At this time, I miss him

October 06, 2021

Hmmmmmmmmmmm

I know my babies will bug and checks my butt on the heading itself. They want to get back at me for pissing them sometimes lol!

But seriously, in times like this when I'm exhausted and drained from work, I kinda miss him.

the who??????

Guess who???

Well, I do miss KAI and my fangirling hobbies. These days I'm kinda busy that I don't have time to be head over heels on him. The fandom squad has a lot of messages from me that I can't reply for I can't spare time with them. Mianhae chinggus...Noona is on the edge these days. I also forgot that Chen's birthday was last September and Lay's birthday is coming aigooooooooo. The group keeps giving me a heads up on the upcoming cup sleeve event but I can't seem to spare the time on those days. And also Chanyeol and Xiumin having joined on a musical,, aigoooo just found out this day when a baby exol messaged me about the news. Just how much did I miss. They kept saying that I changed a lot and that I don't have time for them. Well, that is really true.

Ever since we got this big project of ours that we're currently handling, I spent most of my time carrying the tasks given to me. And being in charge of most queries sometimes takes up my time.

I am planning to make up for them when the project stabilized in a few weeks and maybe, just maybe, I can make time for them. aigoooooo!

Aside from KAI, I also miss our son, lol!, I miss my son, my Timothy, these days he's busy with his modules, and whenever I call home he keeps bragging about his papers with lots of stars in them, courtesy of their strict teacher (Mum). And I think he's enjoying the thought of learning a lot of things each day with their activities that he rarely cries at night saying he misses me. Awwwwww he's a big boy now. And I might have a grandchild on his youth (chorrrrrrrrrrrrrrr). I want to hug him right now and tell him the Mama is struggling to make ends meet. But I don't want to worry him and also the fam so I just smile and said I'm fine. amalayerrrrrrrr!

I also miss Papz, I miss his stories and the action-filled catch-up on the MMA's fight he's currently watching. I don't know all the names he mentioned but when talking about those martial arts competitions he became animated and with such actions on how the opponent tap down the other, etc. aigooooo I also miss his crack jokes that sometimes I am really loading in understanding at first but when I get the joke they toned down from laughing already, lol!

And,

Yes, I admit I miss him, even though he's gone now but I really do miss him. The comfort he gave me and the humor he makes to make my mood lighter is just superb. A chat from me saying I'm bored and he'll send me lots of his wacky faces and all dad jokes he knew from his grandpa. He sends me pictures of him cross-dressing and having that sexy Madeline look, gosh.

Who? He's my gay best friend way back to the years when I haven't had Timothy. We were inseparable with Mahal but when he knew I was pregnant, he stops contacting me or us. He flies to Miami a month after the news of me having a baby. And until now he hadn't contacted us, his friends.

He's the reason I respected and support the LGBTQ community. But now I can't find him anymore.

Sorry, I was just exhausted at work, I thought my energy from Monday would not subside but I guess I have drained already.

Goodnight lovely people

Rusty's back also so time to celebrate!

And BCH is pumping!

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Keep safe & God Bless!

Fin!