The Man Behind The Computer Screen
From the moment I am writing this, you are behind the computer screen. I messaged you, asking for your permission; “Can I call you?”, But you refused, telling me that you’re currently having a problem with your flash drive. After that, I left your message unseen. I will leave you for a while letting you figure out things. For a while, I will seize this opportunity to focus on the article I am writing.
We met almost 6 months ago. From an online chatting platform to Telegram and finally to our main Facebook account. I never thought that we would reach that point in our journey. I thought you were another temporary person that will teach me a life lesson and will make my heart numb for the next few weeks or months or even years. To be honest, I am scared and overwhelmed during those times because I am not yet ready to take responsibility. I also doubt your intention; is it pure or not? I have been holding that uncertainty for months. Sounds stupid for some but I trusted my gut that you're different from others.
Is it possible to fall in love with a boy behind a computer? If possible, will it work? That’s the question lingering in my mind. Every time we fight, I am reaching an end that maybe I am correct; it is impossible to love a boy behind a computer screen. But on the other hand, I am thinking that I might be wrong. Fortunately, we never give up on each other. We learned from each other's conflict and grew from it.
I took a short break from writing. My mother called me to eat dinner. I am a bit annoyed since I want to finish this article but I remember that you will be mad at me when I eat late.
While eating I am thinking about you, what you're doing right now. I bet you noticed that I am ignoring your message most of the time. I apologize for that hahaha.
After finishing what was on my plate, I immediately went back to my computer to tell you that I have already finished eating. I asked if I could call you again, you agree. Upon seeing your face on my mobile screen, I felt delighted; butterflies on my stomach. You immediately lift my mood. I fell in love again.
Minutes later, we decided to temporarily end the call since it's still a hassle to call during these hours; someone might see us. I understand. Aside, I am still writing my article.
The Valentines had passed and we were still together. I am still in love with the boy behind the computer screen. I still can't believe that we are getting better and stronger every day. I am already curious about what gonna happen next; what will be our future? Will our family accept both of us? Will homophobia still be relevant? Can we finally flaunt our relationship without thinking that someone might judge us? Can we finally meet?
I was interrupted when my father arrived at our home. I lost my focus and eagerness to write. I check the clock, it's already 11 pm and I need to wash the dishes. Since I am already out of focus and midnight is nearing, I already finished the things that need to be done.
In just 30 minutes, I am able to accomplish what I need to do. I prepared my little gift for you. I hope in the time you’re reading this, you appreciated it. It's not that aesthetically pleasing (my face is not that gwapo on that video) but I am proud that I put an effort and spend some time on doing that. Tsaka nalang siguro yung totoong gift pag nabawi ko na yung loss ko sa trade hahaha.
By 11:50 pm, I am already laying on my bed. I am just waiting for the clock to turn 12 am. This is your special day and it's a sin if I will forget.
Happy Birthday, Clarence! *insert sweet message*.
For the duration of our conversation, I knew that there was something off. I knew you very well. But I understand; maybe you’re just drained because of your trip earlier. No problem at all, your feelings are valid.
Just woke up and you greeted me good morning. I can feel that your mood is better than yesterday. I am correct that you just needed rest. You also like my gift. Sinabi mo kinikilig ka hahaha. I am glad that you appreciated it. Your happiness is also my happiness. Feel ko magkakonektado lang tayo. Ganun siguro pag nakagawa na kayo ng connection with each other.
I will end this article here. I am sorry if the overall article is chaotic. Pagpasensyahan mo na at ganun talaga ako mag express ng thought. Happy birthday ulit! Enjoy your day with family and friends. I am just here over the computer screen :))
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Yieee.. Sometimes talaga parang portal ang mga gadgets papunta sa ating mahal..hihi. Congrats bro for finding the one..Don't mind the chirping of the birds around you ...