How I Spent my Valentine's
Usually, Valentine's Day is spent with someone we love, mostly boyfriends or girlfriends. This day symbolizes love but not just for a romantic love, but also for other types of love. Some people celebrate this with their partners but some are with friends and family.
Actually, me and my partner don't have any plans for this day because we don't really have money to spend. On the other hand, I told him that I also wanted to celebrate Valentine's with my 2 bestfriends who are single for life hahaha charots.
A week before Valentine's, I already ordered 2 boxes of cookies for my bestfriends. These two have a really tragic relationship hahaha. My one bestfriend got betrayed by her 3-year relationship. You know the saying *"pinagpalit sa malapit"*, because that time, her boyfriend is in Manila and she is in province. My other bestfriend just broken up last September 2021 and still cannot moved on.
Thankfully, my partner agreed to spend Valentine's day with the two. He is not really against it at first. So, the plan is already ready. I already told my bestfriends that I wanted to spend this special day with them, and they agreed.
We just planned to have Samgyup because these two haven't tried it yet. Around 2:30pm, we arrived at the store and set everything up.
In the middle of *eating session* hahaha, I gave them my gifts for them. They really did not expect it. Hahaha I'm just so thankful for them for being beside me always. ❤️
We finished eating around 4:30pm. Before going home, we just made a little photoshoot.
I LOVE YOU BOTH!!! ❤️
Before 5pm, me and my boyfriend bid goodbye to them because we are still going to attend my boyfriend's sister's birthday celebration. The celebration will start at 6:30 so we decided to attend the holy mass first.
After the mass, we then proceed at the venue where the party will be held. It was a nice place. We always eat here during the face to face classes.
This is one of the most special day to me - eating with his family. I know for sure how grateful girls are whenever your love's family welcomes you in their family. I heard some cases when the family of the guy don't like the girl. Thankfully, they really accepted me especially his mom. ❤️
So, this is how I spent my Valentine's Day. No grand celebrations, no bouquets, no chocolates, no surprises. Just a simple celebration will do as long as you are with the person you wanted to be with. 🤗
How about you? How did you spend your Heart's day?
[POV] Dreams
How could you do this to me? A question that keeps on repeating in my head after a month of wondering? Here I am, writing about how you both ruin my sanity. Everything begins with a simple message, but in a private conversation.
*The secret message feature on social media allows users to communicate in a completely private and closed-off chat. Secret Conversations allows two friends to communicate in an encrypted space that no one else, including the application, can see.
It actually went well, as I attempted to investigate by reviewing your account. I had panic attacks and palpitations that I don't want to go through again. But here I am, pursuing this article, hoping to finish it without reliving the pain I once felt from you.
You said hello, asked how your day was, and engaged in some cliched conversation that gave me heart palpitations. It was cringe-worthy when you mentioned eating dinner and saying that you could still talk to her while eating or charging. To that point, I recall when I had my own breakdowns and challenges and asked for your assistance. You said you're sorry because you're busy. What are you up to? Talking to another girl solely for the purpose of satisfying yourself? I tried talking to them during my panic attacks, asking for help, but no one ever responded. I really needed you at the time, but where have you been? You've gone to someone else's crib to be happy because you're tired of me always stressing you out and talking about my past traumas and anxiety, which were undoubtedly caused by you.
You messaged her the photo, which I assumed that was only meant for me to see. I had no idea you'd share it with her just to read her compliments on your new look. And I had no idea you had your conversation on another app, which is a popular platform for other women, secret love affairs, and other such things. Though I never considered it that way, that particular application has provided me with convenience when it comes to academic matters and the crypto world. Unfortunately, I never had the opportunity to discover your conversation in another conversation, but that doesn't mean I'll ignore it this time. You had your chance to regain my trust, but you shattered it while breaking my heart for the nth time.
They say that love is much sweeter the second time around. It depends on whether you're both committed to your relationship. For the nth time, it turned out that I was the only one who was committed. What frightens me the most? I'll wake up one day and realize I don't care about anyone anymore because I'll just overthink that they'll do the same thing, repeat scenarios, and then I'll be miserable again.
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Never have I dreamed about us staying together until we're gray and old, never have I stared blankly in space thinking about me walking down the aisle with you as my future husband.
It's kind of funny how I have those dreams with all of my previous relationships except for you. Because even when I'm sleeping, all I can think about is how you cheated and betrayed me with that girl.
First late for the Last Sem
This school semester marks my last semester here in college. It's been 4 years since I enter Bicol University, and now I am leaving it for good. For the past 4 years, I realized how difficult it was to be a college student. It will never be as great as high school life.
You know the feeling when you were in elementary then you wanted to be a high school student because you are told that it was the most enjoying part of your school days. And then you finally reached secondary level, but then you already wanted to be a college student because you are told that you can leave the school anytime you want because compared to high school, you need to wait until 5pm before you can finally got out. But then you finally reached college, wishing you're forever a high school student.
But now, I'm finally leaving the life of a student and be in the real world, where I can apply all my learnings may it be bookish or life experiences. But before I leave in this university, let me share to you my "not-so-great" doings for my last semester. Haha
So, earlier in the morning, our professor met us at 9:30am. Our subject at him is Renewable Energy. We focused first on the basics of formulas and all. He wanted us to be familiar on the basics so that it would be easy for us to solve problems in the future. He gave us references and modules we can use as guides.
After 1-hr discussion, he gave us an activity to be submitted at 1pm. Our class ended at 10:30 so we still have 2hrs and 30mins to do the activity. The activity is composed of 6 problem solving.
This is the set of problem solving. Actually, it was a very tricky problem solving. I have already answered some items but some problems is very tricky that I don't know what formula to be used. *You know the feeling when you are not confident enough on your answers that you still need to compared your answer to your classmate.*
Anyways, it's already 2pm but I'm not yet done with the activity. I haven't taken my lunch yet so I decided to take lunch first. I finished my lunch at before 2:30 so I get back to work after. However, since I can't still solve one problem, I decided to help first my sister in her assignment. Thankfully, I was able to finished it on early time.
However, I was already late on submission. Thankfully, our professor told us that since we are already graduating, he will loosen out on us. Those who will submit before the deadline, will get additional points but those who are late, will only get the designated points but without deductions.
Even though I was late on our first worksheet, I am not worrying because I have companies too. Hahaha I don't know if anyone of us have passed ahead of time but as far as I know, majority of us submitted late. So, there's nothing to worry about. *Sama-sama na dis hahahaha*
I really wanted to be on time but my brain says no. Hahaha. I don't want to start this semester with a late submission because of the thought that I might be late throughout the semester. Not manifesting this tho.
Anyways, that's the story of how I became late on my first worksheet this semester. I think this is the first time I was late on submission. Hahaha.
Anyways, how's everyone? Me? I've been busy because of acad stuff but still making time to update here. I hope everyone's having great time. Godbless!
Just another random article
For the past 2 days, I've been loosing out topics on what to post. So today, let me just give this a title **Just another random article** because I really don't know what to say or write haha.
Let's start with my preparation for my niece's 3rd birthday celebration. Last year, the theme of her birthday is Cocomelon, but for today, it was frozen. For the past months, she has been obsessed with Frozen and even called herself ***Blue Anna*****.** We really don't know if she's talking about Elsa because it's blue, or Anna because of Anna. Maybe a combination will do.
My sister already bought their gifts for her and I was here, thinking of what to give. Luckily I still have excess yarns on my collection so I decided to make a Frozen-inspired bucket hat. I searched at Youtube on the possible designs and thankfully, it's not that hard.
I have classes yesterday the whole day. But since it was just the first day, the discussion were not so crucial so I decided to work while doing an online class. And yeaaah, I finished 2 bucket hats yesterday and I'm really so happy!
I'm really happy to be able to finished it yesterday. Also I made another bucket hat for my other niece who celebrated her birthday last January 10. I wasn't able to make her one that day because the yarns are still on it's way. So this another bucket hat is a **Sophia the Princess** inspired because her name is Sophia.
And today, I am doing a spiderman inspired bucket hat and barbie inspired for my two other niece and nephew. I am just starting to day and hopefully finished before 5 pm. I'll update you later 😇
On the other hand, this morning, as I was browsing my messenger, my classmate told me that our grades for the 1st semester is already complete and available for viewing. And I was really so blessed to have these kind of grades. Online class is so difficult that even the thought of passing the semester will make you weak. Thankfully, we have professors that are so considerate about our current situation.
As I was browsing our Online Registration System, it hit me so hard that I will be graduating this year. Time flies really so fast! I feel like I just enter Bicol University, and now, I am leaving it for good. I can still remember the time I was applying for enrollment, but now, I am applying for graduation. 4 years feels like yesterday.
All I feel is contentment and blessed. I don't know what I did good but it feels warm to be blessed like this. I know there are some students who are struggling on their academic, so am I. Everyone is facing their own kind of struggle and it will never be easy. I know that for sure.
But one thing is I know - ***whenever you are in the peak of losing yourself and giving up everything, always remember that ONE thing that keeps you fighting.***
It's another great day! I would like to thank my sponsor @renren16 for renewing her sponsorship on me. Thank you so much for motivating me to do better here and to inspire more. 😇
[POV] I Make Myself Busy for Nothing
After weeks of grief and pain, it takes time to let go of someone before we can finally move on and begin the next chapter of our lives. In my case, it's only been a month since the two of us finally split up, and the last time we saw each other was on February 1st.
