Warmth and Gratitude...
**June 20, 2022**
I suddenly felt no warmth anymore
That feeling
That even a cup of freshly brewed coffee
can stay in my hands but I don't feel it warmth
These chills I am feeling even in the summer heat
The scarf I need and the triple layered coat on a hot sunny day
I am the talk of the town for being weird
So do you felt the need to abandon me now?
Maybe I am born to be alone
Not even given a chance to feel warmth
And always dumb and not even feeling the pain of being burned over a pot
Maybe this is who I am, alone, abandoned, unworthy
It just came my mind after reading a manwha about a person who happens to depend his life over other people's warmth just to live. It must be hard living a life being cold, having chills and need to have a thick comforter at night.
But that's not my article for today, for I am still continuing with the challenge and I am doing the threes as I am afraid I can't finish it this month so I am just doing my best to fulfill the challenge within this month.
**How I show gratitude for my friends**
Giving gifts and quality time, that's what I always do when in talks about being grateful with my friends. I give gifts on random days and they'd be shock as it's not their birthdays but they're receiving flowers and sweets. I am not expressive with words for I am mostly known as the person who frankly talks and always on point when it comes to giving advise and even though I showed them this personality and behavior of mine they still stick like leech to me and because of that I am thankful of them for staying as my friends.
I can only count my friends by the hand, by means the good and true friends I say. So mostly when I feel like we're all free, I would sometimes ask them to meet up or we would go on a certain friends home to chit chat and sleepover, but most of the time they're the ones doing the sleepover for Mum is really not fond of me sleeping over other house unless necessary.
I don't exert over people who doesn't know what friendship means. I mean those people who only checks on you because they need to do some favors , not a plastic though. Mostly when I look at a particular thing and I suddenly thought of a friend I would buy it if my budget is not tight and would definitely give it to her/him/them.
Right now at my age, I don't want to be pampered for I get that a lot from home. What I want is to give more time to these circle of friends I have that through ups and downs never left me behind and continuously backing me up, I want to show them how thankful I am knowing them.
Something I love about a family member
Having a niece would probably be one thing I love, because when the first grandchild came, it did give life to the household.
When my niece were born, the family couldn't get enough of her. She was pampered by everyone and she can't even have a very long sleep for when we spot her sleeping we would squeeze her or even embrace and kiss her for we can't get enough of her. That's how hungry we are of missing having a child at home since it's been decades already. I was already 20 when my niece was born so the baby is a kind of refreshment in the house.
At some point I even get pissed for she was loved more than me whose the youngest daughter, she's stealing away the attention Mum was giving to me for they were all diverted at her. Sometimes I snap and even messed with her, I thought she would hate me for that but it didn't happen for she kept on clinging unto me until now lol!
One thing I love about having my niece at home is I can have some talks with her regarding school and she view life different from the adults so I am sometimes amazed listening to her thoughts. I even remember her saying. " **Living life simply can be achieved, if you only know how to be contented**". She told this to me after watching Attack on Titan, lol!
**Something positive about my body**
There's none so let's skip to the good part..lol!
I'm kidding, actually there's none I can think if as of the moment as it's already late and the sweetness of the cake I ate got me dizzy but as I kept on reading the challenge I also asked myself about it.
But I think the positive thing about my body is I rarely got sick like having fever or colds, but the body pain attacks sometimes and in an unpredictable day but it's nothing I can handle. I remember the last time I caught a fever was during first dose of vaccination. My body didn't handle the heat and the after effect of the vaccine that I have to be bedridden for two days.
Before I was really prone to fever and colds but after I gave birth the fever and other sickness turns away from me for they know my son needs a mother to guide him. hhehe
Can't believe I survived a very busy day today.
I thought I can keep up but turns out I can't, I will make it up to you over unread articles as I was busy with work the whole day so bear with me these week,
shoutout to beeeeb @LykeLyca @Pichi28 @Expelliarmus30 and @Lucifer01 for the love and support....
Thank you for reading.
Chillin Sunday with the fam...
**June 19, 2022**
Happy Sunday and Happy Father's Day to all the fathers here and in the whole world.
I was slacking off the whole day as it was the only day that I can really call my rest day so I was planning to rest a lot but a friend came to visit early morning and Mum had no choice but to wake me up. So the really pissed me is written on my face when I come to welcome the couple in our living room. They both even teased me that I am really moody every time my sleep was disturbed and so we talked and talked before they decided to go home.
And now I will continue this challenge but giving four answers in one article.
**Something beautiful that I saw today/one good thing that happened today**
I would answer the two with these, it really did light up my world earlier. After the visitor went home, Papz told me that the chilies were ready to harvest so I made my through our backyard and found this beautiful work of art for it is really beautiful.
I asked Mum if we could harvest some to use in our vinegar but she told me that they are already done. It really is beautiful in my eyes and I just love how they really are a lot in red than in green and it's really nice to look up. It really is a small plant but it bears this lot of space to grow and I want subgrade already
**My guilty pleasure**
Sweets and chocolates. I love them but I am afraid of them also because their sweetness can kill me too. lol!! Anyways I just love this manju that I brought yesterday at the mall and they only had two flavors. vanilla and chocolate so we order with the two flavors and flow around as he is not used to it with strangers.
After eating such sweets I definitely can drink a whole one liter in just on go. That's if you really want the forget so we know when will discover that organization.
**Favorite part of the evening**
Dinner time, as we always finished with the while family talking for hours on the table. Its one of the reasons why I love weekends for they always take care of us even if we are all enjoying our thing
We celebrated with the whole family during dinner earlier and then Papz said thank you to all of us thinking about his health and all. We actually talk for almost 10 and Mum need to interrupt since we need to assist the kids with their school tomorrow. I love dinner for we always get to talk about matters at the table and Papz gets to share more and more regarding the billings and also the current happenings in the country.
I answered four and maybe I will answer the rest this week also just to finish the challenge heeh.
Thank you for reading guys!
@mommykim
Never gonna go back to that shape.
**June 18, 2022**
I just read Ropa's article about her "Payat" days and that takes me back to those times when I was really gone into a waistline size I hated the most. I experienced having a waistline size of 23 at the age of 18 and it kinda makes me a subject for bullies. I was not bullied during my high school days or even teased, because my house is just in front of the school and my family is well known in the area because Gramps was once a barangay captain back in his middle-age years.
But, when I went to college, it was another story for I have no parents to back me up and defend me. But I am not the weakling you think I am. It's just that I am so thin before that I was even teased if my boyfriend do me a lot for I looked like a wreck every time I went to school. Yes, I have a boyfriend at that time, the first one, and he's been ahead of me in years. He was already in the second year when I entered college so all the reference books I got were from him for we are under the same course but different majors. The teasing continued for months but not until the acquaintance party that they learned that I am having my part-time job in the morning and attended school at night. I didn't share it with them so that they'll overthink me being so cozy with the boyfriend when in fact we are not even into that level, lol! A classmate saw me serving and cleaning tables in one restaurant and he confirmed that I am really working part-time.
That was me more than a decade ago, I was only eighteen when as per the date stamp, and my waistline at that time so I was always teased. I hate those arms and those cheekbones for they really made me look like I was not properly cared for.
I didn't mind it at first for I thought that they just love to tease me but it goes overboard when I collapsed during our training. They told the boyfriend to take care of me not just for pleasure but to take care of me healthily too, hahaha I already told them at first that he was not like that but they didn't believe so they received a good long lecture from the boyfriend, dasurrrbbbbbb!.
Me being thin and looking malnourished continued to be a turn-off in my work. People kept telling me to eat more fruits and veggies. I did all that but nothing happens, I even take vitamins but to no avail, I didn't gain weight. I am a picky eater as I don't eat those vegetables I hate but not all of them, I like a few only. But I do love eating fruits.
The disadvantage of being thin was that I can't carry heavy things like I can't lift a water container half my weight(42kgs) and I can't win over an opponent who's bigger than me in a fist fight. I can't also donate blood during some donation runs events that were held sometimes at school. The school nurse would mock me as I can't even have a good supply of blood and really thought of donating, I was also told by her that my weight was not even qualified for I didn't meet the preferred weight as I am underweight
The advantage would be, that I can run a long mile without catching a breath and I can do that for longer times, not that I'm a runner but whenever there's an activity I am always active except for lifting heavy things.
Earlier today, I attended a free medical check-up event held by one of the insurance companies that my Boss joined before. She dragged me to join as it really is a great opportunity to have your check-up for free.
Only then did I find out that my blood pressure was quite alarming as the attending medic told me that I need to work on drinking vitamins for my sake, my weight reached 60kgs and I am really happy knowing that. My waistline also become 28-30 that's also the reason why I am comfortable with my sisters.
What's your payat days/?
I hope you are enjoying it too just as much as I am.
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
Scammers are everywhere so beware
**June 17, 2022**
There's a lot of scammers out there so we should beware of everything suspicious or not. It's better to be safe and cautious than regret later.
I was in rage earlier!
You know that kind of feeling that you are literally tired from a whole day work, and then when you arrived back and wanting to have a desired rest you received a call of someone whose really scared? You feel anger because your love ones are worried because of a single text.
Mum called me asking if I won't be going home tonight or if I had dinner already. I told her that I just got back in the office and also I'll be having my check up tomorrow so I will be home by launch, I already told my sister but guess she forgot to inform Mum. Then Mum asked about my eldest sister if she contacted me today. I said yes she did but she only greets good morning and we exchange few messages earlier but she was still home that time. Then Mum told me that our eldest was kinda late for work since she overslept(siblings problem is that we always overslept whenever were at home) and then asked if I can call and check on her. I told her that she should be working at this hour so maybe later.
After the call I planned to eat something quick but then another call came and it's from the 2nd sister telling me to call the eldest. Huh? Bruh what on earth? I told her I can't disturb someone whose working and Mum already told me about her being late. She ended the call and sent me this
In the message the sender said addressing Mum that the person have been in an accident and she just use other phone to message, asking for load.
Mum has been a victim of this scam and her being a person who easily gets swayed especially regarding us her children so she gave her load. Maybe Mum forgot about that incident and now she's worrying since our eldest didn't answer our phone call. I told them maybe she's at work already and they are not allowed to use phone while working, so we better wait for her to message us back.
Of all the people that they sent a message, they sent it to my Mum who is easily panics and she's not young anymore, even Papz so they are more prone to internal attacks and that worries me the most.
This situation takes me back to what happen last Monday when I also experience a little panic attack.
I am always using heater whenever I am cooking ramen. So after the ramen was cooked I place it into a bowl and put the heater in the tray for washing. I see to it that the lid was put inside the tray so that it won't fall and break. I don't know what happen but it ended up covering the heater again and when I lift the tray the lid fell and broke. I froze for a minute or two then without cleaning and collecting the broken glasses, I immediately grab my phone and called home, put it on speaker. My anxiety triggers again as they didn't picked up my call and I was close to tears. Luckily on my third attempt and at the first ring Mum picked up and I release a deep sigh and give all my thanks above. Mum asked what happen and I became irritated since they didn't picked up my call that instant. Mum explained that she's cooking dinner. Well, as the old belief, whenever you broke a thing, some bad situation will happen. So that 's the reason I called and checked on them and glad that they're fine.
But when I went home yesterday for my niece birthday, only then I found out that Monday afternoon, Papz collapsed while working at my uncles house. I was shocked to know only yesterday so I asked them why didn't they tell me. Mum then said that Papz didn't want me to worry. I literally cried while eating dessert last night. My parents are not that young anymore that's why I told them to just stay at home but Papz won't stay put and would want to work still.
But with what happened to him, I literally beg Mum to not let Papz work again. Money can be found, there are a lot of ways, but I can't find parents just anywhere. I can't find a Papz and a Mum so them being at home will put me at ease while working away from them. I have a lot of plans for them, it's my way of repaying them for everything.
Sorry for this article of rant. I was kinda so caught up from work, tiredness and worries. I hope you do understand .
