Monday Blues and some questions.

August 08, 2022

This was taken earlier when I was waiting for jeep that would take me to my workplace.

All I want for the whole day is to lie down and sleep. I don't even want to move my pen and I am also too tired to go out and look for food.

Yeah, some Monday Blues Papz and I have the same dilemma whenever Monday comes. Good thing for Papz as he's free to attend work anytime he wants but for me it's not. I need to wake up early and prepare as at exactly eight I need to get moving with work stuff.

Mum even notice it as I always call after work and earlier I let her call me as I was lying down on the sofa already and as usual the earful of my great Mum is a must about not eating dinner on time and not washing up first before sleeping etc, etc. lol!!!! Being told is what I always get from time to time and I'm kinda used to it as it's her nature I guess.

Mum also sent me this, look how adorable Papz while cuddling my niece, really they are inseparable. Whenever Papz would go to work he needs to go while my niece is still asleep as she will cry hard if she knows that Papz was not around heeheh. With the weather in our area, Papz seems to not be continuing the work so he has more time with my niece. This is what I always missed at home, the bonding and the happy moments with my family.

I've been scramming a lot lately too. I always told myself not to think of the negative things that might affect me and now it seems like I am drowning in that area too hahahah. A friend of mine even told me that I am gradually skipping away from them as they can't even get in touch with me. Laziness overflow within me that even a single "hi" "hello" is a hassle. Yeah that's the state I am today. I don't intend to be notice too and whenever people ask me how I am I would bluntly say I'm fine as I am not dying yet.

Ugh these emotions, I kept on killing it inside but it seems that it took a liking to my brain and loves it's taste and slowly eating it all. Zombie?? aahahahaha

Being gloomy sometimes makes me feel like crying so I switch into listening to some mellow songs. Then when it's Moira's turns to sing ugh my tears overflow. Is this some wild genes living in me that makes me feel like this? ugh I don't even know anymore, I've been slacking off and it seems like I'm getting nowhere anymore.

Sumimasem, I just had a gloomy day today

Thank you

@mommykim