I never stopped crying during the first month of goodbyes, pains, confusions, and questions. I never imagined I'd be in this much pain for the first month of the year. Well, life is unpredictable, and I remember praying for peace of mind and happiness, so I guess I can get it by completely letting him go.
There are various ways to move forward, and my current one was a little different and exhausting: I kept myself busy for no reason.
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Being overly busy can be exhausting and stressful; you have a massive to-do list and so little time to complete it all. Is this, on the other hand, a self-inflicted condition? Taking up all of your time with tasks can also be a way to avoid dealing with difficult issues in your life, such as family issues or a relationship breakdown. Some of us use our busyness to avoid dealing with difficult emotions. We are left with our thoughts and emotions when our minds are not occupied by a task, a social event, or work. Many people feel uneasy and anxious in this space because it forces us to confront difficult emotions or thoughts.
Being busy can help us forget things and focus our attention for the time being before dwelling on the pain that has been inflicted on us. Is that, however, healthy? Is it possible to forget if we avoid sadness and pain? Or will it simply prolong the agony and pain?
I'm sorry for those who can relate, but it helps me forget things while also prolonging the agony. I'm not sure, but it just happened to me and it always works. False optimism, on the other hand, does not always help. We've all seen how, even when we're trying to console someone, we end up destroying the momentum by saying positive quotes that, most of the time, ruin the moment for the person. It does prolong the agony in such a way that, for a brief moment, we heal them, and for the rest, they must deal with it on their own.
When we speak of "false positivity," we are referring to toxic positivity.
Toxic positivity is characterized by the dismissal of negative emotions and the response to distress with false reassurances rather than empathy. It stems from an uncomfortable relationship with negative emotions. It is frequently well-intentioned, but it can lead to alienation and a sense of disconnection. Toxic positivity is fleeting. It's a false reassurance, similar to someone telling you that "everything happens for a reason" after your grandmother dies or that "everything will work out" after you lose your job and apartment and are forced to relocate.
How do we stop toxic positivity?
Toxic positivity can be stopped by making it clear what you expect from another person. You must always allow yourself to feel your feelings, and allow others to share theirs without the need to fix them.
We want to make someone feel better with toxic positivity, but it usually has the opposite effect; it silences the other person. If you want to cheer someone up, make sure not to feed them toxic positivity. Allow them to be negative because time will bring them enough positivity to carry on and move forward.
Society Encounters
*"Childhood, after all, is the first precious coin that poverty steals from a child" - Anthony Horowitz*
Have you ever encounter a child selling sampaguita on the street? Or not just sampaguita but also other stuffs? When they came to you, what is your response? Do you buy from them? or just ignore them?
This is one of the saddest realities today. Some children don't even know what a childhood really like. At a very young age, they are exposed to different kinds of problem that a child must not worry. I realized how lucky I am to experience everything and have a very memorable childhood.
These past few days, I became observant on the things around me. I wonder what does each one of us thinks? I wonder if each of us is living our life to the fullest. Out of all of this, I came to wonder about all my encounters in this society.
Whenever I go to town, I will see different stalls with different merchandise. Alongside of these stalls are some *"beggars"* asking for some coins and food. Actually, I don't want to call them *"beggars"*. Our English teacher once taught us that instead saying *"beggars"* or *"poor"*, we can say ***"less fortunate"***. At first, I don't get it, but as time goes by, as I continuously observe things, I definitely get what it's meant.
Being called "poor" makes your life poorer. It's what I realized. When someone call us poor, we will suddenly feel ashamed and embarrassed. Sometimes, this embarrassment hinder us from reaching what's on the top.
Whenever I see children asking for coins at the street, I actually avoid them. Why? Because somehow, I am afraid. I am not confident enough to face them. I feel like if they come to me and I didn't give them anything, it will be my fault if they starve themselves. But I'm not doing it every single time. But what I make sure is that I won't give them money. If I have something to eat, that's what I will give.
My mother told me that I should not give them money because they might just use it on some unimportant things. If I give them food, one thing is for sure - they will survive another day of their life.
But one time happened when I have no choice but to them money. But it's not a child, it's a parent. I was outside the church when this girl came to me with her baby on her arms. She asked me if I can give them money because they have no money to go home. I was hesitant at first because I might just get scammed. But at the end, I still give her money.
Actually, I don't have any coin that time because I already gave it to the other couple who also asked for money. I gave the lady Php 50.00 or $1.00 which is already a big amount to give. I was expecting to see a wide smile on her face after receiving the money, but I was shock when she asked for more. I was startled that I don't even say a word for a second. After a while, I told her that I also needed money for my fare going home. I really don't have much that time. When the lady leave, I asked forgiveness to Lord because I wasn't able to help them a lot. But I know, I still able to help a little.
There also a time when a little boy came to me and asked me if I can buy a box of sampalok from him worth 30 pesos. I was hesitant first but then I realized that If I buy from him, he can go home early as possible. And I admire him because at a young age, he manage to sell things instead of just asking for money. At least he is working compared to others.
But these things don't happen on children only, it comes in different ages. I even saw old women who's struggling in selling roasted peanuts. It hurts me to see them roaming around despite this pandemic. I even questioned their families on why they are letting their grandparents roam around today. I was envy that their grandparents are still alive. If my grandparents are still here today, I will surely spoil them everyday.
So, if you are still with your family, make sure to give them the best. Never let them experience what they don't deserve. I know that life is really hard, but with helping hands, I know everything is possible.
Rest in Peace, Nanay ❤️
This is what I mean when I said *"There's a belief than we you feel happy today, something bad will happen tomorrow. And I am not manifesting that kind of belief."* in my previous article.
Manifesting this kind of energy is not a great action at all. Imagine ruining your good day just because you are worried of what's coming tomorrow. Imagine being paranoid with something you aren't sure to happen.
But I guess we have no escape from this manifestation. Earlier today when my friend told me that Nanay Vacion has already joined our Creator this morning. I was so shocked because I've been so close to Nanay Vacion when I was little and we are neighbors but when I turned 9, we moved from a different house but only a little bit far from them. Since then, I wasn't able to visit her.
This shocking news made me think of that belief. Did I accidentally manifest it? But I know I didn't. I can't still believe it. After my friend told me about the incident, she invited me to offer prayers and songs for Nanay Vacion for the peacefulness of her soul. So we went there around 3pm today.
Actually, I just got home from the wake and I immediately get my laptop and write this article because I don't want to waste any single thought I have about her.
Hi Nanay. You are so beautiful in that picture. I hope you are now in peace. We offered songs and prayers to you. I hope your soul find where it truly belongs.
My friend once asked me before, *"What do you prefer in your wake, more flowers or more people?"* Without hesitation, I answered *"flowers".* Then she told me, *"For me, I prefer more people. Why? because you can't buy people to visit you in your wake".* Then it hit me. Yes! My family can't buy people to visit me but they can always buy flowers for me.
That's why, as long as I'm still alive, I wanted to leave unforgettable memories with everyone I love. I wanted them to visit me in my grave, I wanted to feel love even though I already leave earth. I wanted to be with them during my last days here. Yes! I wanted to feel special. I don't like being lonely but I'm fine being alone. It's two different words.
Anyways, around 6pm when our service arrived. After 20 minutes of ride, we reached our home. I immediately change clothes because of a superstitious belief that you need to change clothes because you have been in a wake. Some people don't do this beliefs but I think there's no harm in doing so. What do you think?
Nevertheless, I am really sad on what have happened to Nanay but on the other thoughts, I am still at peace knowing that she is already resting and there's no pain for her anymore. She is now with Tatay Euginio. They are now together.
*To Nanay...*
`Thank you for the great memories we have together. I might be little that time, but our memories made it so big. Thank you for being my second parent whenever my parents is not around. I will never forget all the chocolates you have given to me whenever I carol in your house until I grow up. I will always cherish our memories together. 'til we meet again, Nanay. I love you. ❤️`
[POV] Attachment Issues
*"Attachment disorder is a mood or behavioural disorder that interferes with a person's ability to form and maintain relationships. These disorders usually appear in childhood. When a child is unable to maintain a consistent emotional connection with a parent or primary caregiver, they can develop."*
Life can be fascinating at times. It will always find a way to leave you wondering what happened. It is unpredictable to the point where we are unsure how it will begin and end with each passing day.
We ran into different people at random times. Depending on the situation, different attachments and bonds were formed, which could be strong or weak.
I've been thinking lately about how we move on after becoming attached to someone. After forming an unbreakable bond and sharing memories that will linger in our minds even after we are separated.
Let me tell you a situation...
I recently met someone online and we talked for two days. That person did, in fact, send me a direct message the day before I responded. Of course, whenever a stranger approaches us, we are all hesitant. So, in order to satisfy my curiosity, I investigated and discovered his social media and common ground. And that's when I wave back, signaling the start of our two-day conversation.
During our conversation, I made it clear that he would never collect any of my personal information that could lead to revealing my identity, as I wanted to remain as anonymous as possible with my screen name. We exchanged greetings, conducted brief interviews, and received advice on online gaming and studying. It was a conversation that rekindled my interest in life, and I am grateful that it occurred, even if only for a short time.
After that 2-day conversation, I was ghosted.
