Pushing too hard

It is not yet summer but I am already experiencing migraines. The past couple of days I was suffering from a migraine and it was the cause of my inactivity. I was still able to read 1 article for those days but I missed publishing one article last night. My very first missed article for this year. I really did not want to force myself plus I do not have any topics on mind so I let my brain rest for a day. Now that I am slightly ok, I will make up for those 2 days.

Been typing a lot of sentences of different topics but I just can't seem to like how it turns out. I am not sure if it is because of my migraine that I cannot make my mind to cooperate. Tried reading some articles and even some prompts but I really do not know why I am like this. I do not think it is writer's block because I already have 4 drafted articles although I could not let myself to finish all of them. I do not want to push too much because the result might not be that good.

And here I am drafting another article that I hope I can finish what I have started. Have you pushed yourself in doing something? How was the outcome? Was it good or did it became worst? I remember that time when I tried drafting an article when I was so sleepy or when I was sleep texting. LOL. I must say that it was really hard to push a sleepy person into drafting an article and thankfully I was almost finish that I just needed to wrap it all up. But of course if I was just starting with it and fell asleep then I will not push myself in continuing with it.

Little did I know that I was already pushing myself too hard according to the Living well spending less. She listed 20 signs that a person is pushing too much. Will list it down and make a check if it also applies to you as some of it applies to me. Here it is:

[✔] Exhaustion and sleep issues

Not exhausted but been sleeping a lot these days. Thought it was probably due to the cold holiday weather but maybe because I am already pushing myself too much

[✖] Frequent illness

[✔] Headaches and stomachaches

Headaches. Yes, migraine it is for 3 days now. Stomachaches, I did had constipation problems early January that I think was because of apples and lots of dairy products over the holidays.

[✖] Sports injuries

[✔] Feeling overwhelmed

I do get overwhelmed sometimes especially with my bills. Though it is not as big as my debts before I some of us do get overwhelmed with our monthly bills right?

[✔] Forgetting things

Can I blame my anaesthesia with this one? LOL.

[✔] Feeling stressed, anxious or angry

Stress is common especially if you have a lot of bills. #adulting

[✔] Feeling sad, depressed or in despair

Cannot remember the last time I was happy like happy-happy. You get what I mean?

[✖] Frequent fighting

[✖] Lashing out at your kids

[✔] Isolating yourself or feeling like you aren't social enough

In social media, yes. 100%. But I still interact with my family, friends and virtual friends.

[✖] Taking offense (too easily)

[✖] Destructive habits

[✔] Skipping spiritual time

Lately I have been skipping spiritual time. From daily rosary to daily mass. That also means feeling distant from God.

[✔] Feeling guilt or feeling distant from God

[✖] Missing appointments and events

[✖] Mistakes at work

[✔] Financial problems — overspending and late bills

I overspend last month. Does that count? But I'm proud that I don't have any late bills.

[✖] A messy home

[✔] Falling behind in school

Maybe not in school but in publishing articles.

11 of 20. But there are some that are not applicable so that means that I am still above half so does that mean that I am pushing myself too much? Is pushing too much a positive or a negative one? I know that we sometimes push ourselves towards our goal but sometimes we also need to take a break. It will be hard if eventually we get burned out as sometimes we will lose motivation. So don't forget to take care of yourself. Go rest and recharge.

January 20, 2022

P.S. lead image is a photo of my planner.