Dreams That Bother Me

December 06, 2021

Lovely Monday read community. The weather here in our place is still cold that we need to wear thick jackets and pants. Christmas season is really in the corner. Maybe Jack Frost is being naughty again. Oh, I forgot, we don't have snow here in our place, he doesn't like here.Lol

Dream is a series of thought, images, an sensations occuring in a person's mind during sleep. -Oxford Languages-

Every person has different dreams. But do you have dreams that bother you a lot? Like you will think it's kinda weird for you to have that dream?

I already shared here that there is one person who keeps on popping in my dreams. He is my first ex-boyfriend. We became in relationship when we were in high school. But we ended it because of the common reasons of break-up which is third party. We don't have proper closure when we broke up for the reason that I didn't want to talk to him that time. We were so immature at that moment and I labeled our relationship as puppy love. But what keeps me wonder is that even if it's been a long time since our break-up, he keeps on showing in my dreams. Not just once, twice but many times. Even now that I am with my partner, he is always the content of my dreams. What I don't like is the feeling that I feel in my dreams. Whenever I see him in my dreams, I can feel different happiness. I know, I should not feel that way because I am already with my partner.

There were also times that I feel the guilt because of my dreams. Until this very moment, I keep it from my partner that I still dream my ex boyfriend. I'm afraid to tell him because I don't want him to think that I still have hidden feelings for him. My partner is a jealous person. I don't want to give him reasons to feel that I am not fully in love with him. As much as I can, I want to give him an assurance that what I feel for him is true and pure. It's just that this dream of mine keeps on bothering me. Even before I met my partner, when I was with my long time boyfriend, that person already bothers me big time. I don't know the reason why he is always present in my dreams. Can somebody knows how to unfold dreams? Can you tell me what would be the meaning of this?

The next dream that bothers me is my dream the other night. My dream was vague but there was a scene there that was the only clear to me. In my dream, there was a person ( I'm not sure if it's a woman or a man ) who told me in what way I am going to die. He/She said that I am going to die due to a disease. He/She didn't tell me what kind of disease tho. When I woke up and remember my dream, the first disease that came to my mind was cancer. I was scared because our family line has cancer histories. Some of my relatives died because of cancer. I have a cousin who is now a survivor of Leukemia. But most of my lola's had breast cancer.

The dream bothers me a lot for this past few days, my left breast started to ache. Though actually, it started aching when one of my classmates hit my left breast with her elbow real hard. After that incident, my breast aches occasionally. I don't want to overthink but that dream awake a thought of me that I might have a cancer.(knock on the wood*) In God's name, I cast this thought away. I don't want to suffer such disease. I still have so many dreams for my family especially to my daughter. I don't want that disease hinders me in achieving my dreams. I pray to God that that dream would have different meaning and not a warning for me.

As they say, our dreams has meaning. Thus, whatever may my dream means, I hope it's not something bad that can ruin my life or my family. I think what I need to do is pray intently that those dreams will just be a dream and nothing more.

This is it for today everyone. Thank you for always being part of my journey here in this platform. Thank you for all the support. Especially the people here 👇.

God bless everyone. Have a great day. Don't forget to be cautious and be safe. Keep yourself healthy.

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