*"When someone you're dating or friends with disappears without a trace, this is referred to as ghosting. This could happen at the start of a relationship or in the middle of one, in person or online."*
Yes, you read that correctly. Despite the fact that we had a lot in common, I was ghosted. And now I'm wondering why it happened, but then I realized that sometimes you just meet people at the most inconvenient times, passing by, checking you out, and then leaving for good. The memories you shared together are more valuable than the person themselves. Keep yourself from becoming overly attached. Be someone who can deal with different people and be someone who can leave without hatred or pain, just a simple smile on their faces.
Be that someone.
This scenario is common nowadays because many of us are bored to the point where we search for ways to get rid of it on various search engines. There's nothing wrong with going out and making friends with anyone; just make sure you know what you're getting into and keep your guard up at all times.
It's indeed a blissful birthday!
As some of you knows, I have published an article later this morning about the celebration of my mother and why do we need to celebrate birthdays. If you haven't read it yet, feel free to click this link Happiest Birthday, Mama. https://read.cash/@noisytoothie/happiest-birthday-mama-e57f6a63
So, what exactly have happened for my mother's birthday celebration? Here it goes.
In the morning, I woke up around 8am because I was really exhausted yesterday. I opened our groupchats and read all the greetings for my mom. It was so overwhelming knowing that there are people who remembers my mom's birthday.
After taking a breakfast, I helped my mother in doing the laundry. I even told her that we should just leave it for tomorrow and she should just rest. But she insisted on doing so because it will be a waste of time.
We finished the laundry around 10am and after, I took a bath because we have an online class on 11am. It was already 11am but our teacher is not yet around. He texted us that he will be late and will be around at 11:30. While waiting for our teacher, we finalized our birthday plan for the afternoon surprise.
Our teacher arrived at 11:45am and just tackle about his first online activity and the leave at exactly 12nn.
After our online class, I have my lunch and fee our dogs. After everything, I told my mother that I need to go to town church because I need to attend a funeral mass. But, it's just an excuse for me to go town hahaha because I need to buy cake, pancit sisig, pizza, puto and egg pie. I arrived there around 1pm and withdraw money first.
After I withdraw, I bought pancit sisig first because it will take around 3o minutes to make. I paid first then went to Meikoys to order a giant pizza worth Php 499.00. It also takes around 30 minutes to create so we went to a supermarket to buy chicken and other ingredients. After everything, I went to a bakery and buy cake. Then, we went to the pizza store and pancit sisig store to get our orders. Thankfully, the rain stopped and we are able to went home using a motorcycle. Thankfully, my boyfriend accompanied me because it would be so much hassle if I carry all those stuffs.
When we arrived home, my mom is sleeping in the sofa. Our house is quiet compared to the days when some of us is having a birthday. The mood is like a normal day. We secretly put everything at my sister's room. We have decided to just hold the surprise in my sister's room so that it wouldn't be noticeable outside. My mother had really no idea that she will have a "handa".
My mother told me to buy chicken so after I went home, I immediately cook adobo just like what my mother said. After I cooked the adobo, we finalized our surprise for her. To make the surprise more intense, we told my mother that our sister is calling him. *correction* we told her that in a worried manner hahaha my sister is pregnant and her pregnancy is so sensitive so whenever my sister is calling, my mother will immediately rush to her. So there the surprise happened!
When she opened the door, she was so surprise of our surprise for her. All the design and foods were placed in the bed. We have included a Happy birthday signage, a heart balloon, a palabok, pancit sisig, the giant pizza, puto, a cake and a money bouquet. Actually, the money bouquet was on the spot. It wasn't part of our plan but it just happened. Hahaha
I actually have a video of our surprise for her but as far as I know, we can't post a video here. My mother was teary-eyed because of our surprise. We hugged her and thank her for everything she have done for us. We are not a perfect family but I always look up at my mom because she was so strong despite everything that happened at our family.
After the picture taking, we ate together and waited for my cousins and nephew and nieces because we invited them also. It was another get together with them.
We thought the celebration has already ended but then, one of my mother's friend brought their Videoke and assembled it. It wasn't in the plan because it was just a simple celebration. Then, my mother's friends arrived and brought alcohols and foods hahahaha another session day. My mom is not a drinker but she drinks sometimes because of influence from her friends.
See? We didn't worry about anything because we know that God will provide and He really did. Some things are not in your plans but when God speak up, it will happen. We are just so blessed that God has given us instruments to make our mother happy.
So if you are worrying about something, don't worry at all. Just ask for His guidance and He will surely provide. I always believe in the saying "*Wag problemahin ang hindi pa problema" (Don't worry about things that are not worthy to worry about).*
Once again, Happy Birthday my Mom! I hope you really had a great day today! We know it's just a simple celebration but know that it's full of love from you lovely daughters. Keep shining, Mama. We love you always! ❤️
Looking for new friends here!
ARE YOU A NEW MEMBER HERE? OR JUST STARTING YOUR PASSION HERE BUT STILL DON'T HAVE ENOUGH MOTIVATION TO PUSH THROUGH? COME, AND LET'S BE FRIENDS!
For the past 9 months of being a writer here in read.cash, I've met several co-writers with the same interests as mine. I was so glad to be able to meet new friends even if it's on virtual world. But expanding the friendship here is one of the most unexpected things that could happen to me.
Nine months of being a writer here and I had 37 subscribers! How amazing is that, right? Who knows that a stranger will be supporting you. And for that, I would like to say thank you! 😇
I know that it's not easy to write articles that can capture one's interest. We have different interests but one thing is for sure - *no matter how differ we are, we still have something in common that will surely unite us.*
Having friends, may it be personal or virtual, is a great motivation to keep pursuing the things you love. It serves as inspiration to do better because we know for sure that there will be someone who will clap their hands for us instead of bringing us down. Supporting one's art is supporting is entire life.
A quote that I saw on internet says *"Supporting another's success won't ever dampen yours"* . No matter which angle you look, it will always be a 100% accurate. You may thought that you are just helping a friend, but you are already supporting and building the foundation of trust between each of you. That's why it's a blessing if you have friends whom you can depend on.
So here's the drill, let's support each other by commenting below the link of your article that you think has the most impactful to others. It maybe about yourself, family, or business. Whatever it is, comment it down below and whoever saw it, can view it, give it a like, or even give you a reward. This is our chance to make other writers see our piece. Being appreciated will mean a lot, that's for sure! This is a great way to earn motivation because I know for sure that some of us here is starting to lose interest in writing because of lack of inspiration and motivation. Let's help one another! ❤️
Happy Writing!
Happiest Birthday, Mama ❤️
One of the most awaiting moments in someone’s life is the day we are born – our birthday. We tend to celebrate in different ways. It may be a grand celebration or just a simple one. Sometimes, it doesn’t matter whether it’s a grand or simple celebration as long as we are thankful and satisfied on what we have.
There are also cases where a person don't want to celebrate their birthdays. Maybe because it reminds them of a traumatized event, or it's just they are not used of celebrating it. Nonetheless, a birthday is a need to celebrate. Imagine you are still alive after all the trials and problems you have encountered throughout the year.
**Why do we need to celebrate our birthdays?**
**Your Birth was your beginning**
The day you were born is the beginning of your life. Every time you celebrate your birthday, it is an indication that you still have a purpose in living. Your birthday is a chance to remember the day that a major event occurred, celebrate, give thanks, and reflect upon how you are still alive to celebrate the day you were born.
**Celebrating is an expression of thanksgiving**
A birthday is a moment to rejoice someone else's birth. It's a way of saying thank you to God for allowing you to be alive and still be surviving. It's also an opportunity to reflect on your life. It's a perfect opportunity to look back on your life, assess your current situation, and create plans for the future. It's a period in your life when your past, present, and future collide.
**It's a chance for a refresher**
A birthday is not only a time to think about the day you were born, but also a time to think and reflect on yourself on another year of you existence. No matter how things went throughout the year, you still have the chance to try again and set things straight once more. You are always given the chance to still fight and set your priorities. It's never too late.
**4. It's an opportunity to Bond with people**
Not all people are given the chance to be alive again. Birthday is another celebration where we have the chance to bond with our families, friends and relatives. It's another time for another get-together. Usually, people make a special effort to be nice to you on your birthday. Birthday presents are good, but a wish that comes from the heart is worth all the presents in this world from those who love you. It truly is the thought that counts.
It's a really nice position to celebrate our birthdays. And today, another important person in my life will be celebrating her birthday.
HAPPY 52ND BIRTHDAY MAMA! ❤️😘 Today's celebration may not be as grand as before, but we wish nothing but the best for you. I wish for a long more life. I always pray to God to give you the strength, the power and a healthy life. I love you always! ❤️
Actually, we don't have much plans for today because we don't have much money for it. But we still want to celebrate it with her in our most sincere way. We have plans but it's not big, but we believe that she will greatly appreciate it.
For the happenings in my mother's birthday celebration, I will make another article about it. I hope you'll stay tuned! 😇
The Feeling of Refreshment
Today's article is in connection with my 2 previous articles with regards our celebration of our 2nd anniversary. If you haven't read it yet, just visit my profile or you may click the links below.
