Greetings friends of the great read.cash family, I hope you are feeling well at the moment of sharing reading with me.

Today I come with certain concerns that have motivated me to write and share with you.  Have you ever thought that at some point in your life you have left things unfinished to do? That you have been walking your destinies and have left things behind that you would have liked to finish?

It has happened to me, sometimes I wish I had not allowed it to happen but it did. I remember when I was a child I was invited to an amusement park, my siblings and I went but with another family, my parents stayed at home. Do you know the worst thing about this? I was a 9 year old girl and it hurt me so much that I went to that park and I only got to ride the bumper cars once.

I asked my older sisters if they brought money and none of them did. So I just hung out watching the other children of the family that took us having fun while my eyes were popping out of excitement seeing so many carts and I couldn't get on any of them. It was a trauma for me.

As I grew up always in my mind I would think of this and remember it with sadness. Until one day I went to a park where there were carts for adults and then I got on one of those and crashed as many times as I could. It was fun, I had to do it and so I was able to release my sad memory for a happy one.

I remember when I was growing up I was forbidden to go dancing, to go to the disco, to stay late at night visiting someone.

My father was very bossy and one of those who said "do as I say and not as I do". But leading by example doesn't work like that.

When I graduated at the age of 18 I was sent to practice far away from home, 3 hours away from my house to be more specific. Then we were invited to the disco and I went for the first time with all my classmates and when I went in I tried to hide but I couldn't. They all knew me and saw my face, they all knew me and saw my strange face. I was like a little girl eating her favorite ice cream.

I saw the center lights, how they changed tone and then the lights that made the white look like an almost transparent thing, God that was great. I enjoyed it so much that I got tired of going so much.

The same thing happened to me at the movies, that huge screen, I had never seen such a big TV, how ignorant I was, hehehehe, then I learned the whole mechanism of operation.

In those 18 months that I was in that city I did so many and all the things that were forbidden to me. I wanted to know why they were bad, I was just told not to go and no explanation. I learned that everything is in the person, if you want to destroy yourself you will do it but if you don't want to do it those places will not destroy you. What will destroy you are your actions, your bad decisions.

Nothing ever happened to me to regret when I was with my friends... Except until something actually happened, I fell in love and got a boyfriend who was jealous and started again with prohibitions.

What a bad thing to feel like you can do things and they won't let you do them. I did it just to keep the peace in the relationship. It got to the point where everything became difficult and the relationship ended.

It was then that I remembered all the things I couldn't do thanks to the prohibitions and I had to think how to get rid of that bad feeling. So I went back to the places where I was banned from going with my friends and I had a great time. I could see that it was an unfounded ban, just jealousy. The places were special, my friends always took care of me and everyone acted with respect.

Since then I grew in that feeling and did not allow anyone else to forbid me things without logic. Every time someone told me... don't do this thing I asked why? What was the risk, and when I knew the answer it was very clear in my mind and I didn't do it anymore and even less curious.

For example, one time I was with a group of friends and someone told us that there was a big meeting in the evening at the house of a distinguished lawyer. I knew her and was about to tell everyone that we could go.

One of my friends looked at me and motioned for me not to say anything, and I listened because I trusted him. He played along and pointed out that we could all go for sure.

As we drove away in my car my friend told us...never go to these types of parties no matter how much they tell you. They are parties of perdition where they start with soft drinks and then go to harder ones, then they combine with drugs and become totally uninhibited and prostitute themselves to each other.

I thanked my friend for the gesture and the explanation. That was all I wanted to know, to be told the reason for the refusals and not just a no. I never accepted an outright no anymore. I never accepted a flat out no without explanation anymore.

I have always said that God has sent me many people as angels to watch over my ways. In my great greed of wanting to know what I never knew growing up I now had a light always telling me what to do.

I made many mistakes in my life but those I do not regret because they made me grow and have made me the strong woman I am today. What I may have regretted was not having done the things I wanted to do at the time just to please the illogical and whimsical requests of the people who were in charge at the time.

Have similar things ever happened to you? Tell me, I would like to read if you are willing to share.

Thank you all for your comments and votes, I appreciate it.

I'm @gertu13 from Venezuela to the world.