First times : Love edition

I just finished reading the article of expertwriter and I was inspired to continue writing about first time experiences because of what she shared on her article. As I was reading the question about crush and suitors I automatically remembered mine haha.

First crush.

I had my first crush when I was 6 years old. From that moment even if I was only a kid I really feel the slow motion that they will always said when the first time you saw him. But my admiration to him is silent because I am shy. I just love him secretly to the point that I made letter on him and put it in the box that I made. So from grade 1 up to high school he is my crush and my crush fades away when I started to have a boyfriend. Imagine how long my crush on him last haha.

First boyfriend.

When I was on my teenage day I am pressured by my cousin to have a boyfriend because they also having thier boyfriend. I had my relationship when I was in college and that guy also got my virginity but we only lasted for two months. My feelings back then was you know an immature kind of girl. Yes I am happy and inloved but it's like a teenage love. I can't imagine myself anymore having those kind of act and attitude like pabebe. You know the teenage stuff like kumain kanaba? Like that my goodness. And you know why we broke up? It is because one day I want him to go in our house because he always promise me that when the class ends he will going to buy me ice cream but he didn't do it because he was helping his father on thier farm. Then I was annoyed and said let's break up without meaning it and after that we totally broke up haha.

My first heartbreak.

It was May 5, 2009 when we broke up. I asked my friends if we can drink alcohol and because I am liberated before I was on the circle of friends who also empi is life. We drink in my friends place and from there I cried and cried and cried because of him. I even told them that I lost my virginity because of that guy and they are really mad at him. May 10,2009 it's my birthday. My ex boyfriend called me and asking if we can meet but when he texted I am in the middle of drinking session because it's my birthday. I told my friends that I will just go outside but you know they seems already know that I will see my ex that's why they get my phone call my ex and said don't ever dare to see Pen or else we will kill you.

I was afraid because of my friends threat because I still love my ex and I don't want him to get involved on fights.

My first suitor.

Did I share to you all that I don't believe in courtship? All of my boyfriend I will said yes to them because I like them and I will know them more during our relationship. The only one who courted me was my husband and I only feel the feeling of being a girl with him because he courted me haha.

The feeling of there's someone who will pick you up in the office and someone who will always treat you foods. I never experienced that with my previous relationship because I believe that couple should be equal that's why I don't want to treat me like a girl. I mean you know treating like a princess.

But I had a few suitors back then but it's only a power trip and I don't have any plan on saying yes to them.

Just an eme emeng article again guys. Thank you for reading