Happy 2nd Anniversary Love ❤️ https://read.cash/@noisytoothie/happy-2nd-anniversary-love-682535a7
Beyond Blessed 😇 https://read.cash/@noisytoothie/beyond-blessed-98b366af
Yesterday was really a blast! It's really nice to not expect big because the return is unexpected too. It is true that the more we expect, the more we are hurt but it also goes with more good returns and excitement. Anyways, here's a short continuation and realizations about yesterday's affair.
He went home early because he still have some errands to do and it's already raining so I let him go his way. Actually we have plans of going to a famous tourist spot near our place but because it's raining, we wasn't able to go as planned. If you are visiting our place, you can go here too.
Because of the bad weather, we decided to just postponed it. It's so dangerous to go there when it's raining because the road is slippery. It is not yet cemented and motors can't go through it. We still need to walk for about 10 minutes before we reach the place. But it's all worth it when you arrived there. Just make sure that the weather is fine so you can enjoy the view especially the majestic Mt. Mayon.
Since we postponed it, we just stayed at home and play Call of Duty, which is our favorite game for the past months. We played around 6 times and we stopped at 4pm. He decided to leave around 4:30pm since the rain already stopped. While waiting, we just have some deep talks, take selfies and eat meryenda. After that, he went home and I rested for a bit.
On the evening, after I take my dinner, I called him via video call. We talk about things and how grateful I am for the things he has done to me. We also watched the tiktok video I created. We laughed, got serious, laugh again. It was a really nice way to end our night. We ended the video call around 11pm because we are already sleepy. It lasted about 1hr and 16 minutes.
If you also want to see the video I created, just click this link. Hehe https://www.tiktok.com/@chyrshnn/video/7059998803948096795?is_copy_url=1&is_from_webapp=v1. Nonetheless, we already fell asleep.
Waking up earlier in the morning, I'm feeling something that I already felt before. It was the feeling of being loved. I feel like, we went back to the time when I first answered him. I feel like we are dating for a day only. I felt like I just answered him yesterday. You know, when you feel something but you can't explain it. All you feel is happiness and contentment.
I told this to him, surprisingly, he also felt the same way. The feeling when are just starting our relationship. This time, I feel like my love for him grew 10x stronger. I was overwhelmed of what happened yesterday and the feelings I have is overflowing.
You may say I am exaggerating, but maybe that's what Love brings. You will describe things more than the usual, you tend to be overflowing with emotions you can't understand, you feel so blessed that you thought it might be just a dream and afraid of loosing it.
There's a belief than we you feel happy today, something bad will happen tomorrow. And I am not manifesting that kind of belief.
***I believe that you are happy because you deserve it. You are happy because someone is making you that way. There's no need to worry about tomorrow when all you need to do is enjoy that moment.***
Why do we let negativity ruin our day? Let's just have fun like there's no tomorrow.
The feeling of refreshment is what I experienced today. I feel like my mind have been refreshed as well as my feelings. I have doubts but it all went away yesterday. I even told myself, "Why am I worrying about useless things? It just makes me uncomfy and paranoid."
Here's a friendly advice:
There's no harm in expecting as long as you can handle both positive and negative
outcome without blaming other person. Also, never let your fear hinder you from being
happy during the moments that you should be happy. Never waste any second of your life
worrying things that are not worthy to worry about.
Beyond Blessed! 😇
As you know, my last post is my appreciation post for my partner because we are already celebrating our 2nd anniversary today. You can read it by clicking this link Happy 2nd Anniversary Love ❤️. https://read.cash/@noisytoothie/happy-2nd-anniversary-love-682535a7
So how did our anniversary went? It wasn't what I expected it to be. It was way more than my expectations!! I know I should not expect, but there's no harm in expecting as long as you're ready with the outcomes.
I woke up early in the morning because I need to go to our school for our thesis consultation with our adviser. I left our house about 9:10am and arrived at 9:30am. The consultation started before 10am and it only lasted for about 30 mins. But before we ended up, me and my thesismates held first a meeting for the finalization of our machine. While we are on the meeting, I texted my bf to just wait me outside the school because we are about to go any minute.
After several minutes, the meeting finally ended. I thought he was already outside but he has nowhere to be seen. So I chat him and told him that I will be waiting in the shed. After several minutes, he replied. He told me that he was just waiting for the rain to stop and he will play Mobile Legend first because it's a tournament. 30 minutes have passed but he's still not yet coming. I started to loose interest in celebrating our anniversary because of the thought that he prioritized first his game than me. So I chat him that I will be waiting in 7/11 instead because it was already 12nn and I am already hungry.
After buying a drink, I waited for him outside the church. I was really so annoyed to him. He constantly apologize and I just told him I wanted to go home. So we did. While we are on our way to our house, I started crying and getting mad at him. I didn't utter any words since he was driving and might loose his attention.
When we are near our house, I wiped off my tears because my family might noticed it. When we arrived, I just got off his motor and went straight inside our house. To my surprise, there are already decorations and foods in there. And from that point on, I started to burst out in tears.
I really never expected it. He even asked for the help of my mother and sister just to surprise me. I don't know what to say anymore. I am just so speechless and loved.
Chadaaaan! He also bought my favorite Jollibee! He knows that whenever we are in an argument, or I'm mad at him, Jollibee will always be the solution. Hahaha
Actually, our original plan is to have Samgyup because I've been craving for it. But it didn't happened because of this surprise from him.
I just wanted to thank God and thank you for being this sweet and make me feel I am loved! Even though I have trust issues, you remove it all away from me. You proved them wrong. I never asked for anything from you, but you've given me so much of what I deserve.
Honestly, I am so proud of him because today, he conquered all his fears. First, he don't want to go inside stores to buy stuffs because he was not used to it and afraid he might get yelled at. Next, he has trouble reading objects that are far from so usually, I'm the one who's getting our order at Jollibee, but today, he conquered that and ordered everything by himself. Lastly, we was not really into surprises because he don't know how to do it, but conquering his fear of doing something new amazes and blesses me so much. No more words!
I LOVE YOU AND WILL ALWAYS DO! 😍❤️
Happy 2nd Anniversary, Love ❤️
February 2, 2022
Dear Love,
Today marks our 2nd anniversary as a couple. From the moment I know you, the real you, I know for sure that you will be the one until the end. Meeting you is one of the blessings I am most thankful for.
February 2, 2020 when I gave you the answer that you’ve been waiting for so long. I met you last December 2018, you courted me on February 14, 2019 and I answered you a year after. Some told me *“relasyon dapat ang pinapatagal, hindi ang panliligaw*” (it should be the relationship that will last long, not the courting).
I’ll be honest. I was afraid and traumatized. As you know, my past relationship was not great, and it really pushed me at my bottom. I wasn’t able to get up to the point that I became miserable even at school. It was hard to pretend to be okay in front of my family, but whenever I’m alone, I feel like I’ve been crushed by thousands of rocks.
I’m finding it hard to trust again, but you proved them wrong. Men are not the same. Even twins have differences. You’ve proved to me that even in the darkest moment, there will always be someone who will treat you like you’re the most noble person on earth.
For about a year, you courted me and make me trust you again. Honestly, it wasn’t my decision at all. I offered everything to God, and I trusted Him to lead the way. As we go on our journey as partners, I got to know you more and know myself too.
I had so much realizations as I keep pondering about our relationship for the past 3 years. It wasn’t easy and it will never be. We have faced different types of problems, misunderstanding, sacrifices, and many more circumstances that a couple might experience. It wasn’t easy but it’s challenging. It’s challenging to the point that we really need to talk it out seriously and organizing our thoughts and have a better solution for it. We realized that quarrels are just challenges that we need to sort out and talked about. No need for yells, long messages, resentments, shouts, or break ups.
As we grow older, we became mature enough. We never let little things go between us. We tend to be more understanding and selfless. And I really love you because of that.
For the past 2 years of being together, we have shared different memories and all these memories will not just be from the past, but may it serve as our structure in building our future. Right now, we are already setting our goals in life. We are preparing for our future. I am so blessed that after everything that happened, we are still together, getting stronger and bolder.
I know that this love story still have lots of episodes, but we are the main characters here so I believe that God, as our script writer, will right everything according to His will.
I am so proud of you that you never get shy of being a servant of Him. You even accompany me. I suddenly came with this though – “***Be with a man who not just support you, but also accompanies you in serving God”.*** It was a big flex for me, and I won’t even think twice to fight for you always.
We still have more steps to take. And for our 2nd Anniversary, I hope nothing but the best. I know that God is guiding us for a better future ahead. Know that I am always thankful to you, for everything that you have given and done to me.
I LOVE YOU, my Love ❤️
Past is not always the “PAST”
Today is just another exhausting day where I did my daily routine, but now with extra works to do. My pregnant sister and her husband will move into our house because my sister will give birth soon and she needed our help. Since yesterday, we have been cleaning and organizing our rooms for it will be their room soon. We changed the walls and remove all unnecessary things as well as all the dusts there.
Today was our day 2 of cleaning which means, more works to do since all our stuffs was in our balcony. My mother also cleaned their room and changed the walls of their cabinet because it have been there since ages. You know those wooden cabinet of 90’s.
In the morning, I’ve cleaned our room and apply floorwax too. I also organized my school stuffs and crochet materials. It’s been a while since I last organize my things. It’s such a mess. There are lots of used papers that doesn’t even have values at all. So, I just took it out and separated it from the others.