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
Baby Alex turns 1
**June 16, 2022**
***The first year of life is always magical. It’s when babies learn the basics of life, discover the world around them, and begin to distinguish between parents and relatives. A first birthday should be a celebration of all of these accomplishments.***
Source https://darlingquote.com/first-birthday-quotes-1-year-old/
Our little Alex(third niece) turns one year old today and the whole family really enjoyed the celebration, not just the birthday girl herself.
She was the epitome of happiness in the family, having her around the house giggling over small stuff would really lift our mood and make us laugh uncontrollably. Honestly, whenever I held her in my arms I felt nostalgic and it takes me back to the time when my son was just so fragile and can't even do anything without me. Now that she's turning one, I just hope that she's still the bubbly Alex from this day onwards.
Today, we are celebrating her birthday with some of the kids that we're invited to be there, they even sent Alex some gifts. just how sweet those kids are...
As it was a weekday so I had a hard time convincing my Boss to go home to attend the celebration as we had a lot of work to do. She kept on tracking me regarding the costs that I need to pass by in the afternoon. I plan to work a half-day today since I need to travel back home for four hours or lesser than that as it's not yet Friday but the asking permission really pissed me again.
After a couple of minutes of pursuing my Boss, she gives me big thumbs and on cue, I immediately took my bag(prepared them last night too) and then head to the terminal, I did leave at 3 in the afternoon but since the driver usually set out when the passenger seat was already full. I came home at5 in the afternoon, so imagine the traffic ugh.
So I arrived home and I was hoping that you're enjoying having a fun time their. Guess the eldest humanan man unta to pero naa pa jud guro ikapuno ana nila kay sobra nilang mahal isa't usa.
Guess her giggle truly made me smile every time she foes that.
The party was a bust with all the fun games and the crown creating. Then I forgot that I need to Pay to toe you
That's all for I am really sleepy as the people who attend.
Thank you for reading!
God Bless!
@mommykim
Why do I enjoy longer time in the shower?
**June 15, 2022**
A great day indeed beautiful people, how are you?
I've been busking and grinding at work that I was offline for half a day in noise and I am also not active here. I guess I was so caught up at work, or maybe the sideline of watching Kuruko No Basket as I am already on the exciting part of the series. It's a little refreshment for me to, not to update every now and then as I am prone to always look at my phone instead of working.
For today's article, it was inspired by what happened last Saturday when I was at home. Whenever I'm at home my son always clings to me and if he doesn't sense my presence he will really shout and call my name, which is a bad habit a but a good thing for me as I always thought he really likes me being around.
It so happens that when he enjoyed running outside with his cousins, I jump on to take a bath. I didn't even start pouring water over me when he started calling for me, asking where I am as he didn't saw me at our room, so I then shouts back that I'm in the bathroom planning to take a bath. I thought he walk knowing where I am, but he didn't walk away and just sits on the chair next to the water dispenser.
I enjoy taking a warm bath during morning and night as it really does help calming my nerves. I was having a good time singing while pouring water over me. I was really shocked when he my son suddenly spoke just outside and ask me if I'm already done taking a shower so I ask him why he's not playing outside but he said he'll just wait for me. So I told him I am not halfway done, he then said that I am almost an hour in the bathroom. hey, I'm taking my time so don't you dare intrude me on my me time in the bathroom..lol!! but I just said fifteen more minutes and I'm done.
Usually people tend to spend a little over fifteen minutes in the shower, a little scrub and they're done but not on me. Do you also enjoy and spent more than hour in the bathroom just to shower? There are things girls most do that take them longer time in the bathroom, base on my preferences.
**Singing**
Oh how I love my voice in the bathroom, how it echoed along the walls, especially when you sing "zombie, zombie, zombie, eh, eh ,eh". My fave bathroom song would always be Tauren Wells "Hills and Valleys" oh how I love his songs and I kept repeating them while scrubbing my body.
**Beauty hygiene**
Toothbrush, cleanser, moisturizer. I am using most of my time doing time. No mirrors needed for I don't want to look at my face most of the time. Sometimes I do put on lotions but it's a rare scenario in the bathroom.
**Sitting in the cubicle like a queen waiting for it to come out**
I always do that every morning. I am not rushing it so come out so I am just idling while listening to the songs I love jamming too. I often act myself like I am in a royal castle and I am there sitting like nothings happening below.
So if you want to have a meeting or a date with me or planning to hang out with me better prepare for I mostly enjoy my time in the bathroom one hour maximum would do I guess or so....
For this challenge, I actually have a lot in mind. But I will just talk what happen just a month ago.
My BFF is the complete opposite of me, while I love giving material things, she's more on being a good companion. Most of the time she'll reject everything I gave to her to the point that she'll complain to Mum about me giving her gifts. Can't help it though, whenever I see things that I will remember her I would immediately bought it and gave it to her. I stopped giving gifts when I become a mother for mostly I would just buy for my son instead of buying her gifts but she'll decline. She just don't want me to spend a lot.
Then last month she messaged me asking about my work schedule, I ask her why and she just said just because. But after talking she then told me that she brought me a shirt, not a dress for I don't wear such.,
Thinking of my BFF as not a giver but would give me a gift even though it's not my birthday always makes me smile. I now see a little change of her hehehe.
That would be all for today, it's just a random though for I am tired because of work and I also forgot that it will be my little niece's birthday oh oh..
Guess I need to go home tomorrow after work then.
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
Always my safe haven.
**June 14, 2022**
Happy Choose day Tuesday everybody,
Well, I admit my body's acting up weird these days but even I myself don't know the reason why I've been in pain. You know the feeling of coming from too much running and doing excessive exercise that you haven't done in a while and your body felt sore. That's what I'm feeling now. I kept recalling on what I did on in the weekends but all I thought was I am just looking out to the kids, and then Mum made me cook all throughout the scheduled meals(breakfast,lunch,dinner). Nothing excessive.
But then I also thought this pain will not occur for no reason. Maybe being close to the fan while working on the lappy, no? lying down with the son above me sleeping for hours, no? ahhhhhhh I don't know anymore, all I want is to eradicate this painful feeling right now. My back, arms and my thighs are really pumping painfully I even though I always sits at work. Anyone care to help me answering my questions? lol!!
But anyways that's not the topic, for I will be talking about the 30DoG challenge, I don't know if I can fulfill this for this month though.
When I was a kid, my favorite place would be Papz working area, he's a carpenter/electrician and also a gun maker. So whenever there's no one who needs help in doing their house, Papz would be in the underground basement just beside the house. I call it underground for he dug a hole as big as our room, it's also a measured square one(expect a polish measurement from a carpenter). Then he just placed a double ply board and put some grass on top of it and watered for quite a few days to make it look like a hidden escape way. He just made a little sliding door so it will went unnoticed if you enter it unlike if you use a door that can be only be open from the outside. You can imagine the basement from the Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's stone where a three head monster dog was guarding a little door to the underground dungeon.
When Papz would ask permission from Mum that he'll go work on the guns, the nosy me will go with him. And the smell of metal mixed with the ground soil will welcome you when you enter his workplace. I always love how cold it is like I am in an air conditioned room although I didn't experienced entering one before. I just sit there and listening to the radio Papz was playing and observe what he's doing. It's one of our bonding even though I always just bother him heheh.
That was my favorite place when I was a kid. Papz workplace.
It changed when I become a teenager. The more I am hooked into books in the schools library, the more also I am in love with my room, our room(with my two sisters). Even if we are sharing a room the three of us, Papz made us personal space like we have each study table with lamp and closet so that we won't argue on things like borrowing without the other knowing that the other borrowed it stuffs like that. Then came college where we are separated in rooms as my sister were already working. So I had the room all by myself, books scattered or sometimes in order whenever Mum would come arranged them, pens, tracing papers t-squares, triangles,school stuffs all around as I have the freedom to so.
Even now that I am already working and also a mother, my bedroom will always be my safe haven, my safe place and my best of friend. My room the only one who knew I cried for lousy stupid things or even those problems I can't tell the family so I vent it out by crying. My bedroom and my mirror are the sole witness of my weakness.
My room is like my son, they are my comfort. Nowadays, whenever I'm home even though I am tired, my son existence and whenever he wants cuddles always makes me smile. When you're a mom, your child's warmth calms you in any aspect amidst them smelling like soil from too much playing. I can always do this with my son in our room, since no ones bothering and disturbing our alone time.
I already said these before that no one can enter my room except my parents and my son only. My books and my wallpapers and other things are precious to me that even a small change can make me furious if no one explains to me beforehand who did such changes. Yes I'm no angel when it comes to my room
Even though small, my room also gives me access on my work and oh how I love working with my books beside me, lappy on my front with the open window giving me access to a free refreshing air from the nature outside.
My companion will always be my room and the parents needs to drag me out or shout my name or find ways to just let me out of my room, its actually one of their struggles honestly for I hardly go out of my room.
The advantage of having your own room, is you can arrange and move the bed whenever you like that suits your mood. I myself do that, change the bed position once month, to eradicate living creatures having their stay longer than mine if left unattended. I can also put some wallpapers whichever I like and place them anywhere in the wall, my room looks like a studio with lots of pictures in it.
The comfort my room gives me is enough for me to come home on a weekend. The soft mattress welcoming me in a tight hug as if telling me that, "**Come and I'll give you your well deserved rest**"
All images are from Pinterest.
And it's a wrap, glad I made it.
And now I am missing my room and my son badly, with these body pains I just want cuddles from my son. I just hope this would be gone soon.
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
Monday Shots plus body pain!
**June 13, 2022**
***Always be kind- Proverbs 12:22***
***Forgive and forget- Micah 7:18***
***Be kind hearted- Ephesians 4:32***
***Keep your promises- Romans 4:21***
***Work hard- Colossians 3:23***
Just some motivations to cheer you up for the start of the week, to some these we're just crafted from the Holy Book but maybe some here just want this, me personally was inspired upon reading it so I hope you feel the same way too.
I actually have a very rough day ever since morning where I was almost late because we had some situations with the first jeep that I rode on, the jeep was not starting at all after many tries so the other driver offers to bring me to our another jeep. And then i took off and then took another jeep again and when I arrived at the mall I did start walking.
With the weekend gone, comes a new week full of hope and assurance, that someday something will happen that can change your life, all you have to do is to look up, see the vast sky and think that everything has it's purpose, you might not be prepared of what's going to happen in the future, but you know that you have you Savior and He will guide you in everything.
I was really left with a lot of books to read as work have been consuming my time and also the grinding that I often forgot my comforting passion, my reading habit. I had a lot of books purchased and they only need a little spare time from me to read and appreciate them, they're just sleeping in my room most of the time.
Glad Granny also had a habit of reading to whenever I purchased a certain kind of book, she will the first and most privilege to open and read it first. I don't mind though for books also are comforting for her so I just it her be. I even lend her the other two books with the same author with this one. It was so inspiring and I know Granny will finish two books in a matter of week or maybe just three days if she's not busy hearing her favorite drama on the radio.
Do you have a passion in photography? Well, I don't for I really have a very shaky hands as a result of being stubborn. My hands will shake especially if I'm really stressed and had no one to cling to or some companion.
Well these captures were taken earlier after we had our lunch, I was fascinated with their down lights so I went to capturing some while waiting for our orders of milk tea. With these photos taken by my co-worker, I can say that I phone cameras really are amazing, I am not hoping for an I phone but I'm hoping on purchasing a camera that can be used using an android phone.
I personally love this shot, made some adjustment using snapseed and viola I got what I want to achieve, not polished but it is to my liking. I am still a noob when it comes to editing as I am really suck at that. And I am not into photography also, it's just some sort of enjoyment oftentimes.
Oh yes I am flexin my finished part, the editing sucks and I suck at such kind of things but I do really appreciate the outcome and said it wasn't that bad though. all in all, I can say that I prefer the raw or the original one without the editing part heheh
The funny thing about this one, I did asked my co-worker whats his reasons on capturing me taking pictures of the said milk tea shop, and he just said because my ears are red. Most of the time they often teased me of having such sensitive skin even though I'm ugly. They sometimes would just touch my ears or sometimes squeezed my arms and viola, red marks appears, but it will fade after hours. Then as scanned the picture I thought to myself that I look like I had a kiss mark just below my ears and the suspect is the masks. Sometimes it really irritates me whenever I wear it so in the office I take off my mask.
