It's Hard To Push Ourselves In Something Impossible

I missed writing an article the last time I was writing this. Not to be proud that my productivity is declining because of my poor time management. Since my schedules are getting loaded, I decided to delete my exercise activities, particularly Yoga. It's just an additional agenda on my plate, so I would rather throw it on my list. Moreover, I hid my phone in my drawer, and I'll just use my smartwatch if I ever want to change the songs playing on my speaker.

In terms of changing my schedules for my adjustment, I can attest that it is possible. You can adjust if something hurdles in your plan to reduce your workload. For instance, if you are spending much time on social media, you can reduce your distractions or remove them permanently. Distractions can be changed, and your goals can be reconstructed. However, with regard for the decisions of others, it is something you cannot be changed.

A month ago, I told in my last blog that I was not qualified to enter the state university I wanted to admit. This is due to my poor grades since I was in Junior High School. My grades just bloomed when I was in the last half of my third year days until I finished SHS. Sad to say, but I didn't make it to be their first-year student. I don't know how often I shared this with you, though.

Since I failed and will be having difficulty paying our tuition fee if I enroll in private school, my mother is asking me if there's still a way to register. It's hard to push ourselves into something impossible, so I just said no. But yes, I did some research on how I can still be qualified, and I found these solutions:

• Filing Letter of Reconsideration

• Transferring after the first year

I also thought I would be on the waiting list, but I'm poor and might look crazy even though there's no hope in my condition. According to my research, it is confirmed that I can't enter that school even just entering the waiting list. This course and the university are just not for me. My mother had already interrogated our relatives who have a connection with the university. Still, those connections stated that they couldn't do anything about it. The decision will be based according to the choices of the dean. I had already lost my hope, so that's the reason I reshaped my plans.

In the crypto world, I started to write on PeakD to expand my blogging journey. I was dazzled to join since the upvotes they're receiving, and I want to experience that too. Who wouldn't be? Having earnings from your blog is a form of happiness and satisfaction that you are appreciated. While reading their articles here, I frequently saw the OCD in curated posts. I'm unfamiliar with this matter, so sorry if I said something wrong.

Of course, I read some things about how to get attention from him. They said you'll get his attention if you publish on the communities he's visiting. I tried to ask our group chat in his onboarded folks about that OCD. Sorry if I don't want to mention you, but someone who delegated my HP mentioned that they plan to nominate me. Unfortunately, he said I can't get through it since I already made my introduction before when the hype in this community isn't yet diving in. I just reintroduced myself as I wanted to correct that mistake, and it seems like I did the wrong thing.

Trying to cool the situation, I told him it was just okay since I could still earn from other curators even if it was only less than the others. However, in reality, I was in sorrow since I would not make that much compared to others. When they are enjoying their perks because they're appreciated, but you can't do it as you did something terrible. My only choice to earn more audience in my posts is to get out in my comfort zone. I don't want my heart to be filled with insecurities, so I'll just focus on my masterpiece. Thanks to him, I would not constantly hope for something I know is impossible.

In life, we shall accept the reality even if it's painful on our part. It's because the impossible can't be possible, and the only thing we can do is to dig into more opportunities we can use to advance on our situation. All of us are experiencing issues in this world. And, I believe that all of us have an opportunity to grab, even if it is big or small. It's about how you'll use it and be dedicated to being the best version of yourself.

Thank you for reading. It is why I can't be active in PeakD as I was trying to analyze whether I'm suitable to write on that platform or not, aside from my excuses for being lazy. As usual, life still continues as achievement is not offered as taken for granted. I don't have a plan in doing cross-posting just to be desperate for their attention, though. That's why if I didn't publish on that platform, it means that I'm just overwhelmed with my plates. I'm also doing my best in my college days, especially since we're entering classes twice a week. Suppose I passed and exceeded my expectation. In that case, I could silently prove to the university that rejected me that I could work more than their expectations because of my grades.