Are you also often envious of those individuals who have multiple talents, and you suddenly thought to your inner part that you don't have any? If you are also having some negative dilemmas like I said on the first sentence, then we are on the same shoes.
Every time I'll look on my acquaintances who is brilliant, handsome, friendly, good-looking, and talented, I couldn't help but to feel humiliated on my existence here in this world. I'm aware that I have many flaws on my body which I'm presently changing, and I have some talents that I need to improve since it is one of my assets. However, I still feel useless.
Then out of the sudden, I came up with this topic when I don't have anything to write, and I already wasted three pages on my notebook just to construct this blog. Yes, you heard it right. I don't know exactly when I wrote it, but I know that it's already over a week in my notebook. Let's not take this epic intro longer as I should, and let's get started.
So, what are talents that I want to do, but I'm not that good at it?
1) Drawing. When I was Kindergarten, my mother was surprisingly gave me a sketchpad after she came home, but I don't have an idea how to use it. Even I was still innocent and my mind and I have still a wide imagination, I just came up with the reality that it is not in my niche. It's literally hard to urge yourself that you can do it for your benefit. There has an anonymous quote that you can do what you all wanted to be as far that you are passionate about it. In my case, I'm not seeing myself as an artist. Although my teachers has been occasionally ordered us to do posters and other related drawing activities, my fingers just can't be. In fact, my grade evaluation at my sketch works oftentimes is usually peaking from that half, and I'm pitying myself upon that.
2) Handwriting. As you saw on the photo below, that's how my handwriting looks like in reality. That is my plain and ordinary penmanship, anyway. If you comprehend some of the words that I have been noted, you can imply that I have a bad handwriting. though my handwriting is improving, I can't still guarantee that it's good. When I was in Grade 2, my teacher humiliated me that my writing is like kinahig na namok. Due to that, the majority of my classmates laughed. Currently, I'm already Grade 12, and it's already a decade since it was happened. Therefore, we should now burden that embarrassing event for good.
3) Dancing and singing. Personally, I love to watch random songs and dance practices on YouTube, but it's not actually at the cup of my tea. I can still remember the time when I was confident on this matter due to my innocence, even I'm not that precisely talented. I'm also frequently missing the beats and steps every time I'm dancing, and Furthermore, I'm also aware that I'm not talented in singing. If I were not mistaken, I was recording my voice in the voice recorder in my tablet. And then, I almost broke my pad after I hear my disgusting voice. Never again, lol.
4) Confidence. Do I really need to speak about it? My speaking ability is always stuttering, and I'm also not good-looking, which swaying me to lower my self-esteem. Aside from that, I'm also having anxieties in every reporting because of those mentioned struggles. Gladly, I found this platform where I can speak in freedom without stuttering. I can also interact even virtually, and I can feel that I still have friends. Hoping that I can change my physical attributes naturally, so I can be finally gain my confidence. Do you think that it is possible?
If I were given to have at least four talents that I wish I could have, I'll pick them all. What about yours?
When does a person start to get jealous? The moment when he finds out that someone else has something he can only dream of now. Write a list of goals and start walking towards them. Every time you reach one of them, you will feel better and more confident.