Trying to save our marriage

Blog 70-19th
Date :April 30,2022
Time :10:11am

Marriage is holy and important. Even if love is almost gone we are still trying to save our marriage.

Two of my previous article was tackling about I am not in love with my husband and Mahal ba talaga niya ako o hindi. It's all about my relationship with my husband. Last night hubby still didn't make any effort to initiate a talk about our current situation. He was in the neighborhood drinking, I tried to call him to go home because our son was looking for him. He kept calling Papa. My son is obviously a Papa's boy. Anyway around 8 pm hubby was home from a drinking session in the neighborhood. He asks my daughter if we already have eaten our dinner and he even asks if I have already eaten. We're already done eating our dinner half an hour before he arrives. Then he eat his dinner and after that, I told him to accompany our son so he can finally sleep. Our son use to sleep at night with his father around. Our son kept dragging my husband to our bed. On our bed, he was trying to talk to our son. What I don't like about everything he has said is, that he kept telling me to be a good boy to my mama and ate. He kept repeating it until I get annoyed and I started scolding him. I told him to stop talking nonsense. I told him to act like a father, and act as the head of the family. What will happen to our family if he is weak? Until my son falls asleep. He still didn't talk to me so I just tried to do the first move and tried to ask him if he wanted to have a talk but he still didn't bother to answer me. He was just trying to divert his attention to our son. Later did I know that he was already secretly crying. So I hugged him from behind. I ask him to tell me everything that he wanted to say. At first, we were both emotional as we were both crying while talking. He said he didn't mean to hurt me by saying those stupid words before, it was only a joke for him. He kept saying sorry for everything that he have said that hurts me. I told him sorry is not enough, he has to do something. Until we started arguing and he started to raise his voice. He blamed me for holding a grudge but I told him that he was the reason why I am afraid to open up with him because every time I will try to open up something to him he will act like I was wrong so every time we have misunderstandings I just tend to keep it because there's no use of talking to him. I always end up being hurt. Our talk didn't go smoothly as we were just arguing over and over again until he walks out. Until he returned I tried to talk to him again. This time I tried to talk calmly. I ask him if can we still give it a try to fix our relationship. I wanted to talk to him again despite our differences and different perspectives because I wanted to save our marriage. I wanted to save whatever we have left. And I am happy with the result of our conversation. We end up reminiscing how we started. How happy our relationship was before. God is the reason why we are together right now and no matter what happens we can't deny that it's part of God's plan for us to get married. If God didn't allow us to get married then why did our wedding still pushes through no matter how many obstacles and hindrances we've been through before the wedding. I told him that no matter what happens I will never leave our family. I just remind him that only 2 things that will make me leave him for good. 1st if I will found him cheating and then if I caught him using illegal drugs again. That will be the time that I will never give him another chance again.

Ending thoughts

It's normal to have misunderstandings and fights as they are part of a relationship and I think it will help us to understand more each other. It helps a relationship to grow stronger. Now that we choose to reconcile we should both do our part to make our marriage work. My job is to help him change for the better and his part is to help himself to do better. I just hope that God will guide us always and gives us strength and more understanding for each other. I hope this will be the start of our new beginning for our relationship to last longer and hopefully forever.

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