Upon organizing, I suddenly saw the things I used to use before. Out of nowhere, I reminisced all my memories. I thought it was all in the past, but in one glance, everything in the past returned. I just wanted to go back to the past, all at once.
**Rubik’s Cube**
I still remember the first time I got addicted on rubik’s cube. It was my senior high school days. My friends suddenly brought a rubik’s cube in our school and I got addicted so I bought one too. It was about $1.00 and you can already have one good cube. On my 18th birthday, my mother gave me this strange looking rubik’s cube. I even told her, “Seems like you don’t want me to solve this cube”. After my party, I spent my time working on that cube and even brought it at school. My classmate was the first one to solve it, and I had to asked him to teach me how. Sooner, I finally got the technique and was able to solve it even when the blindfolds are on.
**Panda bear**
I don’t exactly remember how I got this Panda, but it has a name on it, “LUCKY”. I somehow have some flashbacks on it, but it seems that my mind is forcing me not to remember it. I feel like it came from my previous relationship which did not end good, but it’s like something else. I felt something is missing on me.
**Headbands**
As a girly girl, you know. I love stuffs like these. It reminds me of my elementary and secondary days when make-ups are not the trends but huge designed headbands and varsity jackets. Oh! Everyone seems so innocent on those days. We don’t have to impress others just to be likable. Everything was so simple, isn’t it? When written love letters was the things for boys. I admit that I also wrote letters and received some. We can really see the efforts there which is somehow difficult to see nowadays.
**Diaper clips**
I don’t exactly know what this is called, but I’m sure you’ve already seen one. It was a clip used before to clip the alternative diaper for babies. Alternative diapers are called “lampin” where it is made of a plain white cloth, maybe used t-shirts and assemble it like a diaper. Maybe some of you don’t know it if you live in a rich family. But if you know this and already used, comment down below! ❤️
I remembered that my hands have been clipped by this clip several times when I try changing my sister’s diapers. It’s been 14 years already, but this clip has not yet rusted. My mother even told me that “today’s clips was not as good as before”. Look at this clip, it seems new.
**Domino**
This game is the game my father and I used to play. He even taught me tricks on how to win on this game. It was when we are in our small old house because right now, we are living on a more spacious house than before. Before, we used to play this every night as well as *“unggoy-ungguyan”* using cards and playing chess. I’ve learned everything from him. I even asked for his techniques when I was about to compete on chess during my elementary days, with my Uncle Teacher as my coach. But everything seems to change now. We don’t play anymore because of some reasons that kept me a distant from him.
**Teddy Bears**
I REALLY LOVE TEDDY BEARS! They are my best friends. When I am still the youngest, I was surrounded by teddy bears when I am sleeping. I don’t sleep well when I don’t have any stuff toys beside me. My mother even bought me a life-sized teddy bear, but I don’t know where it is right now. You see, teddy bears knows everything about me if you know what I mean. I used to say everything to my stuff toys. They know me more than I know myself.
**My first cellphone**
It was year 2016 when I got my first cellphone. My mother and I made a bet – If I got the first place on my completion, she would buy me a new cellphone. It was when I was on my 10th Grade in high school. That was my first ever cellphone and I didn’t even expect to receive it. Unfortunately, it didn’t last for so long because my sister accidentally dropped it in the water. I even cried because of it. So, for several days, I don’t have a phone. Thankfully, it’s vacation day because it would be so hard if I was already on my 11th Grade because I needed a mobile phone. Since I really needed it, my brother lend me his other phone, so I still have something to use.
I’ve seen lots of things that reminded me of my past, but I think I don’t need to show it all. I just feel like I left something in my past. Maybe regrets? Or expectations? Disappointments? Or whatever it is, I still have that little space I need to fill in. I don’t know but there’s something that pushes me to reminisce all these memories I have.
That’s why, no one can say that **past is past** because no matter how hard you tried to forget about it, no matter how hard you avoid it, it will always come back to you, expected or unexpected. You can never avoid the things that have been with you in the past, but you have the choice whether just leave it in the past or live with it.
No matter what your past is, it took a great part of who and what you are right now.
[POV] I still stalk him online
Let me begin with the word "sayang."
Sayang is a Filipino word that translates to "waste." You squandered all of our time together. Every time I think back on those times, the only word that comes to mind is "sayang." Maybe I wasn't enough for your pure and genuine love. Perhaps I didn't meet all of your expectations, which prompted you to do the things that hurt me.
"Sayang at Nagkulang," those words replay in my head, and I wonder what went wrong between us. What happened to the times when we could laugh, brainstorm, share ideas, and even buy a home together?
I was cuddling myself with a pillow in a bed we used to share. Listening to songs that made you scream and get hyped up, staring at the monitor and wondering, "Can we still be together?" "Everything happens for a reason," they say, but what reason? What prompted you to take those actions? Why did you decide to take those steps?
Let me go back to the word "sayang"
It's such a waste that even after the longest time together, you still choose to betray me, and I hate myself for still wanting you despite what you've done to me. It's been almost three weeks since I told you to enjoy your single life, but your shitty behavior still randomly crosses my mind, at work, at school, in different places, everywhere.
As I write this letter, which I know will confuse anyone who reads it, I hope that whatever you see and read will be kept to yourself because I don't want to make this an issue. All I wanted was peace, and I'm hoping that by keeping things light and breezy, I can still protect it.
Perhaps this confession will end up destroying someone's reputation, but who knows? I can't just keep this to myself and bear all of my burdens while you're having fun with your girls who think you're faithful. That's amusing, because if you were, I doubt I'd end up writing this one. As another month of the year comes to a close, I wish you nothing but peace and happiness. I don't want to despise you for everything you've done. I want to associate all of the happy times we had with the phrase "never again."
Meeting you will never be a waste of time. It was my choice and I hope that we will never cross each other's paths again in the future.
Advance Happy Birthday!
Happy Golden Wedding Anniversary
Today was a very blessed day. One of the things that I'm really thankful for is the gift of talent. As you know, I'm a church servant in the means of music ministry and as a keyboardist. At first, I can't synch singing and keyboarding. I'm not used to it since I am still learning how to play. But as days goes by, with the demand of nature, I got used to it.
For the past 2 years, I've been serving not just holy masses but also wedding and funeral mass. I've already encountered different families, different smiles, different cries, different causes of deaths, different happy moments. Every single celebration brings different kinds of emotion, and I'm amazed of how life is.
Today, I was scheduled to serve on 3 weddings. Starting from 7am, 9am, and 10:30am. I arrived at church 15 mins before the celebration. The 7am mass is a normal wedding mass, with no bridesmaids, only a pair of grandparents, in short, a simple celebration. The mass ended around 8:30am so I still have time to prepare for the next wedding.
The next wedding, (9am wedding) was a renewal of marriage vows from a couple who have been married for 50 years. It was their golden wedding and I'm so honored to witness such milestone in their lives. I can even imagine myself in that kind of situation too.
The wedding ended at 10:07am so I still have time to take some rest. The 10:30am wedding was also a golden wedding. I was really happy during the whole celebration. It was rare to witness couples celebrating 50 years of being together. It was really rare. Maybe that is why Philippines is against the divorce because the moment you take vows, no man should make you separated.
I suddenly realized how precious gold is. Imagine wearing white gown in your wedding and at the same time, wear this gold wedding gown. It was every couple's dream - not just wearing white wedding gowns, but also golden gowns.
Have you ever imagine yourself wearing this kind of gown beside the person you're in love with all your heart? I think it would be such an amazing life you can have. It was a blessing that not everyone can receive.
I really wanted to celebrate this kind of wedding too. That's why I never let my pride ruin my relationship. As time goes by, I'm learning to adjust and make myself a better partner. We should not put everything to our partner, we should also make efforts and sacrifices. A perfect relationship is not about grand gifts, bouquets, chocolates and other stuffs. A perfect one is a relationship that is full of understanding, kindness, and guidance of the Lord.
Nothing will work if we only wanted a life that is full of sweetness. Over sweetness can cause diabetes, just so you know. 😉I still believe that balance in everything is the key.
[POV] Being Unlucky only means you Deserve Better
Being Unlucky only means you Deserve Better
I posted my feelings about being unlucky, its causes, and its consequences a month ago, not knowing that there would be more to come. "More specifies more blessings." I received the most awaited wish that I thought was impossible to have the day after I posted my second opinion about being unlucky. If you haven't read about it yet, you can do so by clicking on this link. https://read.cash/@noisytoothie/being-unlucky-means-dealing-with-several-issues-6dd97803
To summarize my previous posts on being unlucky, many people believe that other people's good fortune is due to luck. Some people are born with advantages, and some things happen to us that we have no control over. If you open yourself up to new experiences, cultivate gratitude, and break out of your routine, you might get lucky. I have less experience and opportunity as a developing adult than those who fight for their lives on the field. And I'm fortunate in that I now have more time for myself, which I intend to take advantage of until the end. Life can have a bitter ending, which I hope never happens to me.
Time is the most valuable resource; it cannot be replaced. Taking a chance, on the other hand, is not the same as taking advantage of a situation. People and organizations grow and develop to the extent that they seize growth and development opportunities. Leaders seize opportunities because they are important to those they lead.