Just another random article as I really am having a problem, my body aches with the long hours at the road that I even panicked being late, good thing I was the first to arrived.
Thank you for reading! Will definitely read some articles tomorrow as I am really sleepy and I need to rest now.
Thank you!
Let's stay positive everyday!
**June 12, 2022**
Happy Independence Day!
It's a holiday today in the Philippines but since it was placed on a Sunday so it's not counted as a holiday at work, and oh talk about work, I'll be going back to my daily schedule weekly so it means I will be working back on a Monday again so no more bringing my child to school and picking them up after as because we are much more needed at work.
A little personal rant on what happened today, since it's Sunday so it's our bonding day as both my sisters are in the house. I did wake up late but my usual late morning, like I usually wake up at 11 but earlier I woke up at 9 because the elder sister keeps on calling my name saying that the parents wants to have breakfast together, so I had no choice but to wake up my son too and went out to the little hut to have breakfast with them. I was really pissed as I didn't have enough rest yesterday because I need to take care of the kids while the parents are away and I also didn't get to sleep early as the little niece is having her tantrums so I had to stand up to mix another milk formula again, if only I had milk with me I would definitely give her without going to the kitchen but sadly I don't ugh.
Another is they we're talking about the upcoming birthday of my niece but sadly I don't think I can go home on Thursday as I need to work and it's a weekday, if only it's scheduled on a Friday I guess I can go home but to no avail, I can't change the birthdate of my niece. But I never told them beforehand about me not going home that day coz I'm not that important of a guest so I just listen to them, but when they told me that I am the sponsor of the cake balloons and the giveaways, I told my sister to why not change the birth certificate of the daughter and let me be the mother, daming ko namang kailangang iambag jusmiyo. They just all laughed but I am serious though.
That's all for my little rant so let's get to the main topic already.
Let me put on some music for you to enjoy reading while listening to my ex-husband's (ahem!) soothing voice while reading the article, lezzgowww
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QJJqm5cClxk
As a continuation of the 30DoG challenge, it's some positive news I got recently, and its:
**New Project/s**
Being in a construction company, we always experience having no project for months if some certain project finishes. We bid with other contractors for a certain project and when it is awarded to us that's what we call positive news.
Although it would be a busy week for me again as long as we have a project is still good and positive news.
**Treats**
If there's a new project then there are treats to celebrate the positive news.
I shared this in noise but never shared why we were treated with pizza. It's to celebrate a certain project that was awarded to us recently and we are much more delighted with it. New projects, new opportunities too. https://noise.cash/post/vjn279max78
**Being fit to work and facing everyday work positively**
There were really times that I don't want to go back to work yet as I am really missing my son the second I step out of home bounds. But since work is needed to support our needs so I have no choice but to leave my son at home and face another day at work with a smile.
There were also times that I'm not feeling well like I have a sleepless night that mostly affect my work routine but I just shut them away as I need to be focused on doing better on my job.
The sky usually gives me positive vibes so I opted to sometimes go out and look at the sky and shift my bad mood into a good one. It refreshes also my mind to wash away my uncertainties.
Being positive in your everyday life is actually good to avoid the negativity entering your body that can change your mood in an instant.
I hope that you would also think only the positive things to keep life going in a swift motion and in a good way.
Thank you for reading!
I actually need to sleep already for I need to wake up early to prepare the kids to school before heading to work.
Have a goodnight, guys!
@mommykim
A splendid journey on this amazing platform.
**June 11, 2022**
March 26, 2020, (during the pandemic), was the day that we were informed to stop working until further notice. All construction projects were put on hold, the city was under strict quarantine so all deliveries can't go through unless essential. So the company had no choice but to stop the operations, all operations, and told us that they will just call us on when to report again.
That was the time that I can say that I struggled financially with the family. Only my sister who's working near our city was the one working still but it still can't support us with our daily needs as she has children to feed.
I learned the process of doing the old routine at home, cooking using chopped wood to save gas for emergency uses, learning the art of planting vegetables, and also cooking them.
Amidst the struggles, it also became a blessing as I had more time with my son and I can look out for him and even teach him basic lessons.
Months after, I was looking for some alternatives to earn, and so I looked online and saw some earning apps being introduced, the struggle is real in earning as I need to play or answer some surveys just to earn some points that can be converted to cash but it's honestly not enough for me as I badly want to help my parents in providing food.
Then I saw a post asking if I want to earn by making articles and engaging with some, so I commented how "how?" and then she introduced me to Read cash. While she was guiding us through the steps on how to make an article and all, I was a bit hesitant if I can really do it, the thought of making an article fears me for I am not used to doing that kind of thing, and being an introvert who doesn't know how to interact, but since I am kind of in desperate mood that time that I continued with it.
The point system before when I joined and being tip $0.01 brings joy to me at that time but I stopped using it since I went back to work. My account was still there but I can't engage anymore. Then I went back when work doesn't seem to consume me anymore and made some engagements, there I meet my baby gerls @ExpertWritter who mostly talks about her beauty routines and then on how she became friend-zoned lol, @Ruffa whose my tandem when it comes to being crazy virtually but not in the real world haha, she's the only person I can make critics but don't make me look bad as she always talks back to me some insults jokingly too, and last is @cristy whose not active here anymore, I always admire her being so wholesome. I've met a lot of friends here aside from those three that I get to share the same sentiments with life too especially my journey as a single mother.
These were my first posts when I started until I came back months after. It's really a struggle to have readers so when I came back I interact with other people first before making a comeback article. At first, I am just really glad that my article was read by 9 or 15 people and even leave comments and then I interact more and more and that's where I get to learn about some authors' journeys and had a chance to learn some lessons from reading their articles too.
I kept on thinking about what to write at first that can gain me more readers but since I am really not that good at thinking so I just shared my journey in life, in work, and in faith too. So I begin sharing it through my articles, and honestly, I don't have any content articles for I mostly share personal things and experiences so skip to the part of being a content creator. I just keep engaging and giving comments to some articles that I find really fascinating, and also those helpful and those that can make me smile and laugh. Then the random rewarder was born and I was blessed that I was already here when he happens to be active.
With him being active and generous at giving upvotes, I was thinking of encouraging other people to try and join too to increase the number of people in the community and to help BCH grow too.
It's really a struggle especially in inviting as I am not really good at engaging and inviting but I did make a thick face and make a post on a Facebook group that I joined and then I pm all those who comment "how". Since I received a lot of messages regarding that post I decided to make a group chat and do the techniques when I first joined the platform.
I was at first so pressed and had a lot of headaches answering their questions and telling the procedures from the start to finish for the nth time, especially to those who joined the GC late and don't want to back read. It's a lot of work but to make the community booming I did make some efforts too hehe.
Being in read cash helped mo to boost my confidence in engaging, and it really did help me, especially in my financials. Well, everyone here who usually reads my articles knows that I am a working single mom and I usually struggle financially also for I am the only one providing for my son which was my choice and I also need to help with the finances at home. So being in here made me pay my bills and made me do the things I want a lot.
Bitcoin cash was the first crypto coin that I knew as I am not really into crypto. And the process of converting at first made me want to quit but glad I didn't. I did acquire a lot of bitcoin cash here and it really did help me big time as I was able to give support at home always and even do some renovations, and most especially I can buy the things I want for my son and personal things too. And I did buy some of my pleasures which are my EXO merchandise.
Some of the things I had using my earnings here are:
**Laptop**
This was bought with my earnings for two months, yes I earned that amount in just two months of engaging and making articles, the price of BCH back then was at $800 so I managed to buy it. And this is what I'm using here at home for the old one was already useless even though we tried to bring it to the shop, it's hopeless.
**Home Renovations**
Little by little I am blessed that I can really help my parents in simple ways like renovating the rooms and buying some floor tiles. Although our house is not yet finished I hope I can still help in renovating it with the little amount I can give to them as an addition to their budget for the house.
**Books**
To those who know, I'm a book lover and I love collecting them too. With my bitcoin cash earnings here I was able to add some to my collections especially the HP series that I can't afford before, it was my delight to purchase the whole set and I kept on reading them in my spare time. I have more on my cart and hopefully, if BCH will be on the moon soon I will surely buy those that I like to read.
**Clothing**
I purchased a lot of clothes for my son and for the family too. The photo above were the ones I bought for myself. If you notice the shirt, well I'm a Haikyuu die-hard fan that I even purchased Hinata's shirt hehe. If given a chance I will surely buy the jacket too, and next is Levi's shirt hehe.
Paying Bills
Groceries
Financial support on my sisters
Food treats
and so on..
Looking back, I never imagine I can buy things and eat something delicious and even treat my family to fancy restaurants. Read.cash and bitcoin cash really did help me a lot financially, and it also helped me gain friends, that until now I can turn to whenever I feel lonely and want some companions.
Thanks also to this platform my knowledge about cryptocurrency became wide in understanding that I can even engage and made some hodl on other coins which I never would've imagined doing.
I am still hoping that BCH will pump up alongside all coins as they are really of great help to most of us here. And I will still make articles and engage here as long as this platform is still here.
jungle address
Bch address
sBch address
This would be my entry for madam @Jane's challenge, if you want to join just click this link and share your read cash journey. https://read.cash/@Jane/turning-2-years-old-community-engagement-writing-challenge-cd816616
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
All I want now is to rest and sleep.
**June 10, 2022**
When people around you tend to not care or even think of the things you need to sacrifice for the sake of them yet they show no care at all.
Well, that's life, most of the time it's not fair and for some it was sometimes cruel.
Amidst the blockage and the negative impact they bring to you, you have no one to hold on to but only yourself. You can't show rare emotions as they might misinterpret and tell that you're rebelling.
Oh how you love to shout that you're really tired from work and you had sleepless nights the whole week.Tell them that work sometimes puts pressure on you and you want some comfort. If only you can, but who cares about you anyway, you are just a member of the family that need to provide them since you're all grown up and works well.
Lol! What a start of an article, anyway don't mind that, how have you been?
Well as for me, I was so tired from the whole day work and I also travel from work ip to our city on a standing position in the bus as there are a lpt of passenger but only few buses came by. My body is really sore from holding the pipe on the bus in order not to fall. As long as I can go home it's fine, haayyy
And when I arrived I found out that we had no internet connection(shoutout PLDT!!?). So I am using my data connection to finish this.I read it from beeeb @Sequoia article and I want to answer some too. I will just continue with 30DoG challenge tomorrow as I can't attach photos much. So please near woth me on this. https://read.cash/@Sequoia/finish-me-i-mean-the-sentence-40d6c0ae
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**I always carry** ****a pen and mini notebook**** **in my bag.**
It all started during my first job as I need to record importqnt data so a pen is really needed alongside post it sticky notes or anything that I can write into.
I wish I could **rest and sleep better**
These past few days, I've been longing for a complete rest especially at work as I became more restless especially at night. I don't whats happening but I need to sort this out real quick because the headaches the next day sometimes became intolerable.
sometimes I **cry over small matters**
Hormones, I guess thats the main cause of it. Even a dog barking and asking for food makes me cry. A simple note from twitter that he got from a book makes me emotional, mind you even spongebob neing tired from the work at mr krubb makes me cry because I pity him. These sentiments of me made me think that " ghaaddd I'm really old to be like this honestly"
I'd eat **samyang ramen** everyday if I could
Mostly mt friends here knows that I love ramen and I usually eat it as my dinner with eggs on top. If I don't mind my health and all I can really eat ramen everyday.hehe
A talent I have is **eating and encoding**
I'm an encoder then and now so I guess I can count that as my talent as I always cjallenge myself to be a fast typer and even timed myself. Alongside of it is my love for eating food hihi...I love eating a lot as it really makes me happy everytime I'm eating.
everyone says I'm **tact and strict**
Mostly at work, their first impression of me usually is that I'm strict for I don't talk first and just minding my work,only if I am tasked to communicate with you thats the time I talk and do the queries. About being tact, I first heard it from the supervisors and the engineers when they were asked to tell their first impression of the office staff. lol!
today I will **sleep a lot(hoping**)
As I told you I didn't get to sleep more than two hours everynight so I'm planning to replinish it and will surely wake up at noon tomorrow.
