Me through the years!

November 23, 2021

I wanted to do the "How hard did life hit you challenge"- a trending challenge based on Facebook but I decided to use a different title.

Warning: There will be lots of selfies, my friends, so beware.

And each photo speaks a thousand words (I couldn't write a thousand though because it will take me a while) because I have gone through different phases of my life on each one. Some were sad, some were happy.

Let's start.

The dreamer

When I went to Manila after graduating, I was full of hopes and dreams- that I would be able to support my parents and pay them back. I wanted them to live a comfortable life and enjoy their remaining days. I dreamt of supporting my family the way my idol, Mommy Glo did so we could have better lives. I was a workaholic, rendering overtime despite my rest days. And I learned to value my health after being sick and broke buying the medicine. But I still pushed to dream for my family. Then I met a wonderful guy and had a good few months with him. It was a long, distant, relationship. He was about to propose before we broke up. Life can be surprising, true or true? And I learned that no matter how uncomfortable our situations are, it will always change for change is the only constant thing in life.

The heartbroken

Haha, sorry if I am so GGSS or Gandang Ganda Sa Sarili (Narcissistic). I took a selfie to validate that I think I look beautiful in my own way. And I respect that we agree to disagree my friends. I've gone through a lot in this picture. I just found out that my boyfriend was cheating on me, aside from the fact that he has 2 kids with someone else and they were living together. I was trying to pull myself up. I did, with the help of my close friends. I learned that having great friends is a blessing. They kept me sane amidst my crazy life.

The friend

Earl is my soul mate, I believe. We have the same sentiments and likes in life. But he liked men. He had a very sad love story so spare him of your judgment and I hope you aren't really judging him. I am a friend to this wonderful person. He kept me sane throughout my stay in Makati. He was always supportive of me. I considered him as one of my best friends. And I wish we could be friends forever. Because I wanna be there for him in every way. We are no longer talking right now and I hope he still thinks of me as a friend.

The game-changer

I was in the epitome of my youth, lol during this time. I was really having the time of my life! I loved my job, my friends, I was socializing, and I have been traveling locally. This picture was taken during a friend's wedding in Bataan. The best year for me was between 2011-2013, and this one's in 2013. After this, I went on a vacation with my grandmother in Bulacan. She came from California and we had a good time catching up. We went out for dinner and other stuff almost every day, I never thought that it's really tiring to be invited by different people lol. And I met rich people and I felt awkward. Then my grandma planned to petition me so I could go to the USA and help our family when I have a stable career. I never felt so excited and privileged in my life!

The expectant

But then, tada! I got pregnant! To be honest, I was advised to get rid of the baby because of the plans my relatives had for me but I decided to keep my baby and be a single mom. I didn't want to have a troubled life with my ex. And I am proud that I did my best in raising my child, it might not be the best on what others think but I know I did. I went through hell and back for my child. She's now 7 and she's so smart and wonderful. I've been through a lot in life, nothing I can handle especially when I become a mom.

The believer

When Bam was 5 months, I sent her to Mindanao to live with her cousins. So my mama and my nephews took care of her. It was so difficult at first, but I had to do it so we could survive. I stayed here in Manila and lived with my college friend. I started again and believed that I could do it. I was able to find a new, better-paying job and supported my child and my mama. It was not an easy phase but I trusted that God will be there for me every step of the way, He will give me strength, and the courage to go on. I had a misunderstanding with that friend I lived with and we ended the friendship. I realized that we have to let go of some people in our lives if the relationship is becoming too unhealthy and invasive of our personal space. I did ask for forgiveness a few years after that incident. It wasn't because I was at fault, because I wanted to make peace with my past.

The optimist

I mentioned an incident with an ex-friend. There was some trouble that fateful night and she wasn't there when I was harassed. I needed to get out before I get hurt and a taxi driver became my angel. He safely drove me to a friend's house who offered me to stay for free until I find my own room. And my old friends came to the rescue. I was able to transfer to my new boarding house in Makati near my first boarding house. I was happy because I got to see my old friends again. I realized that change can happen drastically, it might not be how we wanted it to be, but it can be a blessing in disguise. I was positive that the world has smiled on me again and my life has changed for the better!

The risk-taker

Heartbreak after heartbreak, pain after pain, I endured them all. Life can sometimes be tumultuous but we gotta ride on the waves of challenges and sail to the kind of life, the quality of life we want and that is a smooth-sailing life. We gotta take the risk, otherwise, we will have the if's and but's in our minds forever.

I took the risk, the chance of having this relationship I have right now. I know what I want and I know where I wanna go. I shall see if the co-captain has the same vision as well or else, the boat will sink. For now, I am thinking of grabbing my lifeboat but I am not at the point yet of shouting SOS lol. I shall do whatever I can in my power to steer this boat in the right direction.

Shall I post my latest pic? I decided not to so you won't be disappointed haha. I lost my self-confidence but I gained weight. I will leave it up to you how I look in your imagination.

So, my friends, that was me through the years.

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Too-da-loo,

Glessa

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