Which Door To Open

If you were given a few doors to choose from, how would you know which door's for you? How would you know that it's the best choice?

We celebrated our Virtual Valentine's Day party awhile ago, it's the reason why I was wearing red. My students were talking about the gifts they've received from their parents as a Valentine Gift. Some received some flowers, some were chocolates, some were stuffed toys. What had gotten my attention is the answer of one of my active students, she said 'My parents gave me a 3rd sibling'. LOL!

Our coordinator messaged me to see him after my class. To be honest, I was really nervous even though our coordinator is one of my friends, receiving that kind of message, without context, really makes me anxious. I started to think of what I've done wrong in the past few days but I couldn't think of any. I was about to enter his office when I saw my friend, a colleague as well, who was about to enter the office too! We knew we were both called by our coordinator. The assumptions didn't stop, we thought that the reason we were called is to host another event or they needed help for a certain task.

Anxious, we head onto our coordinator's office. Just what we've guessed, we were called to be the masters of the ceremony for the upcoming graduation. Sigh. We thought we were about to reprimand.

Suddenly, our coordinator opened another topic. They were offering a higher position for me and my friend. Honestly, I didn't know what to feel. I was about to leave at the end of the year and apply to another job that pays more but with the same nature. I've been thinking if I'd still pursue applying for the other job or just stay here with a higher position.

How do you know that it's time for you to take the opportunity? One of my biggest fears in life is to regret something. I'm scared that if I'll decline the offer for a higher position, I might regret it in the future. Same goes with the other job, if I'll not leave now, I might regret staying.

My mind is still confused and I've been asking for His guidance since I've heard the news. I went to Manila to process the needed documents for the other job I've been considering. The travel time is longer than the processing time of the documents I need and as I travel, I couldn't help but think of the possibilities if I'll accept the offer or not.

I know the time will come when I need to decide which of those doors am I going to open and I really hope that it'll be the door that will make me happy and satisfied. I guess I should live up to what decision I will make to avoid regrets in life. But could we really avoid having 'what ifs'? Maybe. Maybe not.

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Til my next life update and musings🥰