This Message Starts To Trigger My Insecurities

If you thought that this message is just normal, then I will directly state to you that it is not.

Did you ever felt bad to yourself since you are usually getting compared to others even though they already knew the principle of different abilities?

As I said repetitively on my previous post, I prefer to mind and enjoy my own world and I can declare to myself that I'm one of the certified introvert human being. A while ago, I didn't join my mother together with my siblings when they went to my grandmother's house since I don't want to get compliments towards my acquaintances. Personally, I was only minding or manipulating my own world, and I don't care about what will they say since we all knew that we have different advantages in life that we should obtain.

When my mother and my cousins are talking, my twin cousins couldn't help but to disentangle all the resentment that they feel around their necks when they told that were the only one who fetch the water last time that there were a water interruption instead of us. That statement sting into my heart, I have been known it from the first place that I was not right, but why I didn't make some move or to do something?

Honestly, I already thought that in the first place, but why does my other cousin which is the owner of that house doesn't help the identical twins? Should I also help them? If you were curious, I wrote it during ten in the evening and the river of thoughts is still flowing on its viscosity. Conversely, if you thought that I'm jealous on what they are doing, then it's not what you are thinking is. We have own perspectives in life though.

Relentlessly, my relatives are always blaberring this kind of compliments around me;

“Bakit hindi mo gayahin sila kambal? Ang sisipag, ikaw lumba lumba saka madiskarte sila.”

“Hindi lang naman puro talino. Kailangan marunong ka rin makipag-socialize...”

“Tignan mo nga si An***, ang porma niya at nasa kaniya na ang lahat”

Supposedly, I already received that series of comments indirectly and I just want to ironically tell them that I have my own flaws and strengths. Unfortunately, I couldn't tell it since I still want to maintain or preserve my priority asset which is called respect.

Well, let me answer their compliments sincerely. I hope this issue will be only exposed in BCH world.

Compliment #1: “Bakit hindi mo gayahin sila kambal? Ang sisipag, ikaw lumba lumba saka madiskarte sila.”

My Reply: So it means that being industrious in the face of your relatives signify that you can be successful in life? Oh well, that's a low class mindset. Did you know why Henry Cy comes from rag-to-riches? To answer that question, they apparently use their brains and not only their backbones.

Compliment #2: “Hindi lang naman puro talino. Kailangan marunong ka rin makipag-socialize...”

My Reply: So what I'm doing right now? Is social media like noise.cash and read.cash doesn't apply the term socializing in my virtual life? If I were not talkative virtually, do you think that I can earn of more than one BCH?

Compliment #3: “Tignan mo nga si An***, ang porma niya at nasa kaniya na ang lahat”

My Reply: Sorry if I'm not rich and my parents are not kinda smart just like his parents. Sorry if I born ugly, and sorry if I don't like to groom myself.

As I was typing it, I realized that I should replace my opinions towards myself and they are just implying the things that they want to improve for me, but I'm still the one who will decide on what will I choose in life. Since my sloth sibling doesn't know the word CHANGE, maybe I should be the only one who will adjust so I can build our own reputation.

On the other hand, my mother and my auntie are having a resentment and huffs around both of them, but I'm just only punching to the moon if I will wish that they will be in good terms. Likewise, I just want to tell my mother's wrong doings because I want to make her sorry about that. Unfortunately, she doesn't know how to use the word sorry and she will scold me if ever I will impart that.

This unforgettable experience eventually change my perspective, goals, and lifestyle, and thank you my beloved aunts who prosper me to accomplish these goals.

1) learn basic fundamentals of cryptocurrencies

Tomorrow, I will fix my schedule for my flexible class on crypto world through YouTube tutorials about how to trade, tips how to do investment, or even read your articles how to do my own research. If I can learn it, maybe I can now go to future trading and staking. Personally, I want to understand the purposes of candlesticks, margins, projects, or any other components which I can apply in trading. I hope I can do it lols.

2) lose weight

This is what I'm working right now. Likewise, I already settled a plan on how will I lose my weight, and I just need to have a discipline and take care of myself since it's my capital why I'm earning profit. Beforehand, I have been lose weight when I was Grade 7 and I will primarily do those goals so I can burn more calories.

Specifically, my plan each day is to walk briskly every morning with my dog, increase my food intake every breakfast and diminish my calories every dinner, and do household chores regularly.

3) set an appointment to my dermatologist if I reached 1 BCH

I'm almost on my 1 BCH goal and I just want to acknowledge my readers especially the bot why I'm here in my milestone, and that's because of you. My original goal is to buy a set of rejuvenating set, but my concerned friend on noise doesn't recommend it, and I'm seasonally occurring rashes throughout my skin so I guess it's a great choice though.

noise.cash: https://noise.cash/u/boringwriter

BCH DAILY COUNT

07/07/21: 0.55830486

07/08/21: 0.57084308 (+0.01253822)

07/09/21: 0.58108027 (+0.01023719)

Let's make my BCH into one!