Life sometimes put us in difficult situation where we don't know how we ended up running into it and how do we conquer it. Just like in songs and movies, life has its own ups and down which will test our trust, faith and perseverance to keep on pushing forward. In my situation, when I feel like I have nothing to hold onto, when everyone turns their backs and focuses on their own, when no one stays beside me, all I know is that I have Him who will never turn His back on me. And it's at this point that I realize how fortunate and blessed I am. I felt so important and secure that day that I went to thank Him for everything He had given me. Despite all of my difficulties, He was always there to guide me to the best thing that I deserved.
This post was written to encourage everyone to continue doing what they were doing, regardless of how difficult or simple it was. Being happy while doing what you love and striving to achieve your goals is always a priority, even when there are obstacles in your way.
Simply keep pushing until you reach where He wants you to go. Allow Him to assist and guide you to the top. It will always find its way to you if it is meant for you. Give up if it isn't. Open your eyes, because there are still many doors that need to be opened by you.
Always do what is best for yourself.
Because everybody is worth it
Everyone has our own success as well as problems in our life. It may be a simple success or huge problem. Some says that's part of life. Life would be so boring if we only have the chances to smile and celebrate victories. It's part of it, and we need to just bear and go for it.
Have you ever experienced walking in the rain while crying? or having the thoughts of just dying in the cold and dark night? or by just don't eating for days? When someone heard about these things, he may thought it's depression caused by life problems and circumstances we cannot handle.
But for me, I always believe in the saying ***"Always look at the brighter side"***. For example, me and my friends decided to have a get-together before the start of our classes, unfortunately, it has been postponed several times due to the bad weather. The bad news is that we can't have our get-together, but the good news is that, we can save money.
I mean, I know it's hard to **always look at the brighter side** especially when the problem you are facing is already considered as the **worst nightmare** you could ever have. It's hard to be positive always, but what's harm in trying, right? There's no harm so always give it a go. You can never bring back time.
Another incident that happened to me where I still give it a go even though I am really not into this stuff.
Our university required us to submit our medical certificate with an x-ray result that will be submitted before the start of our face-to-face classes. So, me and my bestfriend, we're schoolmates, decided to take care of it while we still have plenty of time. We first went to *Gata Hospital,* which is located in our town, approximately, 15-minute drive. While we are on our way, my classmate sent me a message telling me that she have already went to a certain clinic where it also offers x-ray and medical certificate and the payment is only Php 270.00 or approximately $5.4.
We are already in front of *Gata hospital* when I told this to my bestfriend. I also called my mother and asked her if we can just go there at the clinic where my bestfriend was examined. The clinic was about 40-minute drive from *Gata hospital* so we are still hesitant. But my bestfriend told me that we should go there. So, we walked in the jeepney stations and waited for the jeep to arrive. While waiting for the other passengers, I told my bestfriend that we should have inquired first at the *Gata Hospital* before going to the other clinic. Because what if it was way more convenient here than the other clinic?
So yeah, the jeep will leave soon but we asked if we can leave first. Thankfully, the driver is kind so he let us be. We are still hesitant to ask person in desk about the x-ray and such. So, I took the courage to ask. Thankfully, the person in charge is so kind and explained to us everything. The x-ray will cost Php 450.00 r $9 and we can get the result by tomorrow compared to the other clinic where we just have to pay $5.4 and we can get the result within the day. So, we still proceed at the other clinic, and get the result in an hour.
See? If we did not took the courage to ask the hospital, all throughout our way to the other hospital, we will wonder if "what if it was more convenient there?" or such questions. Sometimes, it takes a little courage to do things. And another thing is that, me and my bestfriend got to go to the mall and relax hahaha. See? We don't need to expect things. As my sisters would say, ***"expectations will kill you"*** **,** right?
I mean there's no harm in expecting something, but always be ready for disappointments. Not everything will go according to our plans. That is something I learned in my 2-year relationship.
On our first months, I literally expected him to do things for me just like what I saw on social medias and other platforms. But then I realized, every man has their own way of showing their love. I should not force them to do the things I wanted. They have their our life and principles. No one should change it. Let them change it their way.
What I wanted to say is that, in life, never expect something that will just hurt you at the end. Never waste your life on something not worth wasting. Live your life the way you wanted to live because remember that it's always worth it. Sometimes, it take a little courage to do things that will ease your way.
*We are not forced to do things but we are given the chance. So why waste it?*
[POV] Dapit Hapon: The End of a New Beginning
Dapit hapon (The end for a new beginning)
Sa tuwing ako'y napapadpad sa aking mga naisulat
Larawan mo'y kusang lumulutang, tila ba sirang plakang naka ambang
Sa aking pagligpit, at sa planong kalimutan ka
Iyong mga salita'y sa akin wala ng saysay
Alam kong sa huli kong pakikipag usap saiyo
Magpupumilit ka na ituloy and dating TAYO
Magpapaka anghel sa harapan ko't magbabalak ng panibagong delubyo
Na siyang sisira sa anumang natitira sa anyo ko
Sa aking pag alis sana matutunan mo kung gaano kasakit
Mga pagmamahal mo na tila ba'y puno ng galit at pait
Nang nakaraang ni minsay di ko mawari
Kung ako ba ang sanhi o mga maling desisyong iyong nais maituwid
Paalam sa mga alaalang unti unti ng naglalaho
Nang dahil saiyo ubos na ang luhang nakatago
Tanging kasiyahan ang natira sa puso
Hanggang sa muli, huwag ka ng babalik sa piling ko
May the poem I wrote restore your peace and sanity. I only wish you happiness, but with a twist. I hope you learned your lesson from the situation we were in. Our fate is such that no matter what we do, it always ends in a chaotic ending that we never expected.
I will be eternally grateful for all of your love and support. And I'm hoping that by this time, you'll be able to let me go and enjoy what I've earned.
Sunset is the beginning of something new. It's beautiful isn't it?
[POV] Bukang Liwayway: The Beginning
Bukang Liwayway (The beginning)
Muling nagtitipa ng mga talatang
Animong may patutunguhan ngunit sa katotohanay walang kabuluhan
Nagnanais na inyong maintindihan
Ang aking sinasambit sa pamamagitan ng aking mga nararamdaman
Simulan naten sa salitang TAYO
Noon paman ay ikaw talaga ang aking gusto
Ngunit napano at biglang naglaho
Mga matay puno na ng luha, pighati at kirot
PAANO, paano mo nagawa ang mga bagay na alam mong ikakasakit ng aking puso?
Simpleng pakikipagharutan sa ibay naging libangan mo
Hanggang kailan mo gagawin ang mga bagay na ito
Hihintayin mo pa ba na mapagod nako?
SAAN, saan nagkulang ang isang tulad ko
Ni minsay di sumagi sa isipan ko ang maloko
Naging mabait, masunurin, matapang at mapagmahal gaya ng hiling mo
Ngunit sa huli, pait at pighati lang ang naibigay mo
Ngayon, sabihin mo sakin, nasaan ako dyan sa puso mo
Mga katagang sinasambit mo na walang laman, walang emosyon
Mga panlolokong paulit ulit at mga iyak na di matigil
Ngayon, Nasaan ako?
This morning, I awoke with a feeling of uneasiness. I'm having a panic attack for no apparent reason. "Ohh, I guess it's you again," I realized.
I did some research and gathered some relevant information to help me answer the question, "What have you done this time?" And, lo and behold, my intuition was correct. I've got you covered, kid. I've got you covered.
It was early this morning when I found out everything, everything that could break my peace and sanity. I was perplexed and hurt. Why? How? Am I not enough? No, I am enough. You're just a crazy guy who threw away something valuable that could have lifted you up and gotten you back on track. I'm finished now. There are no apologies or explanations? Okay, I see what you mean. I'm just too good for you. Have a good day.
This is a POV of someone close to me. All I know is that they are in the middle of something and I do hope it will be fixed soon. ❤️
How his birthday went ❤️
If you have read my recent post entitled "Blessed to meet you, my One ❤️", you will surely feel my excitement in writing and sharing with you the details on what have happened yesterday, my partner's birthday. https://read.cash/@noisytoothie/blessed-to-meet-you-my-one-ecd45dd4
January 20, 2022 - his 24th birthday. As I said earlier, I don't have much preparation for his birthday because I was a little busy and I'm kinda broke, you know. Hahaha. Anyways, yesterday was a blessed day for the both of us as well.
Actually my original plan was to wake up at 6am and prepare then leave home at 7:30 because I still need to get the customized cake that I ordered as well as my gift watch for him. Unfortunately, the weather is not good because it's been raining since the midnight. Oh, I forgot. I didn't greet him at exactly 12am because I wanted to tease him, making him think that I forgot his birthday. But, to assure him that I didn't forgot his birthday, I saved a screenshot of my message and will send it to him once we meet.
Back to the topic, I didn't get to prepare at 6am but I'm already awake. I decided to move my schedule to 7am. So I got up at 7am but my mother asked me to help her with the laundry. I have no choice but to help her. It was freezing cold outside but we still manage to finish the laundry around 9:30am.
After we've finished the laundry, I ate my snacks first then take a 10-minute break before taking a bath. After everything, I left at home at around 10:30. I was not in a good mood because the seller whom I ordered the watch said that the watch didn't arrived yet. I was really disappointed because I trusted her so much with that. So I just got my money refunded then I went to the bakery where I ordered the bento cake.