A talent I wish I had, **to draw**
I love watching my sister easily draws a woman with sophisticated aura and I oh so loved all her handi works as she was blessed to have all the talent I want. If only I have thr talent to draw,my first subject would surely br my son.
currently I am **sleepy**
I opted to finish this and then hit the sack after.
That's it,thanks beeb for the idea.
Thank you for reading.
@mommykim
Excitement over--
**June 09, 2022**
Hello everyone, how have you been?
Well, it's been a tiring day for me as I was spending the whole day calling every suppliers as per my job and my head sometimes ache for I don't know the reason why. Maybe the weather or is it just my head just want some rest.
Well, it's a weekend tomorrow so I probably will have a much better rest at home, and I can't wait for it.
As a continuation with the challenge, the 11th one was
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Future events I'm excited about
**Birthdays**
These two, my eldest sister and my little niece, will celebrate their birthdays this month and that's one of the occasion I am most excited about especially because m niece will turn one this month and the whole family is really excited about it. Although we will have a simple celebration for the two but the fact that they are well and healthy is enough for us to be happy at all.
I haven't think of something to give the little one but for my Ate I already gave it to her in advance lol!!
**Kid's Preschool Graduation**
Well, the kids(son and niece) will finish their preschool in a few months and as per the teacher said, if there's no conflict at all then for sure the kids will go up on stage for their graduation. I'm as excited as it will be my son and my niece first time going up the stage to receive their certification as to move up in grade school level.
**Community Physical Gathering**
Community Fellowship/Physical gathering will have its comeback this year.
This is the even that I am most awaited for almost three years already ever since pandemic came. The schedule originally was to resume last May 30 but since the city had a dengue breakout that it was moved to next month and I hope it will really resume this time.
It's not that I am not worshiping alone, but the presence when you are in the venue with your brothers and sisters in Christ will add up to your drive to worship and give thanks to your creator and savior.
With these news of the physical gathering to resume, I really do hope that the excellence conference would soon resume too. So that I can meet my friends all around the country as we more often interact online and our last meet up and get together was year 2019 during the last conference before the lock down.
I've been telling my co-servants that the schedule was moved and been encouraging them to attend and be on fire again. Some responded and some we're also doubting as they don't have the drive anymore but I still did encourage and told them to pray for it.
God knows how I miss the live worship, and to jump in joy in praising him and to dance like there's no ones watching for I am dancing for the Lord, man that fire deep within me ignited and I can't wait for it to happen again.
The said resume will only happen in the main branch and I am praying that the branches where I mostly served and those near home would also resume the physical gathering so that the dwellers and the servants will come unite again in serving and worshiping the Lord to their hearts content. Still in talks with the elders regarding this matter and I hope we can come up with a better ideas and place for the gathering if ever since the place that we rented before has been occupied by some organizations already.
I can't think of any particular events aside from the aforementioned as they are the ones I am really excited about. Whether there are some coming along the way I would surely be grateful as well for it.
Hayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...
I've been laughing at myself for I don't know what I am doing recently that I was so pent up, I've been restless for I don't know the reason. I made some updates on my facebook account and a friend then messaged me if I am fine, I said yes but he told me that by the looks of it I'm not fine. huh?.. Well let's be happy and be thankful that we still have a chance to celebrate the today and can plan for the tomorrow.
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
My best and biggest gift right now...
**June 08, 2022**
Being blessed is always outnumber those negativity in me. I can't even count in fingers the blessing I receive everyday, and I am really grateful for that.
The concept of the 30DoG is about " The biggest gift in my life right now" and I always said this that my son is my biggest gift for hes the one that made me change my outlook in life and I will never get tired of saying that. Amidst my personal struggle, he's the one that always take me back to reality that someone is really depending his life at me and I can't be downcast every time for no one can assist him except only me. And also my family, my life is incomplete without them really.
Now that he is growing I am more nervous and excited. Nervous for he's asking more and more about the whereabouts of his father and excited for he is doing well with his studies..
I am just setting aside the fact that I need to schedule their meet up as I will do that when he's persistent to see his father but for now I need to let him know little by little. Having baby Alex made me feel blessed as I can see how my son adores her so much the hes even wanting me to have a little baby sister to which i contradict most of the time as I am not ready body soul and mind, lol!!
I was also blessed for he is really attentive at school. Every time I came home I always ask him what did they do at school and the activities or if ever they have assignments and module that needs to be done. Then he starts summarizing what they did with their two days schedule at school. I am always amazed for he somewhat became interested in going to school or maybe because it's his first time doing it that he gets excited, I hope not. He can even sing the national anthem himself now, and even though he's already five and he just learn it just now I am still a proud mom as he was improving day by day.
Having to provide him and my family with everything and having work is my biggest gift.
I don't complain at home, honestly, for I always think that I have no right to complain since they're the one looking out to my son whenever I'm away at work. These past few days the family is struggling financially but, not with the basic necessities and food but with some debts that needs to be settled within this month to avoid further conflicts.
Having a job is a blessing for I can share a little to help with the finances but not too much that I need to borrow from other people just to assist them. I just gave what I can give to them to lessen the burden.
Anyways, it's the biggest gift ever thinking that my son and family are doing well at home having not sickness and all and is eating right.
Hello everyone,
This is just a short one for I was really having a hard time keeping my eyes open lol!!
I did thought to not make one but my stubborn hands won't let me so my apologies for coming on to your notifications again. I'll make it up to you if I can..
Thank you for reading.
Choose day Tuesday🌺
**June 07,2022**
How are you everyone?
I was supposed to continue with the 30 days challenge but as I was scrolling my gallery I was really in love with the sunrise earlier when I captured it. You know it's not always everyday that I get to see such a beauty and I was really mesmerized by it earlier that I spend a good ten minutes just standing in the big rock enjoying the view not until my son call for me to prepare them.
Well, as it's a Tuesday so it's the start of my week at work, and since both my two sisters are on night shift that no one can tend to the kids aside from me. I can't rely on my parents as they we're not that all energy in the morning. Although Mum woke up, I just didn't bother her while preparing the kids.
She walk out of the house to also look at the sky and called me to capture the sky just in front of the house, while I capture the above photo while standing on the mountain, the photo below was the view in our front yard. Isn't it amazing, the sky, that it will really makes us smile just by looking at it. It's one of Gods creation that we appreciate a lot in the morning alongside the chance of waking up witnessing it.
We woke up at four in the morning so that I can hop a jeep on my way to work but even so I still got on at six in the morning. Well the preparation takes longer because the girls can't move on from their sleep, that I need to multitask while feeding them. The hassle part is the doing of the ponytail. Well, my son had a long hair before but it's not curly like them and arranging a curly hair takes time with a lot of ponytails you need to put into, this is one of the reason why I'm glad I had a son, lol!!
I was lucky to sit in the front seat as I don't have to reach for the fare by other people anymore and I also had the chance to sleep. I just told the driver where to drop me off and I doze to sleep for like thirty minutes, of course I put my headphones on to avoid such noises from other people at the back.
I did arrived exactly at eight, but my co-worker who had the keys didn't arrive yet so I gate crashed to the office next to ours and the offered me coffee which I want to decline for there's no biscuit lol!!!The just laughed at me and told me to eat with them during launch to which I decline for I sometimes don't eat launch and I don't want them to hope for nothing hehehehe...
When my co-worker arrived I immediately took out the remains of the snacks from last week, I still had two and I finished them in one go as I was really hungry honestly.Back at the admin office, they kept asking me certain things and I just told them I'm not a researcher much more of a reporter so I don't know such things hahaha. Well, it's really true for I rarely go out in the office.
The work went on and I was not sleepy until afternoon to which i am thankful of even though I woke up early.
This was what we always craved for whenever we don't have work as we couldn't get the chance to eat these kind of foods. So at the start of my week I was blessed to eat street foods like kwek-kwek and tempura. The price now increased at it's already five pesos each, well all of the products are increasing in terms of price so expect hat everything will increase also.
The last one is this, my dinner. While we we're buying the kwek kwek, my co-worker said that he will buy "paypay" and I asked what and he said he will buy banana that formed paypay, aigooooo. So we went to the store we always but bananas at. The way they cooked the bananas is just right in crispiness and the sweet.
My Tuesday came by in a snap, and now it's time to sleep and close another day again. Just how fast is the world revolving that we kept getting shocked as to why the days passed by so fast lol!!.
Anyways, thank you for reading!!
@mommykim
All it takes is for you to try
**June 06, 2022**
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**You will never know the result whether it's good or bad if you won't dare try it.**
Out of all the life lessons, this is what I am living for. **To try**
This would be my entry for the 30DoG and the topic is "**A life lesson I've learned**"
I am the kind of person who never tries anything even though it's worth it. I am not a risk-taker as everyone said. The more I think of trying something new the more I'm prone to overthinking the things that might happen if ever I will do something risky or not. But there are some exemptions to it as I dared try something that I thought was really basic for me or not lol! Over the years I am a person who's very careful about some choices as I don't want to suffer the consequences after. But there are some instances that I must say the dumb and ignorant I sometimes act without even thinking.
**Applying as a cadet officer**
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As a lousy person, I was even shocked at myself too on why I submitted a form to our commandant instructor during my third year of high school. Honestly, even my instructor was shocked and even planned to decline my submission but the stubborn me insisted. I was even told that if I am doing it because of the point there's no need for it. But then I kept on telling them that I can be as snappy as the alpha squad if I will go on training. And so I did and became a cadet, the first time using a rifle and I also cry one because we were forced to drink water with chillis on it, crawl on the muddy pavement and my white shirt became brown after.
**Declamation Contestant.**
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Hand gestures, emotions, accessing all kinds of senses you can use in portraying the role and take your audience to the world you are emitting to.
During my senior year, one of us needs to be a representative of the section(impromptu) for the declamation contest. I am really bad at that as I'm not confident enough and also I have a little tiny voice even before. But my English teacher insisted and even gave me insights on what I needed to portray. I was having a red face facing the students. But as my teacher said "How will you know about your potential if you're not even going to try?" so I tried it. I even stopped midway because I forgot the piece, thanks to my classmates who practiced with me that I managed to complete the piece and even won 3rd place with only an hour of practicing it.
**Going to the city alone**
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This was during my freshman years in college, that I rode a jeepney alone going to the city.
My classes are at night as I was doing some part-time during the day, so my classes start at 4 and finish at 10 in the evening. My older sister was working and renting a room in the city. She wants me to come to visit her and to get some allowance from her. Also, make a tour of the city while were at it. I don't even know how to ride a jeepney before and I am really afraid to be lost but my sister insisted on letting me hop on and she'll just guide me on what to do. It kinda makes me feel bad though as I didn't inform my parents about my going to the city, and they'll be gone mad if they knew. I rode the jeepney with the number 27 saying it's bound directly to the city. I kept on updating my sister on where I'm at as I am not good at familiarizing myself with places even now lol!. I arrived in the city and my sister had a big smile on her face as she told me I made it.
**Asking permission a day before my flight.**
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This might be the funniest and scariest I ever tried. Asking permission from my parents the night before my scheduled flight.
Aside from those concerts, I attended in Manila, I was also favored by the heavens to attend community excellence conferences there. The community would hold excellence conferences yearly and ever since I joined the community, I was blessed to attend the conferences in Manila for the nth time already, and mostly the accommodation either be charged free or we sometimes pay for it.
During the first conference and that was way back in 2014, my ticket and the hotel reservations, everything was all done, and asking permission was the only thing I didn't do. The members ask me to tell my parents in order for them not to worry especially Mum. So the night before it we bought groceries for the store, then as we were parting ways for I needed to sleep at my friends place that night, I told them that I'll be flying tomorrow, at 6 in the morning. Yes, they were shocked, and I really want to lie about everything but the more I try to make words from my head to tell them the more I felt bad. I just said sorry and I'm glad that they're not angry at me. During the flight, I was quite amused and a bit irritated because Mum kept on checking me from time to time lol!!!
