I am stucked! I am stucked with the idea that loving him is the only thing I can do to make my life complete. I didn't noticed that the world slowly leaving me and I am slowly living in a world that I created for him and me. I was literally drowned with sadness and that's keeps me insane and pushes me back to the world I have created. I am like a Lost Stars in the sky finding my way home. The pace was blurred and I didn't see my purpose and wanting to be back on the life that I had before but I know it's not possible anymore. Maybe I can, but I don't want it anymore.
I remember exactly the time When I met you. It was an ordinary day that time at the plaza and I saw you capturing some shots of the sunset. Indeed , I find you so interesting because I really love the sunset too and I rarely seen a person in the City capturing photos of nature. You caught me looking to you and that's the start of the conversation that leads on getting to know each other and later on ended up with exchanges of I love you and I do care for you.
That was the happiest moments of my life. I am not a romantic person that always mentioned Forever but that time I want that love to be lifetime. The butterflies on my stomach everytime we were dating. You never failed to be a good partner to me and I am very proud of that. Indeed , I am so inlove with you and you make my life complete.
Our relationship aren't perfect in a way that we have differences. It's like Science and Faith. Two subjects with a different stories and belief and will never be in unity because they were contrary. It's like when I love toasted garlic on fried rice and you don want it. It's like when you love horror movies and I am not. But despite of that differences , we still manage to keep our relationship strong. Maybe I could say adjustment is the key and a little acceptance for each of our differences.
Years has been passed and day came when you asked me a question. How deep is your love to me? I was so clueless why you asked me that question because it's not a typical you asking me those kind questions because you knew how much I love you. I answered you the words that I always said to you. I love you so much with all my heart. Then you hugged very tight and I felt the tears falling on the back and it was yours. You told me how much you love me and you told me to be strong because you have something to tell me.
It's been years since that moment happened and Heaven knows how I cried a lot because I'm longing on you. Everyday I think of you. Everyday I asked myself , of all people why me , why us? Everyday I asked the Lord what's the purpose of this. Everyday I try to fight harder for a new day that awaits on me. A brand new day without you.
Where are you now? That's the question that I keep on asking myself even if I know where you are now. I know you are in a safe place with no harm. No pain and no sadness. I know you are happy wherever you are now and I'll promised you that if God allows me to be there in what you are now we will continue our love story. A love story that hinder by death. You are not physically alive but you are always with my heart and I will love you till the last beat of it.
For now , I will be happy with the life I had because you always taught me to love and cherish it because it's happy to be live. Even if it's hard I always welcome the new mornings With a smile and hoping that one of the days that I will woke up I will find you lying next to me with your sweetest smile. I thought it's impossible to be happy again but you taught me to be one.
A fiction story but makes me cry while typing it. Oh why? Maybe I am sad now and I just let my hand and my heart do this article for me and I am amazed with the result because I didn't expect that I will make it. I know it's a simple article with lots of grammatical error but I'm still happy because I made it. The emphasize words are the titles of my favorite songs and here's are the links on YouTube.
When I met you - APO Hiking Society.
How deep is your love- Bee gees
Heaven Knows- Orange and Lemons
Where are you now.- Honor Society
Credits to @meitanteikudo for this idea.
Akala ko pa naman true story mo sis at medyo teary eyed na ko nun last part na, tapos napaisip ako, wait, buhay naman hubby nya ah.. Hahaha.., buti may fiction story nakalagay,,