I am human too
Blog 53-2nd Date :April 5,2022 Time :11:24am
I'm human too. I can be tired sometimes. I can feel exhausted too. These past three weeks I felt like I was lost interest in everything.
I had this feeling of being exhausted even early in the morning. Even at work I always feel tired. Like I really wanted to sleep but of course, I can't sleep at work. I lost interest in almost everything. I don't really understand myself. It's like I am tired of my daily routine. Wakes up early, and does the household chores before going to work. There's nothing new in everyday routine. Same cycle every day. When I got home from work I feel tired. As much as I wanted to stay active at work and online like noisecash and readcash my mind is not cooperating. I've tried to convince myself to focus on my goal so I will have the courage to grind and work hard each but it seems doesn't work that way.
However, my husband did something that irritates me. It's not really a big deal but since I was feeling tired and exhausted I overreacted to what he did. I was upset about what he did so I didn't talk to him till morning. He was clueless why I'm being cold to him because for him whatever he did was just a pity sh*t. It's not enough reason for me to act like that. That day he went to my workplace and started the conversation. He doesn't know how to approach me, knowing that I am still not in the mood. He ask me in a loud voice, and I told him why is that it was like he was mad at me, he said he was not mad, well it was not like the tone of voice. Before that when I was on my way to work I really wanted to cry but I don't why. I don't really understand what I was feeling at that time.
I didn't talk to him because I was tired, tired of everything. Same cycle every day. Instead of making me feel better he suddenly said he was tired too. He is of understands me. It honestly hurt me knowing that he should be the first person to understand me, especially during my down times but well nothing to expect from him he doesn't know me at all. He doesn't know how to make me feel better. I told him, don't I have any right to feel tired? I'm human too. Since I got married my life was getting tougher. My mind is focused on how to get more income daily so I can provide for our daily needs. Yes, I have a day off but mostly I am occupied with household chores or still grinding online. I think I am being hard on myself. I wanted to relax. But my mind won't stop working. I'm draining myself.
These past days I'm out of focus on my daily goal on both noisecash and readcash. I feel unmotivated. I'm being inactive, I don't like having a conversation. Small things around me make me feel irritated.
From now on I should learn how to balance my life. I will try not to be that hard on myself. I will try to find happiness and inspiration so I can be more motivated in everything I will do.
How about you fami-lice? Do you experience or feel tired about your daily routine too?
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