There are really a lot of incidents that I thought I could never do, but I really did and yes, trying will really make you do the impossible.
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
Sunday in the beach🌊
**June 05, 2022**
Haply Sunday evening everyone, how was your day today? Did you enjoy the cold weather under the sheets? Goofing off on your rest day? Or just plainly having some "me-time" alone?
I've been away offline as the family had some gatherings and was celebrated on the beach. It's unplanned for me actually as I was really planning to just lie down as I was working yesterday the wholr day. I didn't even made an article for my tiredness wins me over. But the parents insisted on me going with them since my son wants to swim too.
I haven't decided but Mum already got our clothes prepared and Papz already beeping is to hop in. So just imagine me having my bed hair eyeglasses on, Mum throws a towel at me and then we're good to go(not a girl scout but Mum and Papz are)
As our eldest would say from the above picture that our parents who grow with each other that the other one can't do anything without their other half. If Mum was around surely Papz will always be there behind or beside her😅.
Even my relatives from the farside of the city knows that I don't socialize with other people. So when we arrived at the beach I only greets them and then went out to watcj the kids play and swim. That's also the reason Mum was with me from the picture. She was bringing me food and ate with me while standing. I was also feeding my son some while he is swimming hehehe.
So what I did was just enjoying myself taking photos of the kids while swimming.
Having them as my model makes me laugh everytime for they always want retakes lol..My sisters kept on telling me to join themm on the table with my other relatives but I insisted on looking out for the kids. I just don't want to interact as they are talking some serious matters.
You can see that they are really enjoying being dip in the sea. I kept asking if they're cold as the weather was kinda gloomy, but they just said that it isn't cold at all but the water is really salty🤦
Baby Alex joined in swimming too but she dip for like thirty minutes and the changed into dry clothes as to not make her get colds.
When all the relatives are in serious talks and Papz joined too. I was called to ask for my decision on the matter and the went back to the kids. Well, I really hate meetings with them.
When some of your relatives looks down on you for being just a so-so kind of family with no plans on upgrading into high class level like them, it just irks me to snap at them. But I am not raised to talk back on people especially on the elders so I just kept my words in my head and buried it deep. But still I don't want to interact even with them.
Thats me with sisters and the kids. So you see out of the three of us, only me loves shirts while they love sleeveless😅.
We went home after all the relatives were gone. The parents with the Uncles had little discussions and then we we're one by one sent home by Papz.
It's already late but the ladies, lol, I mean Mum and us sisters were still in the kitchen, talking about stuffs while eating some ramen. Mum didn't eat but just listens to us.
Thank you for reading guys.
I will read some before going to sleep and will catch up to you later. Sorry for the inactiveness.
@mommykim
All time favorite song
**June 04, 2022**
Good morning readers, as usual, I was out of my schedule for I was coaxing my son last night and earlier I was preparing for work. I mean I am working here at home for today since I requested my Boss to just let me work at home on Saturdays if needed.
And now I continue with the 30-days challenge and I'm on my 8th which is the favorite song and why...
Well for a music lover like me I don't tend to only have one favorite song. I mostly have a lot base on the genres. I listen to a lot of it, may it be a Thai, Korean or other languages I listen to it and now I am hooked on Japanese songs, especially the band Burnout Syndrome's "Fly High". It's the OST of the anime "Haikyuuu "which I am really hooked on watching that I even re-watch it for the fifth time I guess the other day lol!!1 That's me when talking about favoritism, I tend to re-watch them as long as I like and even memorize their scripts, I also get to learn some Japanese words from it, "Baga, Kageyama baga" hahaha Hinata surely is super cute lol!!
So back to the topic, although I a love a lot of songs to the point of being addicted to them, there's this song that truly live in my heart 24/7 and I can say that this has been the one that I can memorize in my heart and the person who sang it gives it more meaning and love for me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FW_98_DquUg
***Leader of the Band by Dan Fogelberg***
I first heard this song way back when my two Grandfathers and my Uncles we're still alive. This is Gramps(Mum's Father) favorite song first alongside Through the years and The Coward of the Country by Kenny Rogers. He always told me that he looked up to his father a lot and the love he had for him was immeasureable that he even had to deal with the hardships just to make his father be proud of him and also love him the way he loved his other siblings.
He always sang this song whenever we had gatherings or even when he was just sitting in the balcony with the newspaper at hand while sipping his coffee.
Papz, on the other hand respect him not only because he is his father in law but also because of the way he look up at life and how he managed to live the life he wants.
When one of my Uncles, my mother's brother, passed away, I saw the pain in the eyes of my grandfather watching his son buried right before his eyes. It pains me to watch him weep on his grave but I can't seem to console him that time.
Days passed and he is still singing this song every morning, then after singing such a sad song he then shifts into some folksong which I never heard often and I laugh at the lyrics. Him and a 10 year old me always succumb ourselves in the morning sun whenever my family sleeps at their house during some gamily gatherings. That was why I was so close to the oldies for I love hearing them song and their ancient stories that I somehow can't believe that I really believed from it before.
Weeks before he was departed, we had a small family gathering in their house. I already had my son that time and everyone was adoring him especially the oldies. We had some karaoke sessions and we are enjoying our time laughing and talking. Then Gramps called out for me while looking at the song sheets. He was asking me to sing the "Leader of the band"but I know I am nowhere near a poet lol. I don't know how to sing much more holding a microphone. But Papz elbowed and signal me to grant the old man's request to which I comply.
*The leader of the band is tired*
*And his eyes are growing old*
*But his blood runs through*
*My instrument*
*And his song is in my soul --*
*My life has been a poor attempt*
*To imitate the man*
*I'm just a living legacy*
*To the leader of the band.*
We we're sitting side by side and I can see his facial expression looking at the lyrics and I know that he really was immersed with the song. I kept on singing and Papz was also beside me that time.
I am not a singer myself , no one can contradict to it.
*I thank you for the music*
*And your stories of the road*
*I thank you for the freedom*
*When it came my time to go*
*I thank you for the kindness*
*And the times when you got tough*
*And, pap, I don't think I said* ***'***
***I love you' near enough***
They both broke into tears (Papz and Grampz), I was really curious that time but I just continued singing , when I finished singing I asked them what's the matter but they just told me that they we're just touched by the way I'm singing and so I had this thoughts that they we're crying because of how bad my singing is.
Later then I found out that Grampz had no hope at all, his body was already deteriorating and another stroke he'll be gone for good. I was at work that time when I heard from Mum. I told myself that I'll visit Grampz when I go home. But I didn't get to visit him alive for he already passed away the moment I arrived at their house.
I was weeping whole night at home because I can't seem to broke our in tears inf front of him. I worked the next day with me eyes swollen from the crying. I was in a dazed the whole day and I never thought I managed to get home safe with my mind haywire with my Lolo gone.Papz picked me up from the terminal and we went directly to Grampz wake and my Lola asked me to sing Grampz favorite song that also became my favorite song. I was hesitant for there are a lot of people watching but the whole family told me that it was the old man's last request from me. I thought I already cried every tears but when they told me those words I already cried again and again that I can't seem to compose myself. Why was I so attached to the oldies that I was hurting like this, that's what I thought while crying but I need to do this favor for him.
***I am the living legacy***
***To the leader of the band.***
Since then I always sing this song, it became my favorite since my Grampz love this song too. Every time I visit his grave I always sing this song and some of his favorite and put on some speakers to let the playlist do it's work.
I guessed the oldies influenced me a lot with my life decisions and all. They also let me show that failing has never been easy but along the way you get to realized that the failure is what made a man stronger .
I am literally crying while writing this as I was reminiscing Grampz and his comic stories that made me laugh everytime and when he makes funny faces. Maybe I'll pay him a visit later.
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
I wish I'm an only child too
**June 02, 2022**
*"Having a real best of friends that will never betray you as you came from the same womb is the most beautiful thing ever"-mommykim*
I am having a break with the 30-days challenge as I was just caught up with my conversation with Mum earlier during our video call. Mum was concerned as my niece was always saying this when she's pissed at her sister.
"**I wish I'm an only child too**"
This was what my 9-year old niece told Mum the other day while they we're lying down last night. And my mum was just relaying them all earlier while we we're talking. This happens most of the times, especially when she's pissed her sisters.
My niece have two younger siblings including Baby Alex whom my son is so fond of. And as I observed her being the eldest, she was sometimes tasked to take care of her younger sisters since her parents are both working. At 9-year old,feeding the baby while tutoring her sister with the module, making milk solutions so that she won't have to hurry if the baby get thirsty after, changing diapers, tidying the room after waking up and taking care of their hygiene(includes my son), doing bath as she's the one capable of thoroughly cleaning their bodies and scrubbing them.
This takes me back to the article of Madam Jane about her being the breadwinner even though she's the third child. I even commented that I also wished to be the eldest so I can have the privilege to scold my sisters, lol!!
I also heard my niece before saying that " **I wish I could also be Tita Inday's baby**" because all of them can see how I tend to my son most of the time when I'm home as I was filling in the days I'm not with him because of my work.
**"Don't say that, don't you know how nice it is to have siblings?"**
I even told her these before but since she's still a kid maybe she then don't understand it for now but I know one day she'll realize how nice it is to have siblings.
I also understand her side though. Four years of being the only child that makes the house livelier before her little sister came in the picture, and then followed by my son whom was the only boy and then baby Alex. She was the apple of our eye and then out of the blue she became the on handling stuffs that not even suitable for her age. I can sense where she came from by saying those.
As I said, I can't scold my sisters for I am in no position to disrespect them for we are thought not to do so, but sometimes I put the blame on the parents especially my sister for not letting the child adjust first for having a sister. Mum told me that we we're also three siblings before but the difference between us and my niece is they had a little age gap difference.
Me and my sisters came in consecutive years one after another. When my Ate was one year old, the middle came and a year after that I was also born so we only had a year gap while my niece had a four years gap so the adjustment is not quite handy to begin with and after four years of having a sister came a little sister again and God knows if when will be the next one coming if ever. 1-1-1 to 4-4-4 is quite different though lol!!.
When she and her sister bicker, she always run to Mum and saying that she just wished she's the only child. This kept on happening every time some situations occur that she doesn't like.
When me and Mum were talking about her earlier she came in and joined the conversation, and being the Tita I am who loves giving her advises (that usually don't apply to me, lol) as she always listen to me I said this to her earlier.
*When Tita Ate(our eldest) and your Mama(middle) bickers, Tita Ate will pinch her cheeks as you Mum's chubby before. Instead of hitting back, your mum will just laugh it off as the pinch is not that painful as your mum said and we ended up laughing and playing again. And then they bicker and then make up again.*
*When Amber(the one in next to her) shares a bed with you, you two both sleep late as you we're talking things only you two understands that Mamay would scold you to go to sleep already.*
*Then you wake up and you will asked your sister to help you fold the mattress and put it on the closet while laughing at some silly jokes your making.*
*You get to have a partner in doing those cooking era with the leaves outside and you often get to build the doll house together.*
*You see having a sibling is nice as you have a playmate forever. Don't ever say that you wish to be an only child like your cousin. You see how he cares for Alex right, that's how thirsty he is on having a sister, for being an only child doesn't make him glad. Not that I can give him one in an instant though. You might not understand my point right now but I know one day you'll understand it, but for now, learn to accept that you have now your sisters that you need to look out, as a big sister to them.*
She then told me that she was just envious with her cousin but she's enjoying tending her sisters although sometimes it's tiring.
That's my girl.
Most days, siblings bicker on useless stuffs but the day will not pass without them reconciling with each other.
I can attest to that since me and my sisters are like that. We're mad at the other and we sometimes throw harsh words but after the day you will see us squeezed in our parents bed and talking nonsense stuffs and laughing together like nothing happened.
Mum always said this to us that it's normal to bicker but you shouldn't let the day pass that you are not talking with each other because it will get worse in the long run.
That's it for me as I was so caught up writing this.
