Losing my Self-confidence
Blog:165-2nd
Date :September 2,2022
Time :4:22pmI started losing my self-confidence after I got pregnant with my youngest. I was the kind of person that always believe in myself. I believe that I am beautiful even if I have lots of imperfections. I even have the guts to wear shorts before even if I have lots of stretch marks on my back leg.
Back then I have a slimmer body. I can wear anything I like. I seldom wear pants, joggers, or T-shirts. I cannot be called a fashionista but I just to look presentable whenever I am outside the house. Di maarte ha,presentable lang.
I also had fair and a bit smooth skin before. Especially my face. I have glossy, rosy cheeks. Thanks to my skincare though. I also have long straight hair before. But everything changed after I got pregnant. I had to stop using my skincare routine as it is not healthy for the baby. Acne started showing on my face. I started gaining weight. I look so ugly and stressed especially when the time hubby kept pestering me.Super pasaway kasi naging asawa ko.If dati I love taking selfies pero after getting pregnant and nagkaroon ng asawa, I don't wanna see myself even in the mirror.Pag dati my mga picture taking sa mga birthdays,di talaga ako pahuhuli but not ayaw ko ng sumali pa.I don't wanna see my ugly face plus my fat body. This isn't me anymore.
Yung dating makinis na mukha ngayon puro dark spots na dahil sa walang tigil na acne.Yung dating straight and shinny hair ngayon parang nagpa beachy waves na ako.Lagi nalang nakatali ang hair ko.If dati mahilig akong magsuot ng shorts kahit sa work,ngayon kuntento na ako sa jogger,jogging pants and leggings and puro nalang over size T-shirts ang suot ko at paulit ulit nalang every week.Ganun kalaki ang pinagbago ng lifestyle ko after getting married.
Di naman ako pabaya sa sarili,first di ko pa afford bumili ulit ng skin care para mawala na yung acne and dark spots ng mukha ko.Yung about sa hair ko naman eh same pa rin wala rin akong budget para iparebond ito ulit .Alam naman nating mga girls na ang hair nation ay isang crowning glory natin diba?
About naman sa weight gain ko,kasalanan ito ng mabait kong asawa kasi kung gaano na ako kataba ngayon dahil yun sa pagiging pasaway ng asawa ko.
Minsan nga may nakapagsabi sa akin na hiyang na hiyang daw ako after nag asawa kasi tumaba ako,di siguro pasaway asawa ko,sinagot ko siya na kung gaano ako kataba ganun ako kastress dahil sa asawa ko.Kasi I do stress eating.Ngayon lang kasi talaga nila nakitang tumaba ako ng sobra.
Sa mga taong walang alam jan,di lahat ng tumabang asawa(babae)mabait at di pasaway ang asawa.Sa pagkain ko lang talaga nailalabas ang stress ko.Food is my companion pag stress ako.
Gustohin ko man unahin ang sarili ko pero as a mom mas uunahin ko ang needs ng mga anak ko.
Ending thoughts
I know one day maibabalik ko rin ang aking confidence.Especially losing weight,kailangan ko ng inspirasyon para mag exercise ulit.I want to live the way I live before.Yung masayang buhay na meron ako dati naging magulo na ngayon.Isa lang ang di ko pinagsisihan ang pagkaroon ko ng anak ulit.My two kids is my inspiration to keep moving and my motivation to work harder.
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Malaki rin itinaba ko ngayon ate, though wala pa naman akong anak at asawa. Puro kasi yaya ng kain boyfriend ko. But anyway, may times talaga na parang nawawala self-confidence. And just like you, minsan puro malalaking shirts nalang suot ko.