Org, another org, and the puppies

I thought I'll be really productive this month but I found myself being a mushroom again. I'll show up, I'll vanish, I'll show up again, I'll vanish again. It's becoming a cycle already. LOL

I counted the number of articles I wrote and so far, this is the 13th for this month. It's not bad at all, I guess. It's just that I was like on a winning streak for publishing for consecutive days 2 weeks ago and then just like that, the streak was broken. And here are the reasons why.

Student Organization

Well, it's not a secret that I am quite active when it comes to school activities. So, there's this student organization where I applied. I was an applicant for almost a year, that's just so crazy but that made me even more dedicated to the org.

Since we started another semester again, our org activities also started. Apparently, I am part of the technical team so I am part of almost all activities because I am in charge of controlling the zoom meetings where we held our activities. Actually, it is not that much but there's this orgmate who really tested my patience. LOL

If you were able to read my article "how patient are you?", she's the one that I am pertaining to. I am part of the technical team yet I did some works that should be for the art team in such a short notice.

Though the activity we recently had was a success, the preparation was a real mess and I am not the only one who has the same thoughts about it. We had a reflection meeting last week and all the mistakes was pointed out.

And that girl who tested my patience, happily received all the praises from the event but when all the mistakes are being pointed out, she tried putting the blame on us who just helped her and should not supposed to be part of the activity. The audacity! LOL

Still, I learned a lot on that reflection meeting. I know better than to get mad or whatever. We're in the same org, we're like family, if she ever do the same in the future, I'll make sure to tell it to her so that she can do something about it.

Moving on, we have another event coming and I'll be the main technical this time. The platform that we're going to use is streamyard, I am already familiar with it but I haven't tried being the main technical for it so it's another thing for me to study. Lol.

Another Organization

Really, I also cannot get myself for considering to apply to another organization. Is the workload from the first organization not enough? LOL

But this one is different since it is a ministry based organization. And more to that, it is a student organization from our very own church and my sister who is also my cell/spiritual leader has planted it on my mind to apply to that org before I even start college. LOL

And now that they are open for recruitment, she told me again to apply. I don't have the word yet (from my devotion) but I have her encouragement. The first organization process was really tough, I don't know how this one will go. I just found my name on the list of aspirants so let's just see whether I'll make it or not.

I really don't know what's waiting for me this time but this could be my ladder to step up and be more spiritually matured.

I don't think I'm ready yet but I guess, there's no perfect time for it other than right now. I just have to pray for it.

Puppies

And here's another reason for my inactivity.

I already shared it a lot of times but just for the quick version, here's a little back story. So, our dog gave birth unexpectedly to 4 cute puppies. We already have 3 dogs at home and taking care of them all would be too much so my brother already told us on advance that we'll have to put the puppies on adoption as soon as they can survive without their mother's milk. And that time has come.

Just this Monday, the first puppy was given away. Tuesday, I had to let go to another puppy. I was given a break on Wednesday but this Thursday, one puppy has to say goodbye again. Only one puppy remaining and I have been insisting to keep that one but my brother's word is final. A no is simply a no.

It's just so impossible to not get attached to them when you get to take care of them for almost 2 months. It's so heartbreaking to let go of them one by one and it's even more heartbreaking when you can't even keep at least one of them.

It's making me really sad and I have cried for 3 times this week, every time I have to let go of another puppy. But right now, I am slowly accepting it that I also have to let go of the remaining one.

My only way of comforting myself is by promising to myself to keep and take care of dogs, as many as I want, once I already have the means. Once I am already working and living on my own house, I can keep dogs as many as I want.

For now, I just hope that the new parents of our puppies will take care of them the same way I do. Or else, it'll be better if they'll just return the puppies.

So yeah, this is pretty much all for today. I hope to be on the winning streak again, starting with this article. Catch up with y'all soon! :)