This is the bento cake I ordered. It's a little bit messy maybe because it got shaken on my way to their house. He was not aware that I'm going to their house. In short, I surprised him. He really didn't expected me to be there. But actually, we have already a plan. We will go out in the afternoon, but I just got a little early.
Sorry for the very high quality picture hahaha. After, he prepared himself too, then we went to a mall. Actually, the original plan was to watch **Spiderman: No way Home** in the cinema.
We arrived there around 1:23pm and the next schedule for the movie is 3pm. So we bought the ticket first then decided to eat first. Since we wanted to other restaurant, we decided not to go to Jollibee but to Chowking.
We ordered their best selling Lauriat but it didn't go as we imagined it to be.
HAHAHAHA We just laughed when we saw this. Anyways, it also tastes good but we still prefer Jollibee. Since it's not yet 3pm, we decided to go to timezone and have fun there. We were a little bit ignorant on the rules there. Hahaha they gave us a card where our money was put.
We are used with the token but now, since it's pandemic, they have changed their rules. So instead of inserting token, you will just swipe this card and there is a certain amount for every game you wanted to play. We play about 10 games hahaha we literally spent all our money here.
I didn't get the chance to take pictures from time to time because I don't want to spend on my phone when I'm with him. We just enjoyed here. However, when it's already 3pm, we hesitated to watch the movie because if it will start at 3pm, it will be finished around 5:30 and we will be going home late. Our ride will take about 45 mins and I don't want to go home late. So we decided to not just watch the movie. We are really so stressed because we've already paid for the ticket. We are also shy to refund our money because maybe they won't allow us. So, my boyfriend just told me that "*gift ko nalang yun sa kanila".* So, we decided not to refund it anymore. It costs about $10 also.
Before we went home, we decided to buy *pasalubong* for my family and a gift for my friend who will be celebrating her 21st birthday on Saturday. We just bought J.Co doughnuts then went home. Thankfully, the weather is finally good so we didn't have hard time going home.
We arrived home before 6pm. Our family was happy with our pasalubong hehe. Before my boyfriend went home, we played one round of ***Call of Duty*** **,** it's a mobile game we play when we are bored. He leave before 7pm.
He did not went home yet because his friends asked him to come and asked him to treat them, so they eat first before he finally went home.
While I was waiting for him to reach home, I just spend my time doing crochet.
He reached home around 9:30. Before we went to sleep, we played another game of Call of Duty. HHAHAHA I was already addicted to it. We went to bed around 10:30. I sent him first a message and asked him if he enjoyed his birthday, and he undoubtedly said YES. We video call until we fell asleep. That's all. GOODNIGHT! ❤️
Blessed to meet you, my One ❤️
Having someone you can call yours is one of the biggest flexes you can have. Not anyone have given the chance to meet the person that is destined for you. We might have several relationships with others, but meeting your destined person is truly a blessing. Yes, we cannot immediately say that the person you are with right now, is the person you will end up with. It doesn’t matter how long you are together having a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship, or even if you are already married. We never know what will happen and where we are headed to.
My Love Story
The feeling when you are talking about your love is beyond any imaginations. It may sound "over", but I guess that's what love brings. Tonight, I wanted to share with you the journey of my 23-month relationship with him.
I met him last December 21, 2018. He was actually my schoolmate and we are taking the same course. He was 1 year ahead of me. I actually don't know him even though we have the same circle of interest, which is dancing. I just knew him when he sent to me a certain challenge on fb (I know you know what I mean). So, it all started there.
I can still remember what exactly happened during those days. January 20, 2019 was my first time playing the keyboard at church. Our schedule that time was 5am. And that date was also his birthday. I didn't know he will attend the holy mass since it was so early, but to my surprise, after the mass, he showed in front of me. That is the time I introduced him to my churchmates family, then eventually, he became one.
February 14, 2019, he surprised me at our house. I was not feeling well the whole day because I thought he didn't get anything for me. But then, he showed up in our house around 7pm. And that time was already late especially that transportation in our place is not that good especially during the night.
To my surprise, he bought me a Panda bear, because he knew that I love Pandas. And what I really admired about him, is the way ***he asked permission from my mother if he can court me.*** I know it's every girl's dream to have this kind of situation. He respected me as well as my family.
Starting that day, he started to court me. Everything that a girl dreams was fulfilled by him. I don't need to elaborate that much.
February 2, 2020, I gave him my sweetest yes. I never regretted approving his proposal. I don't want to let go that kind of person. I was hurt before and I think God finally let me meet him.
You might wonder why I suddenly talked about him, it's because his birthday is tomorrow. I don't have a huge surprise for him because I'm also short with money and I don't have much time. But I still make sure that he won't forget what will happen on his birthday tomorrow.
Actually, I have ordered a watch for him. Recently, he's been talking about a certain watch that he liked. I don't have that much money so I really save money so that I can buy that for him.
I also ordered a bento cake or a mini cake. The design is somehow similar to this but it's black instead of blue. I bought it for about $4. I wanted to make his birthday the best because he deserve it.
Tomorrow is his 24th birthday and I wish nothing but good health and more blessings to come. Right now, I'm so blessed to have this man who have feared God more than anyone else. I do admired every single thing about him. I know I have some shortcomings but I know we can make it until the end.
`And for anyone who's reading this, if are worrying about your destined one, be patient. God is still writing your story.`
Live the life you wanted to have
We never know when we will leave this earth. In our current situation, we never have any idea on what means we are going to die. Maybe it might be because of the current virus spreading all over the world now, maybe because of your current illness, or maybe because of just a shock.
I believe that everyone of us wanted to live our life to the fullest. Like there's no tomorrow. We always wanted to go for a ride, go to outings, eat on every famous resto or mini stores, buy everything we wanted, or in short, **do whatever we wanted to do** without worrying about the people around us. Maybe it was just our initial instinct of being afraid by the judgement of others in everything we do. It bothers me to think that everything I do is being calculated and judged by others.
Life is too short to worry about things. It may be easy so say but it's hard to do. Even if we told ourselves to be just ourself, we cannot assure the possibility of doing so. For me, I just wanted to enjoy my life as long as I'm not harming everyone. Yes, some of us live with **everyone's expectations,** but sometimes forgot to live the life we wanted the most.
We don't know when we will leave this earth. It will just be all of a sudden. Just like what happened yesterday.
It's our sincerest condolences to the family of my mother's friend. Yesterday, the husband of my mother's friend had a heart attack around 7am. We call him "Pay Badong". He was also a good friend of my parents and I personally know him too. He was such a great carpenter as he was one of the workers when we renovated our house last year. Based from what I know, he has been taking medications for his maintenance for having a kidney failure. Back to the story, he had a heart attack in the morning. Then when we got home (we attended a wedding) around 11am, my sister is teary-eyed and told me that Pay Badong didn't make it. **I was like "WHAT"?.** I, myself, didn't know what to say. May your soul, Pay Badong, rest in peace. ❤️
During the whole pandemic, I've witnessed sudden deaths. It was such a bad memory especially that my family itself lost 5 relatives. It made me worry about tomorrow. I know it's not just me, but also you. Some of you might ask themselves.
*What if this is my last day on earth?*
*What if I never got the chance to enjoy my life?*
*What if I have already finished my mission here?*
*Would everybody be sad if I leave?*
Such questions without concrete answers but full of worries and sorrow. I believe that life must be enjoyed, not worried. Some of us even tried to end their life. I suddenly remember facebook. They have a new update, or it's not basically new. When you search the word "suicide", the screen will show you this.
So, if you are currently lost, try finding yourself. Never give up just because of a one-time problem you have. You might think that there's no solution anymore, but remember this phrase:
`GOD WILL NEVER GIVE YOU PROBLEMS, UNLESS YOU CAN SOLVE IT. YOU MIGHT THINK IT'S A CURSE BUT IT'S ACTUALLY A BLESSING. ALWAYS FIND THE GOODNESS IN EVERY SUFFERING YOU HAVE.`
Hi Guys! I've been inactive for almost 2 months. I've been busy with academic and personal matters. It's great to be back again here. I have lots of story to tell. I'll just go for it little by little. ❤️
Life under COVID-19 Alert Level 3
Vaccination have been all around the world now. Even here in our municipality, we have already reached the 75% requirement for all the municipality. In fact, we have another vaccination day here in our barangay today. Last month, December 27, I volunteered as one of the staff during the vaccination day since they are short of manpower. Actually, I was going to volunteer also today but my schedule won't allow me. Haha.
When we thought that this pandemic will finally come to its end since we are already getting vaccinated, we're very wrong. For at least 2 months, our municipality has 0 cases of covid. As the rate decreases, the chances of going outside increases. But as the new year came, new cases have started to arrived.
On the first week of January, there are 4 new cases confirmed, just this week, it grew so fast. Albay has now almost 800 new cases and some municipality are under Alert Level 3 which includes our municipality, Guinobatan. We are now in limited movement because of the current situation.
Just yesterday, our Municipal Mayor posted an update regarding the current situation of our municipality and also includes suspension of classes for all the levels.
It was a sudden attack for us as we are already anticipating for our limited face to face classes. In fact, if not for the Alert Level 3 announcement, we are already at school for our first day of limited face to face. However, our university also posted an update.
Because of this current situation, we are having second thoughts whether this face to face will still be pushed or not. What can you say? But if ever that our last semester as college student will not be face to face, we're just hoping that at least our graduation will be face to face.