Honestly the start of the month is really hectic for me as my work requires a lot of my time as it always will be like the past few months also last year.
But still trying my best to do good here as also it still the first two days of the month.
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
May-terrific monthly report!
**June 01, 2022**
***"We're only going over baby, coz I've been thinking about you baby,***
***does it ever drive you crazy, just how fast the night changes."***
I'm just having a good time although late.
But honestly speaking, months really go by without us noticing much and now we're halfway through the year. Most of us are busy grinding and making ends meet. But I do hope and pray that all of us will have our desired rest day, a day away from our respective responsibilities.
I was actually just finished doing something related to work now and finished having my late night meal while reading some articles.
As most of us do with every month is to make a monthly report on what we did achieve in the previous month.
Checking mine I actually did accumulate 1BCH with all those articles I made. I also accumulate 0.35BCH in noise and I am really thankful for that.It was all made possible because BCH is down as of the moment. I was actually glad and happy and even gave a tap on my shoulder telling my inner self that it did well.
Writing articles, I also have some absences and making up for it by making two articles for a day just to complete the whole month with me having to write on for each day. It was actually actually satisfying. But sometimes there are days I can't control like when I'm at home I can't focus on doing on making some noise and writing articles. My son kept on wanting to see me doing anything except looking at my laptop or even my phone so it made me out of focus for days that I'm at home.
I am currently doing the 30-days challenge and I'm not even half way through it.
You can check them each:
30-1 My little sanctuary..
30-2 The love I had for reading a lot
30-3..Mornings are always great if..
30(4-6)...Down the memory lane
https://read.cash/@mommykim/30-1-my-little-sanctuary-60b1e8ba https://read.cash/@mommykim/30-2-the-love-i-had-for-reading-a-lot-07b45ed7 https://read.cash/@mommykim/30-3mornings-are-always-great-if-1a220818 https://read.cash/@mommykim/304-6down-the-memory-lane-9bc00d0f
If you see I will be on my 7th day tomorrow. Eeryone was really doing their betst and I hope I can do it too.
Opportunities, how you handle it, will predict your future..
**May 31, 2022**
Seventh and I am still counting..I am in the nook of forgetting this challenge but since I started it so I will continue until the end. And for this time it will be with........ **an opportunity I'm grateful for**..
I did get a lot of opportunities that I am grateful for ever since but if I will tackle only one I can say that the opportunity to work in my present job is what I am grateful as of the moment.
*(A little flashback story...)*
Way back when I just had a baby and I was still feeding him with my milk, my mind is already wandering on any job opportunities that might be open for me once my baby can eat solid food, that's on my mind then.
Since I let the father of my son go home days after we go out from the hospital I am not expecting anything from him anymore as I decided to give the baby all he needs until he grows up. And since I was not using phone or any gadgets for months while breastfeeding, I was looking through newspapers and even following the news on televisions regarding job openings in my area, and to no avail I found none suitable for me. I'm not saying I am picky with the jobs, I'm actually looking for a job that my body can sustain since I am breastfeeding. And being a mother, most of us are at risk with fatigue and some after effects from giving birth. A job that requires extra physical strength is a no for me and also those job that had a graveyard shift since I need to be with my son during the night as I don't want to put a lot of burden to my parents.
When my son turns four months I decided to go to the big city and apply in an agency. Buckets of sweats, falling in line, collecting requirements, the usual things you do in finding a job. I did all of that for a day and then pass a lot of resumes to some prospect companies I want to work. I did hope I could get a decent job although I was having second thoughts since the people I was team up for the interviews came from prestigious universities with a lot of potentials to get the job easily, still I continued with the interview and other necessary things. At the end of the day we we're all promised to be called if we are hired while some were hired on the spot.
That was also the day I got a text from the father of my child(after four months) asking about our son and if he can see the baby. I was still hating him that time, but I just told him.
***(Paghatag usag pang gatas ug diaper ni dodong, una ka makakita niya) Provide him milk and diapers first, that way you can see him***.
But I was so angry with his reply.
**(Di mangani ko kabuhi nako, maghatag na nuon ug support niya) I can't even feed myself, much more support him.**
So I told him the he will never get to see the child ever, and I will do my best to provide him with everything I can offer. (So alams niyo na san ako nanggaling sa mga rason ko dati hihihi)
So I got home like nothing happened and told my family that we will be called if we are hired.
My co-servants in the community paid me a visit a week after I applied for some job openings. They brought gifts to my son and checks on me and even did bible sharing at our house. We we're talking about their job when one of them ask me if I want a job even though it was out of my profession experience ( I'm a data encoder on my previous jobs). I asked him what was the job and he said a **timekeeper**(the one who take notes of the workers time in and out and even the one who gives out payroll salary). The good thing is that the project the company's working is just in the main city so it's only a 10 minute ride from my home and back. And the supervisor is the head of the branch in the community I am serving at. I immediately said yes thinking that it will only be temporary as I am waiting for the call from the companies I am applying at.
I became a timekeeper in the project for almost a year, didn't receive a single call from the agency I was applying at first. In a construction a project will end if the work is done and you will be assigned to another project if you got a good performance. A week before the project's done, the company was holding a Christmas Party so we we're all invited alongside the owner and other staffs. I was hesitant to join since it will be awkward to face the President of the company I am working at but the workers wanted me to tag along with them. And to my surprise, the President even called me and asked to sit on their area during the party.
A little trivia is I only saw Big Boss and Lady Boss that time, and we are only a few girls in the party as most workers and staffs are men.
As I was in their table, Big Boss asked me about my educational background, the nervous I am stutter while answering him but I still manage to answer him. Then he offered to extend my work and sign a new contract not as a timekeeper but an admin staff. The supervisor, the one who let's me in, told me to accept it since I don't have any job after the project and it's an opportunity for me to be a regular employee if I will be assigned in the main office, to which I accepted it.
I can still remember it was January 08, 2018 when I started working here in the main office as an encoder, and after four months I became a regular employee. I was also entrusted to some projects and I even became an assistant to the manager now ( the salary also increase as my workload increases and when the government issues salary increase for employees)
I am an employee here for five years already and the learning's I had while working is a blessing for me. I never expect to even report in a big audience or even do some seminars with the workers( I also had seminars and trainings myself beforehand, and safety certifications). Holding big chunks of money like half a million and more to hand out to the sub contractors and the workers for their payouts.
Such opportunities we're opened for me ever since I worked in this company. A lot of trainings and even the most hated task(purchasing), I did get a hold of it now.
From being a timekeeper, to being a data encoder, printing, reporting, HR, costing, purchasing, billing and the latest was being a document controller for a certain big project, I can't quite imagine I did all those in a span of five years of being here and still counting.In short I am now a clerical admin staff.
I am really grateful that I said "yes" to this offer and I am thankful to the friend that God sent as a channel of giving me the opportunity to work up to now. It's amazing that I still cope up until now. A lot had change but I am still here. You know when your Boss will beep you up telling you that you need to go to work for you are needed to do this and that, it shows that you're one of the assets of the company now, it's what I always feels when Lady Boss wants me to come and do this and that for a certain project that we need to submit.
I became talkative again, sheeeeezzzzz
Thanks for reading up to the end...
@mommykim
30(4-6)...Down the memory lane
**May 30, 2022**
**30(4-6)**
I am not a person who really is fond of consistency lol..blame mother dearest about me being like this. I am not consistent in finding ways about life. Not even consistent with my decisions in life how much more about work lol!!
This would be my 2nd article for today as I missed publishing an article last night due to the internet connection that I published the article early in the morning when I was on my way here at work.
So for now I will answer these three as I am more inspired to answer more than one, I know this is a 30 days challenge but a little mess up with me not following the rules will make it more exciting lol!! Or it's just me getting just bored answering only one during the day...hehehe
My favorite memory
I always say this that my favorite memory was when I give birth to my son, that would always be my number one list of the memories I can remember for the rest of my life. But looking back when my pumpkin was not being planned or expected, back to the time where I was a young fella with boogers and morning star every morning,lol!!!
To some this might be just normal but to me it's memorable, it was when my two Gramps we're still alive. Those two are full of humor but I didn't inherit even bits of their humor from them. But their humor or the way they joked sometimes put me on edge. We we're sitting in the living room, me and the Gramps. They we're talking about other people(may lahing Marites mga Lolo ko) and I was just watching T.V as to accompany them in the living room as the other we're busy preparing dinner. When suddenly both their eyes are on me, the eff, I kept thinking what I did wrong this time that they we're really serious while fixing their eyes on me. I was sweating bucket as they we're not talking and just shooting daggers at me with their eyes. Do you know the feeling of being nervous that you want to pee, that was what I was feeling. Then Yoyong (Papz dad) called for me.
" Do you know Jhen?" moment of truth on what did I do wrong
"Yes Yong"
" That we love you and you're one of our favorites" (they both sang in chorus)
I was astounded at first and then processing what they we're saying at me since they're both serious as in they're not smiling while the people in the kitchen listening to us were already laughing. As I was recalling what they said I look at them and as if on cue they both smiled at me . I was literally crying as I thought I made a severe mistake that time. I was crying even though they usher me to be in between them. I am never the type of kid who talked a lot so them doing those really had me crying that only Papz got to subside my crying hahaha. That was embarrassing but it was also my favorite memory with my two Gramps.
**An accomplishment I am proud of**
The fact that I am still alive and kicking is already an accomplishment. Academic wise nothing to be proud of lol!!
Work related I can say that I accomplished a lot of project on the house with it's renovation and I can say that I am proud that I can provide my family even though I am also focusing on the welfare of my son and his needs.
**A hidden blessing in a difficult situation**
I can say about this work relatedly.
We we're on the verge of losing hope of a big project and I was also focusing on that big project as it is interior so the work would be done inside the building so the workers will never be working under the sun. That was what I was aiming for. Then came another prospect of a project. We also did our best but Big Boss let's us choose what project should we lend our eyes on that can expand our knowledge on our field. It was quite a difficult decision the supervisor need to make and he's asking us for suggestion. I was internally wishing for the interior to be picked but unfortunately they all favored the structural.
A month after the decision, the project was given to us, and then we learned that the contractor of the interior was having a scheme regarding the budget of the project so we we're glad we choose the structural.
I am literally wanted to jump off to bed but I need to finish this in order for me not to have absences for this month. Glad I made it this far though.
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
30-3..Mornings are always great if..
**May 30, 2022**
Hello everyone, the internet was gone last night that I never get to publish during my usual time slot and I just had a chance to publish now since I'm on the road going to work now.
So hiyaaaahhhhh lezzzggooooo
I actually had three preferences with this lol!
First would be,
**Waking up with a beautiful sunrise**,
I'm a normal person who loves sunrise and sunsets but not to the extent on waking up early just to see it. I admire it everytime I go to work coming from weekends. Seeing the sunrise or just even the sky with the sun rays at it will still grant me the feeling of watching the sunrise in full force. As most people think, sunrise means a new beginning, time to start something new and time to work. A new day full of blessings and chances on doing your very best at everything. To attest to different categories and challenges life may give you. God favors those who show gratitude with actions and so do you, you can always start by giving a smile to other people you meet everywhere.
Second would be waking up to a smell of coffee, that would wake me up from my deep slumber. Even the smell of coffee can activate my senses how much more when taking a sip of it,heaven. I admit I'm a coffee lover since forever and I'm only off limits of it when I'm home. I can have four cups of coffee in the morning and another in the afternoon but I am in the controlling stage since my acid reflux and hyperacidity is severe but my love of coffee will still remain that's why I can only drink coffee once a day for now and I am sipping it after my morning bath.
Third and the last favorite part would be waking up beside my son.
As I am staying in the office during weekends, I only get to wake up beside him on weekends and I always love waking up with him.
He has this habit of hugging me and smiling while saying "Good morning Ma" to wake me up. I'm a heavy sleeper especially wjen I'm at home and he always had a hard time waking me up, and he patiently waits and smile when he sees me get a move out of our bed.
Most of the mornings, he'll ended up sleeping again while waiting for me to wake up and Mum just let us be since I only get to have a longer sleep during my rest day.
