.. Just not make decisions in that mood. Think twice, think hundred times, ask friends, and family about that. You don't need to do like they say, just listen to what they have to say. Go to church, pray to God to give you some sign, do anything. But, again, don`t make decision when you are angry.
Because, some consequences of our wrong decisions can change our lives forever. Some things we can never fix.