I Leaved Without Committing Regrets

Why would I settle for less if there's a good opportunity waiting for me? Why would I settle to an earning opportunity which slowly killing me everytime? Why would I still fit in that guild if it seems like they are just waiting for me to withdraw? And lastly, why would I settle to the guild which is not worth it to stay anymore? These are the questions flashed on my brain when I examined if playing Axie Infinity is still worth it on my time.

In my noise.cash and Discord accounts, I shared how do I eager to die every time I'm lose streak. After doing an activity related to school, I will undoubtedly play it. Since I began to be a scholar, my main priority is how do I meet my quota. However, instead of being happy, playing that game ruins my mood which leads me to unproductivity.

Playing Axie in my existence is not the way do I met him before. It's been a few weeks since I'm stressing myself just to meet my daily quota, and it affects my mental health too much. As I recalled all the happenings why I need to go on this point, I admit that it is also my fault. Well, I think that we are not yet in the exciting part.

In the first couple of months of playing, I'm getting frequent wins. Even it gives me stress sometimes, I can't deny that it is one of my sources of entertainment. Although I'm not skilled compared to leader board players, I'm proud to tell that I able to reach this team to 1800+ MMR. I wish that it would happen again, lol.

Then the day I had an eye infection, that is the time where I get frustrated. I can't handle all the stress anymore, so I decided to contact Gramps to file my resignation later. It is one of the toughest decisions I have made, but for me it is the best decision I did. Here is the resignation later I made in straight two hours. I deleted some of the parts which I know I should not show in public. Sorry in advance.

Foremost, I would like to thank you for forming the best and high-paying guild I experienced. I think that this will be the first and last guild that I would join. You are too considerate in everything, and I do like how you care about us as your scholars. Despite facing ups and downs in crypto market, you are still aiming your best to provide other P2E games which might help us in our daily life. Being included with your set of scholars is already a big honor for me. However, due to personal struggles, I think that leaving as a player is one of the saddest but the best thing that I would ever do.

Thank you for this guild because it taught me how to be patient to earn a slot on being a scholar. It took me a month until I get nominated, but I failed the examination. I admit that I'm not yet knowledgeable in Axie back then, though. After a week of failure, I thought that I will get the chance na, but I failed to be nominated. I admit that I was annoyed, and I even resented Coach for not fulfilling his promises (I forgot if he promised something, lol). But after 50 days, I finally get in. With this journey, I learned that everything needs long patience until you get to the dreams you desired.

In the first week, I admit that I don't know how to use my Axies. I even reached 990 MMR due to my stupidity. They also referred me to ask some help to the reservation room, but no one mentioned me to offer some help. As usual, just learned few techniques on YouTube until I mastered my team against the common teams like AAP, ABP, and other teams I can counter. So far, my highest MMR using DDP is 1856, and I would not get it without you and Coach Nazko.

About Pegaxy, no one could contain my happiness when Coach chosen me on third batch. And I just like, “Oh my god! I will be rich immediately. I can finally buy my foldable laptop! “ Likewise, you didn't hesitate me to select me to race when I was active among many scholars waiting for their turn. I also feel fluttered when you mentioned me on having good contribution from the guild. As far as I wanted to race Gramps, I expected too much, and it feels like they gave me false expectation. I just hurt, and I'm still holding my 20k plus VIS.

Anyway, sorry for making a such long conversation. In the past few days, I'm much drained with everything. I'm currently a graduating senior high student, and I'm having difficulty on accomplishing my schedules daily.

After I get sicked, and I decided to come back after three days of recovery, I admit that it becomes my worst nightmare. Coach Nazko gave me another chance to play my Axie, but it gets downgraded. I was asking myself if it is a consequence of being complainer. I couldn't even sleep since I'm too occupied, how I would adjust.

Time flies so fast, and I'm in a month playing with resentments. I also thought that I would get the 40 energies as the Coach promised, but he gave it to others. Maybe it is the effect of being too much complaining on anything.

It seems like I'm just playing it to give myself bunches of stress. Every time I play, I'm always lose streak since I couldn't adjust to the teams that I can beat before. I don't know what happened to me, Gramps. It feels like the destiny is giving me a sign to be focused on other aspects.

I don't want to cry anymore. I don't want to be bothered anymore. I don't want to throw my phone on my bed when I am losing. I like to give up, even there has a part of me that I can still do this.

Thank you for everything. I hope that this would be not our first and last conversation. Signing off as your scholar. Anyway, my real name is Charles.

As you see in the bold statement, I want to be free from stress. I just can't explain to him directly that the price of SLP is one of my main reasons why did I leave, but I think he got it right.

So far, I deleted my Axie Infinity and Discord account to finally end this short journey. I already made a formal letter to him naman, so I don't need to be bothered about. Thanks for reading.