All I can say is that mornings are very nice if we are doing what we love.
Thank you for reading!
Have a great day ahead☺️
@mommykim
30-2 The love I had for reading a lot
**May 28, 2022**
I really find comfort in reading a lot of mangas nowadays. It makes me divert my attention to another world and living as a beggar in some of the manga I am reading. I know most people tend to watch dramas rather than read but I prefer it my way and I love the feeling of imagining things while reading a significant story.
Webtoons are much well appreciated by me because of the graphics and it makes the reading more enjoyable you can't even control yourself and just want to continue reading up to the last update which sometimes makes me forget the time I spent two to three hours reading one series. If you ask me what kind of genre I am reading I could say all genres except horror/suspense. Reading about blood and in the hospital makes me think negative thoughts so I ended up skipping that one and would find another series to start reading.
This father and daughter tandem really makes me laugh the most. These two behave just like the kids even though the duke is not that young but as you can see he really is a warm-hearted father from the looks of it. He values his daughter from left to right and even skips a day of work just to be with his daughter, that's a green flag for me.
The trending couple Riftan and Maxi from the series "Under the Oak Tree"
In this series, I learned the word acceptance as to what had happened that made you ruined and also, what really happens in the past that made you who you are today and being bullied is really rampant especially if you're an easy target, to begin with.
I was currently on this manga and the characters are so adorable. In this scene, Giovanni was being scolded because he sold the company and was left with the house alone. I was really laughing and I love their chemistry together although they mostly bicker all the time.
See I almost told you all the manga I am currently reading ad be specific about it but I remembered there are a lot of babies here so I will just share it here instead.
Special thanks to Ms. @Talecharm for the sponsorship renewal.
Thank you for reading.
@mommykim
Yesterday's shame on me
**May 28, 2022**
I was down and out yesterday night because I was very tired from the ride back home that I was not able to publish or even interact with last night. My body felt sore that I felt like I came from a battle of swords that I can't even move a muscle or maybe because I was really just super drained yesterday. Let me just share what happened yesterday as I was not so inspired to continue the challenge or maybe I will do it later in the evening.
Yesterday morning, I was not in a good shape for I only sleep like less than two hours. There really are times that my body doesn't cooperate with me that I just want to scold it but what can I do, my body has its own mind itself that sometimes it doesn't listen to me. My hiccups are also ruining my mood as I am uncomfortable with it.
Since I had my tantrums I only had coffee like I finished three sets of it from morning up until the afternoon. I didn't even have lunch since my hiccups were severe and I was sleepy. I thought I could sleep during the break but no sleep happened as I was tasked to do something! facepalm!.
Then Lady Boss told me that she will go undertime so it was my chance to rest before going home. But no rest happened too since I was keeping updates on the decluttering of the power tools on site. I'm calling both the messenger and the architect together with the other workers since they have no load. I want to just give them a load but I don't have a balance on my e-wallet so I just go with being their bridge of communication.
At two in the afternoon after my last set of coffee, I decided to bring some of my things home. I will bring them little by little because the company might be switching to work from home scheme so I'm just bringing some of my things little by little to avoid a bigger hassle in bringing them home in bulk. Only then did I realize that I had a lot of these phone cases stored. I bought a new phone last Christmas and gave my old phone to Mum as I was upgrading my phone to a bigger capacity and useful features for work purposes.
I ordered ten sets of phone cases as I have the same phone as my older sister so we can exchange phone cases if we want. Guess I was really obsessed with these cases as they were still sealed most of them as I only used three phone cases alternately and I am using the One Piece design right now.
I departed from the office at four in the afternoon and rode a jeep going to the highway as I decided to just wait for a bus on the highway than go to the terminal. Then I passed by a ngohiong express near the highway, as I was passing by I opted to just eat first before riding a bus as I haven't had lunch.
I was shocked that their prices sored really high, the siomai was now 16php, the squid roll was 27php at three pcs and the nhohiong is already 12php but the hungry me can't complain to them.
I was watching Kuroko's basketball while eating and I was having a little good time enjoying my food for it's been a long time that I ate in ngohiong express so I was savoring the moment then I forgot that the ride back home will take longer this time because of the traffic so I finished my food, drink my water and then went out to go the highway.
I hop on the bus at five and opted to sleep while on the bus, but because I was really full so I just scrolled my phone and read a manga. Isn't Giovanni too cute when he was being scolded lol!!
After an hour of being on the road, my nausea took effect on me and I am blaming myself for eating a lot before hopping on the bus. I felt my stomach go upside down every time that bus had humps and dumps. I was calming myself and preparing some extra precautions as I'm a person who really can't stand crowded places and buses even though I'm always using them as transportation.
I'm already eating candy when the bus came to a halt and stopped as there are a lot of passengers hopping in, which caused me to become more uncomfortable each moment. Imagine being squeezed on the window side as the passengers are piling up that some of the passengers we're standing holding those poles to support them on not falling.
I can't hold it anymore and I was holding the plastic I prepared in case of emergency. Relieve and embarrassed at the same time, the middle-aged man sitting beside me just tap on my back and offer me water at me to which I declined for I also have water with me and I just nod at him as a way of thanking him for the consideration. I closed the plastic as it was a ziplock style, thinking that it was only once but it happened again. My stomach felt like it was boiling and wanted to burst out. The second time and it's on my mask, huhuhuh. Glad I brought a lot of extra masks and wet wipes that I was able to clean myself but there were some of them on my shirt that I became a mess. I wanted to cry out of embarrassment but I just hold it in and chatted with the family group chat about what happened with a crying emojis.
Papz told me that he'll bring a jacket when he'll come to pick me up, I was just looking at the open window on my side wanting to hop down but the traffic was really bad. The moment I came off the bus, Papz was already in the terminal waiting for me with a jacket in his hands. I immediately put on the jacket to cover my shirt and hugged Papz, I really wanted to cry but Papz just told me that it's normal for I am really not a person who is fond of crowded people but was forced to since I need to go home, crying will not gonna help as it will only make me lost all my energy again.
I came home and took a quick shower and lay down in bed, all the things I brought were still on the floor but I just lay down first since I was really drained. Mum then called me to have some warm soup which it works a little but I was still tired. Glad my son just followed me and stay silent. He even took a warm bath on his own before going into bed with me, he's also the one who reminded me that we need to pray first before going to sleep (napahiya pa ko sa anak ko jusme!!)
I was planning on reading even two or three articles on my phone but my body and mind screamed sleep so I just turned off my phone and sleep next to my son and drifted to dreamland.
I apologized for being in your timeline this early in the morning.
Special thanks to madam @Bloghound for the renewal of love and sponsorship.
Thank you for reading!!
@mommykim
30-1 My little sanctuary..
**May 26, 2022**
When speaking of gratitude, I have a lot on my mind. It is a given that I am grateful to my parents as most children do. They are my source of life and me being one of their offspring is a blessing.
But the person that made me change my outlook in life and teach me everything is my son. I am just too glad to have him in my life. The love of my life, my happy pill, my sanctuary.
When he came to my life, I admit I was not prepared physically and emotionally. I was doubting myself if I can fulfill my duties as mother to him. But since it was my decision and I am desperately asking for it so I did all I can to be a mom to him.
**He changed me and I am thankful for that.**
A simple minded me always settles for what was given to me but when I was praying for a blessing my baby came. At first I was ignorant even though I saw mothers bearing child and having them on their tummy for nine months, I then ask myself " will this little penguin breath inside me?"
He came out just minutes after I lay my body on the delivery bed, I guess he's too excited to see me and breath out. lol!
Changing diapers, breastfeeding, sleepless nights,unemployed for months. I made it through because I am only thinking about him and him only.
Mum said you will never get to interpret my words until you experienced it and she's right, the happiness I felt when he came and the pain in me when he's sick is sometimes unbearable.
Before I am always thinking about on my needs and wants. Now, yes I am still buying things that I love but mostly I am buying stuffs for him and providing all his needs is my top priority. Securing his future is my ultimate goal.
My little penguin,
hey love, Mama's very thankful to you.
Now that you are growing faster I just want to tell you just do the things you love and Mama will be there to support and guide you always.
The world may be cruel to you because you are not given a complete family but know that I love you more enough to hid my selfishness in the near future for you to find the void in you and be whole.
Not thinking of it for the meantime but I know there will come a day that you will meet the person you're longing to see but for now, let Mama love you first, kay?
Thank you, for being my safe haven, I always feel the excitement every time I think of home for I know you and your warmth and comfort will welcome me.
Thank you for letting me see your smiles, those smile that saying you're thankful, and that you are loved.
I know I am not a perfect Mum and I sometimes show you my toughness, it's my way of disciplining you my love for you to know what's good and bad especially your behavior and habits. Me, being focused on my work sometimes that I'm neglecting you, I'm sorry for that. Mama sometimes need also some scolding for my negligence and I will solely accept the punishment for that.
Having you is a blessing and you complete me and I thank you for that.
Let me love you for life.
Love,
Mama
Yes!!!!!!!!!!!
This will be the first of the thirty days I will be making this challenge. Doing all of it in the span of thirty is undecided but will surely complete this. The reason that I decided to make this is because after my last article I can't lift my mood up. Even though I am smiling and laughing on my interactions here and in noise but the heartache I felt is still there. So I am doing this to shift my emotion into a happy one.
Thank you for reading!
@mommykim
Is there a message behind it?
**May 25, 2022**
Hello everyone,
Last Tuesday morning, a news was flashed saying there's a mass shooting that happened in Robb Elementary School in Uvalde, Texas.
**Twenty one** innocent people we're killed, nineteen children and two teachers as per the count of the authorities. KIDS, they we're just enjoying answering their papers on that day in their room but they became a target of that shooting.
And what's worst is that the gunman is only eighteen years old. This is just so heartbreaking. Some of his victims we're rushed to the hospital.
https://newsinfo.inquirer.net/files/2022/05/2022-05-25T024730Z_1_LYNXNPEI4O02R_RTROPTP_4_TEXAS-SHOOTING.jpg
Watching the news and the parents grieving over their little angels is just so painful. My mind also flew unto our home since the kids also have classes on Tuesday and would be off at noon. Just thinking that the kids are safe in the premises of the school ground turns out to be a nightmare on the parents with what happen.
*Do you know why it took long to release the names of the victims?*
*because parents were lining up to give DNA swabs to help identify the remains of their children because most of them were unrecognizable.*
*-from Twitter.*@Melanitaylor88 https://twitter.com/Melanitaylor88
These innocent people we're killed by a young man whom the authorities have never know by any means of reason why he did such thing. The gunman was also dead as per the news.
As the news stated, days before the shooting, the kid(gunman) even post his guns that he'll be using.
Just how much does the government tolerates this kind of things. Posting deadly weapons on social media like it's some piece of cake. He even posted a lot of them, I got goosebumps watching it. And before going to the school, he even shot his grandmother who is in critical situation now in the hospital.
**Is there a message behind it?**
*30th shooting at a K-12 school this year*
*Tuesday's incident marks at least the 30th shooting at a K-12 school in 2022. So far in 2022 there have been at least 39 shootings in K-12 schools, colleges and universities, resulting in at least 10 deaths and 51 injuries.*
Source https://edition.cnn.com/2022/05/24/us/uvalde-texas-elementary-school-shooting/index.html
We have been hearing news of mass shootings mostly in schools. But the government would always say that it's they parents whom are not guiding their kids more that they can do such horrible thing. Then I found this on Twitter
With the media today, we can't even tell whose telling the truth or if they we're just acting like it's not terrorism. Those incidents of shooting happened this year when it's only the fifth month, God forbids on what will happen until the end of the year.
If this is a message to the higher ups, may they take action on this so that no more innocent lives will be taken away because of the negligence of the people in authority.
Setting aside our religions, let us take a moment of silence and pray for those little angels that may they rest in Peace.
Thank you for reading.
@mommykim
When he got a hold on my phone
**May 24, 2022**
I always told this here or in some of my articles that I never let my son hold or use my phone when I'm not around to guide and watch him since I don't want him to be like other kids who gets angry when their phone was taken away from them. Good thing that the kids at home we're practiced to just use the phone after module or during weekends and since I'm at home so there's someone who can watch over them since Mum can't seem to control most of the times.
