Am I pregnant?

March 23, 2022

9:38 PM.

Good evening guys. I hope you had a productive day. It's Wednesday today and you know that every Wednesday we went to my in-laws house for a visit. We need to do it every week so that we can see my mother inlaw. For now it's the only thing that we can do because we can't live there.

So anyways , as you can see on the title. Am I pregnant? It's been a weeks since I am expecting my monthly visit this March. I am not usually a type of person who has delay menstruation period that's why I am wondering if I am pregnant or now though a week delay is just normal for some but you know I am an overthinker that's why I am think of it that much.

My usual period is every 15th or 16th of the month. Last March 17 I speak to my husband that I have no period yet and he said it's normal because the days in February is only 28 and maybe my period will come by 20th of the month but also we are open on the possibility that I can be pregnant. My husband is using contraceptives because having a baby number is not yet our plan but this past few love making he always forget to buy protection that's why we end up the withdrawal method and we all know that it's not a hundred percent safe.

My husband asked me , are you ready to have a baby again?

I am ready with the sake that I am ready as a mother no doubt about that but you know in our current situation now where we didn't know what will be our future because of the family set up I don't think that I am not fully ready. I promised myself before I will only be pregnant for our second child when we already life on our own means we leave our parents house but because of the situation now I think it's really impossible unless we will be selfish and leave.

My ideal moment of having a second child is when my son reached five years old so that it's not too hard for me to take good care of him because he can stand on his own in a little way but as I said we didn't know what our future will be because of this family issues.

But ofcourse if God gave us our second baby we will accept it wholeheartedly despite of the situation.

Cravings and abdominal pain.

This past few days I am craving with different kind of foods like the other day I want cheese and I cook Mac and cheese but after I cooked it I don't want to eat it. I am also craving for other food but the problem is that I can't buy it because it's not available near us.

Having an irritable bowel movement makes me confused about the abdominal pain that I felt. You know the feeling that you didn't know if it was coming from your puson or it's just your IBS.

Taking pregnancy test kit.

I want to tell my husband to buy me a pregnancy test kit so that our questions can be answered by taking PT and not thinking about it that much but because I'm kuripot I didn't buy and said if buntis edi buntis. Okay lang naman. Yesterday night I had a feeling that there's something on my underwear and I thought it's blood but not haha.

Earlier we went to my in-laws house and I am not really in the mood. I don't want to eat my lunch even if it's delimondo cornbeef 🤣 I don't want to think about it that much that why I just rest and I fall asleep after we eat our lunch.

Then when we arrived I already feel the pain in my head. This pain in my head is a sign of my menstruation period. After a couple of minutes I feel something again on my underwear I went to the comfort room and check it and there you are.. it's blood!

I'm not pregnant.