What must be the reason why the virus suddenly spread out? Some people might don't have any interest about these things, but we should be aware of the causes of this sudden spread.
As I said earlier, our municipality had 0 cases for almost 2 months, which means freedom for majority. We've just celebrated Christmas and New Year. We have some relatives coming from different places who went home just for these holidays and spent time with us.
But little do we know, we are being neglectful of the safety protocols. I know for a fact that we all gathered together during Christmas and New Year and this act might be one of the causes of the sudden outbreak of covid. Social gatherings have been allowed especially on birthdays and weddings. Even church masses are allowed without minimizing the space of the church. I even thought that masses on barangays will not be allowed but they still pursued for it..
And now, we are having problems again regarding on how to decrease the cases. I know it's hard to move especially when all our movement are being monitored. But this is just for our own safety.
An expectation before or after a celebration
Every family has their own beliefs, may it be superstitious or real. I bet you also have. Whenever there's an occasion, whether it's a happy or sad occasion, we always have something we believe on.
Let's say during wake funerals, here in the Philippines, we do have lots of superstitious belief. They say you can't take the food outside the wake place, you can't clean the yard, you can't take a bath, you should change your clothes after going to a wake, the widow can't go outside for at least a month, and many more. These are just some of it. But apart from this, we do have our own beliefs that may only exist on 1/10 in a family.
Well in our family, as time goes by, we realized one thing - ***if someone is going to celebrate his/her birthday, someone in our family will die.*** For the past years, we’ve noticed that when there’s an upcoming birthday, someone will die before or after. It’s been the topic in our group chat last night.
Translation:
My Uncle Noel died on June 8, my sister's birthday is on June 7.
My Uncle Sue died on August 12, my niece birthday is on August 15.
My Uncle Bob died on January 15, my sister's birthday is on January 15.
Our grandmother died September 4, my cousin's birthday is on September 5.
There's still have more. That's why, when someone is already sick in our family, we are afraid when someone is having a birthday, because it may be the sign of another family member's death. When you already have an expectation but still gets disappointed at the end.
Covid-19 Vaccine is now MANDATORY
Ever since the government announced the new covid 19 vaccines, we became anxious and hesitant whether we will receive the vaccine or not. Deciding is not easy especially we have been exposed to several cases regarding the side effects of these vaccines to those who are already vaccinated.
It was never **MANDATORY**, at the start. The government told us that we are not ***forced or required*** to get the vaccine. But as the days goes by, their plans suddenly went against the first promise. They stated that we have the freedom to choose whether to receive it or not, but **how come that there are establishments and offices requiring their employees to show their vaccination cards and certificates?** Whether we see it from the front or back, the real ending is that **we need to be vaccinated whether we like it or not.** The people were left with no choice. Jobs matters than life. We are still going to be vaccinated at the end.
For once, they told us that they only need atleast 75% of the total municipality population to be vaccinated, but today, December 1, 2021, the government have published another resolutions regarding the vaccination process and those who need to vaccinated.
*In a resolution issued by the Inter-Agency Task Force for the Management of Emerging Infectious Diseases (IATF-MEID) upon the directives of President Rodrigo R. Duterte “for a whole-of-government solution to increase the demand for COVID-19 vaccination, regardless of brand, for a healthier and resilient Philippines,” the vaccination of all employees in the public and private sectors is hereby made MANDATORY. This resolution shall be enforced effective December 1, 2021.*
*In view hereof, all unvaccinated employees are formally advised that, unless you can provide us proof of your vaccination, you shall not be allowed to report for work and entry into the branch beginning on the effective date mentioned above. You can only return to work upon presentation of a negative RT-PCR result. Moreover, if you remain unvaccinated, you will henceforth be required to submit a negative RT-PCR result every two (2) weeks. If you fail to meet this requirement, you will not be allowed again to report for work.*
*Partially vaccinated employees, whose schedule for the second dose of their vaccine has already lapsed, are likewise required to undergo and submit a negative RT-PCR test result every two (2) weeks until you achieve a full vaccination status.*
*During your absence because of your failure to submit proof of vaccination and/or a negative RT-PCR result, such absences will be automatically charged to your remaining sick leave credits. In the event that sick leaves are no longer available, the company may apply your available vacation leaves. In case that neither SL nor VL is available, the no-work no-pay rule shall apply.*
*Furthermore, to give ample time for unvaccinated employees to secure a negative RT-PCR result, the mandatory submission of this requirement will be enforced effective December 4, 2021. To simplify this directive, unvaccinated employees who will fail to submit a negative RT-PCR result shall not be allowed to report to work starting December 4.*
*For your reference and for further details on the resolution mandating full vaccination of onsite workers, you may visit the IATF website (****doh.gov.ph/COVID-19/IATF-Resolutions****) and read up on IATF Resolutions 148-B and 149.* http://doh.gov.ph/COVID-19/IATF-Resolutions?fbclid=IwAR2QDfOze1ggl1DZQY_ZfIFBZ-1bFEMyNtv3FQaOFuO0NRX62zlHNMZAXZI
*FOR YOUR INFORMATION AND STRICT COMPLIANCE*
So, where is the freedom now? They might emphasize that only those employees of private and public offices are mandated to get the vaccine, for sure, sooner or later, they will require everyone to be vaccinated.
If you are not yet informed, there are already on-going vaccinations on children ages 12-17 years old and the vaccine used is Pfizer. Vaccines are now available for minors but the fear of sudden side effects were still in peak of confusion and discussion.
Before I end this article, I wanted to share you some stories about getting these vaccine.
I have this one friend that has a Rheumatic Heart Disease and have been injected medicine for almost 10 years. She stopped her medication 4 years ago, praying that she was already healed. It was strongly claimed that those who have medical conditions must seek first their doctors and ask assurance whether it is safe to get vaccinated or not. My friend went to her doctor and was told not to get the vaccine, or if she's already feeling okay, she can take the Sinovac because of its mild side effects. But still, she was advised not to take the vaccine.
What she was worrying is that, if she did not get the vaccine, she might not be allowed to enroll next semester since the university is planning to conduct limited face to face but only for those who are vaccinated. She was still worried even though she was told to just bring the medical certificate.
Now, my point is, ***do we really need to sacrifice our life for the sake of compliance on this resolution?*** ***What's the point of joining the trend when you know your days are already counted?***
If I just have the courage 🦾
There will always be that certain things we wanted to do but somehow we're afraid or not yet ready for the consequences. It might not be so important "sometime" but by believing that it will make us feel better, we still have the urge to do it. As a person who's currently on the process of getting into the real life, I wanted to do things that I can't even do just because of the conscience that keeps on attacking me. Don't misunderstood. I just meant the things that my parents won't even allow me to do.
**Live Independently**
Whenever I look at my classmates who are on boarding house, I wonder if I am in their shoes too. I mean, what if I also live independently - away from my parents. I always ask them on what they feel when they are away from their family. Common answers were *"I miss my family", "It's hard to live by yourself", "it's harder that you imagine"*, or such.
It maybe a lame excuse if I said that I can do it for sure. Or sometimes I thought that they might find it offensive when I told them I wanted to live independently well in fact, I am just 15 mins away from my family. But, forgetting about these, I wanted to live separately because I wanted to be prepared from the future. I don't want myself to be so dependent from my family. I will have my own life soon, and is it better to start right now? I mean, yeah, they might find it as "proud", but I really wanted to, If I'm not just afraid.
**Overnight Camping/Swimming**
Almost every vacation, my friends will invite me to have overnight camping or swimming with them. But as always, my parents won't allow me. Actually, I just done overnight camping when it is a school camping and experienced overnight swimming when I am with my family. I never experience any of these alone or just with my friend, though they are allowing me to go through day swimming but night swimming hits different.
Since I was a child, until I reached 18 years old, my parents won't allow me to go outside unless it is reasonable and justifiable. Don't get them wrong, I still have the chance to go outside and play with my friends. But as I grow older, I realized that they are loosing their strictness on me. I mean, they will allow me to go through different places now compared before. I may not go to overnight camping or overnight swimming right now, I know that I will experience it sooner or later.
**Wear trendy clothes**
Source https://www.google.com/search?q=trendy+clothes&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwjetOKBz730AhXMa94KHdZiBWoQ_AUoAXoECAIQAw&biw=1536&bih=722&dpr=1.25#imgrc=-j3q4ps5veo3DM
If you also have a tiktok account, you can relate to me on this. There are lots of new trends today and as a teenager, I also have the passion to do these trends especially with clothes trends. There are lots of new trends today such as crop tops, puff dress, boots, crochet products, filters, and even tiktok video trends.
I must say that my family is so conservative. They will judge you even if you just wear sando outside. I mean, why? What if those are the clothes I am comfortable with? They are not that strict but sometimes, whenever I put my clothes on, they are the first thing that will came into my mind. The second one, is the society. Society is sometimes a "judgmental world". Body shaming in one of it. When you don't have that Coca-Cola body then you wear a crop top or dress, they will look at you like you're going to kill them. I mean, where is the freedom we all wanted to experience? It's not because we can't wear them, but because people's eyes and mouth are like knives that continuously killing us.
I know I am not the only one who have something they wanted to do but still afraid to do it. I am with you. Share it to us!
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