This son of mine can only access the camera app on my phone since it's locked and none of them(aside from my two sisters) knows my password.
While scrolling on my gallery earlier while waiting for my keys , I was laughing at how many stolen shots he had taken even though I am beside him. Well, I am at ease knowing that he can only access the camera app only. So scrolling and scrolling and then I thought why not feature it for today. I apologize in advance for my mind is not kinda active today for I was busy at work so I opted to use this for my article today.
First off, I was really laughing at this one. Me and my sister we're preparing for dinner and I already bathed him ahead so that after dinner he can already relax and went to bed. He was sitting inside Alex's(my niece) crib, glad it's big and fit for three people that they usually hang out there with the baby. And I noticed that I overdid putting baby powder on his neck lol!!
This was when I was called by Papz to watch the sea games in which the category is the weightlifting and we we're awed of how strong our representative is at the age of eighteen. Imagine lifting 130kg ? that's more than double our weight.
So while me and Papz we're talking , here's the young man taking his time capturing my pretty big belly and those big fatty arms..
You already know this, he can't miss capturing his favorite model. As my sister said while laughing "Kami na mag adjust dong" ( they will just adjust for my son) as he keep lowering the phone to capture Alex below, aigoooo this kid.
I didn't know Summer has such a beautiful eyes until my son captures it. She looks so beautiful here, no wonder my son adores her the most. I remember that I got a scratch because I accidentally hit her tail ,I was so pissed but when I look at Summer, viola my son was already hugging her afraid that I might smack his cat.
Him capturing my workplace was when I was taking a bath, See the messy working area in my room? That's why I need to rearrange it maybe by next week.
"Mama look this way and smile"
Easily persuaded I immediately smiled lol, well he is having a good time taking pictures so why not play with him right. At least he's not disturbing my while doing some works and he's also enjoying capturing everything around the corner of our room.
"Mama, again, smile with me" (uto uto ulit, palautos anak ko ah)
Can you see the similarities on our faces now? lol!!
I asked him then if he's enjoying it and he said yes. I even asked if we can record some and do a blog. He doesn't want to for he just love doing it when I'm around , well , I can't force him though hehe.
He even have some videos and literally I am just beside him hahah. Might post the videos on facebook so those friends I got here can see how hilarious he is doing videos. I just keep on laughing.
There's a part in the video where he's holding a mosquito racket but he's singing the Philippine National Anthem hahaahha.
Okay that would be all, I'm just sharing you the cause of my happiness today.
I was actually busy at work today as we got deadlines again, and I just finished at 12am lol!! So it ended that I need to do a 2-3 minute article again in a span of less than an hour since I'm really sleepy already.
Thank you for reading.
The beauty in you.
**May 23, 2022**
“**Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it.”(cr. from Facebook)**
As you start this week, may you build confidence differently and outshine your old self. Love yourself over anyone. Prioritize your feelings.
Do something you love. Read that book you've been keening to read. Take tome to savor those episodes that you marked as the most thrilling part of what you're reading. Eat those crunchy bite foods you saw on your timeline and put it in that little tummy of yours, a little cravings can't kill.
Go and start something wonderful. It is never not enough to not showcase that hidden talent you have so it's time to unleash it and shpw the world that you got what it takes
Be a better you, not in comparison to others, but a better version of yourself, from the inside out. There still room for improvement and every day taught you a lot of lessons that you can apply i your life
Surround yourself with positive vibes. In our world today where toxicity exits a lot, think of other thungs that can uplift your mode.
Live with what you’re given. Don't be greedy on something that you know ypu can't achive without sacrificing your own health and well being. God will alaways provide all the things you need in a goven time so learn to be patient and just wait.
Learn to see your beauty. Everyone is inique and special in the eyes of God. Even you mother sees the beauty in you.
Be yourself. Your personality is your most attractive accessory. Be kind, funny, passionate,intelligent. If you can't be intellligent then the be humurous, if you can't be passionate then use your ideas in a good way that you can benefit from it.
Be your own kind of beautiful. Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder anyway. An old saying yet still applicable to everyone.
So don't ever doubt yourself.
You are extravagant, amazing, and you are loved.
Love yourself the way you want it to be because no one will do it but you alone. Learn to dodge those killing judgement by your smile. Slain them with your intelligence. Triple kill those toxic people around you with achivement. Be a savage with a class so that they'll know that you're one tough lad. Be the MVP of your life. (ML version)
Sharing the words I want to say to myself for this week even though I don't have work today. I just want everyone to be inspired and enerfized to face this week. It will bw a tough game for the most but you just need to hold on and think that weekend is just around the corner,lol.
Early publishing this since there's no internet connection as of the moment and I'm just using my phone writing these so if you see some wrong grammar, my apologies for that. i'm not using grammarly on my phone.
And I am outside looking at the stars since the rain was done showering us and filling our basins with rainwater so the stars are having a feast in the sky.
The data connection can't be access in my room so that's why I'm here outside in a hammock looking at the beautiful night sky and Mum just hand me blanket to cover me and to protect me from mosquito bites.
Thank you for reading.
@mommykim
The pain of the parent
**May 22, 2022**
*If you're son/daughter made some mistakes that you didn't even take notice of, does that make you a bad parent. If they did some nasty things and you only found out recently, does that make you neglect your duties?*
Honestly, I was not planning to really publish for today as I made it to make today my rest day from everything since I became MIA or a day in noise as my Mum really did tell me face to face that I really don't have time with her.
So I neglect my phone for a while and face my Mum all day long. During breaks, or I may say she'll make me do an errand like cooking and taking care of the kids, I watched some videos and I caught some dramas where I saw that the mother is trying hard to convince her son to go back to school. I guess you remembered Tanging Ina's scene with Carlo A. and Ms. Ai. Then another video is when a father is doing all the labor just to support the studies of his children only to find out that the eldest daughter got pregnant at a minor age. The last one that made me cry was the scene in the drama "Liberation notes". The wife was complaining regarding of no day off since she became a mother and a wife. The only day she considered having days off was when she was going to church with her husband, then suddenly after a few days, she was found by the son dead in their room.
When you hear the word **Parent**, one thing would come to mind. It's a kind of job where you get no salary and you are working twenty-four hours a day seven days a week.
Single Parent, Mother/Father. This is their job., to take care of their children and work for their future, and to supply for all their needs.
As a parent, you can't complain about the responsibilities given to you for you made that child. You need to work hard to give them shelter, food and clothing, and the best education for them. You are also responsible for their future as you always want what's best for them
There is no perfect parent, they tend to make mistakes and sometimes they can hurt the children's emotions with such mistakes.
One of my friends is having a problem with her daughter who just got her first period just recently. The said kid made a fake acct and was entertaining a random stranger by saying their lovers. The worst part is they're sending pictures or n**des with each other. The father who was observing her found out what she was doing and received a beating. My friend looks all the chat history and they also made video calls and that's even worse imaging she's only thirteen.
The mother was asking her questions but she was also asking herself if she was lacking in taking care of her daughter which made her do such things.
As a parent, no matter how strict you are, or even if you're a control freak, children in this generation really can find ways to do what they want if they put their minds to it. I was once like that in my younger years but not to the point of having flings at a very young age. I'm really afraid of Papz when I was a kid.
So let me go back to the question stated above:
*If you're son/daughter made some mistakes that you didn't even take notice of, does that make you a bad parent. If they did some nasty things and you only found out recently, does that make you neglect your duties?*
People tend to make mistakes and mistakes make a person a better one. But I am not advising you, children, to be rebellious just for you to know what's good and bad. When a child makes a mistake and the parents were really blind you can't really call them bad parents. A parent is always learning something new every day, especially the flaws of the children, but because some of them tend to make secrets that made the parents not trustworthy at all.
For me, I can't blame all of the wrongs on the parents for what happened to their daughter. Technology nowadays made people especially the young ones became clever. They can easily make fake acct as their main was seen by the mother so she made a dummy acct and found a person whom she thinks is genuine unto her.
What I read and hear gives me a great lesson to watch out and be mindful of my son's behavior and how he acts every day but not stick my nose on his tantrums for they're really a handful.
Internet and these Freedom of Information thingy made some people throw hate at other people without doing a background checks. Good thing also that I'm not allowing the kids to hold the phone when I'm not around so I can see what they're watching.
If you watch 911 Lonestar and saw TK's story you'll really cry at how his mother saved him from distress and his addiction. Years later he found out that she had cancer and then after a couple of months he received a call saying his Mom died. That is just so heartbreaking for me as a mom.
Thank you for reading this nonsense dump article of mine. I just had a lot of bonding time with Mum and I am really inactive.
@mommykim
Earned $6+ in Noise for a day
**May 21, 2022**
Hello everyone, as always I'll be able to publish this article of mine at the usual time mostly at 1 am. It just became a habit that before I go to bed may it be at work or here at home I always publish before going to sleep. It is just like that. Like I am not accomplishing or completing my day without publishing it before lying down and having a rest.
So while my son is busy playing outdoors with his cousins and me watching them while tending to baby Alex and doing some cooking I get to cooperate on the anniversary on one of the channels in Noise. I once shared about the Blessing from a Noise Channel and today they/we are celebrating its one year in noise. https://read.cash/@mommykim/blessings-from-a-noise-channel-3be8d530
(I am the one assigned in cooking and tend the kiddos and the baby since my sister, the mother of my three nieces, came from a graveyard shift and is sleeping the whole day)
The giveaways on this channel made the members hilariously creative and funny at the same time. I kept laughing at our entries every time the moderators are doing some giveaways out of the blue.
During elections and Mother's day, they also give special giveaways. Mostly they're doing giveaways during the channel's monthsary and so today marks the 12th month all the members are quite excited about today's event and I am one of them.
Those captured above are the mini giveaways that I got time to join and received blessings from the moderators. Being one of the active members and also a member of the channel's TG group gives us the benefit to earn more than the accumulated prize.
Weeks before this day, the moderators announced they will be having a contest and that includes doing a video greeting with singing and dancing all in one video. Actually, I was hesitant at first then the moderators told us that if all the Telegram group members will make an entry we will have a reward. And since I don't want to be evicted from the group as I love interacting with the members there so I made an entry and sent it to the mods.
I was really doing my best singing this but all I think is that it's just for fun and since it's the anniversary so why not make an effort right. I even used a caliper as my mic on that video lol!!
The competition is on a like basis so the more likes you gain the more chances of winning. Plus points from the moderators if you did get creative with the video you made. Before announcing that the videos will be set to public on the youtube channel, the members of TG were having mixed emotions, some are nervous while the others are excited saying it was for fun and having a thick face once in a while is not bad.
On the first day of the viewing of entries got some problems like the moderators leaving the group because of some misunderstandings regarding the submission of entries that the others didn't make it on time and so on. We got sad for a moment and glad that after hours of convincing and forgiving, the tension was gone and we became happy again.
The contest ended earlier and I was ranked 8th out of the 24 entries that joined the contest. So my effort of being a thick face and feeling like a singer brings me to that spot.
I received $7 as being the 8th placer with a price of $5 and a special award of $2 dollar for joining the contest but the $2 dollars we're given on the day that the entries were set to public. So all in all I received more than $6+ today aside from the other tips from my other posts.
I was so thankful to all my friends who lend a hand in helping me gain more likes on my entry. I mostly gained a lot of likes from my friends here in read and noise than my friends on Facebook lol!! Well, I'm not that active in there or I am just active just to react and comment on the post of my friends here in read also that I get to interact outside this platform. All thanks to you guys and to your likes that I get in the 8th place and receive such a huge reward. It may be small to some but for me, $6+ can let me buy a 5kg sack of rice hehe hehe, and in the excess, I can buy treats for the kids.
Thank you for reading.
*(Nahihiya na talaga ako ohemgeeeeee. Sobrang kakapalan nang mukha talaga ginawa ko dun pero nag enjoy pa din ako at nakasali ako.)*
@mommykim
