What are my why's?

Have you ever had a lot of why in your life? Like why am I working, why am I need to stay at home, for a mom like me, why am I need to suffer, what for?

Everyone has its own reason, like, everything that we do each day is for my family, to provide all their basic needs and to give them a better future. Family is one of the majority reason that we had if someone asks questions like why.

Our why in life, should not cause us to become demotivated but rather it will inspire us to keep going, and pursue something that we want to achieve just like a job, or working abroad, achieving a diploma and many more. Some reasons are out of love, out of passion, even if it's hard thing to do, but we keep on doing it, because we love it.

Some of the why's in life are like questions that are results of depression and discouragement . Like, why did I suffer this illness? Of all people in the world, it seems like I'm just OA, when I look back?But, the struggle is real at that time.

Another questions are, Why am I experiencing problem like this? Why am I have been cheated? Why am I suffering a sickness like this? These questions are having a answers that are hard to explain, and even in our human minds cannot comprehend the main reasons. Sometimes it gives us doubts, fears and even questioning about ourselves if we are doing bad or good.

But, did you know that your why's in life are all unique, just like your fingerprint, only you can tell it, and even the people around you cannot perfectly explained or give answers.

One thing, that I've learned if I have questions like why to myself, and sometimes with God. I may didn't have an answer to it right away, but it takes me to the process of maturity and growth as a person. Some of my why's are being answered through circumstances and realizations in life as I proceed day by day.

My first why in my life is;

Why am I having this kind of physical condition?

I have asked this before, when I first find out that I have a thyroid problem, but later on I have realized that God allow this to happen in my life so that I can be a good daughter to my parents and a good wife. My heart has been broken when I suffered all the symptoms 5 years ago, but hopefully, I am already coping with it.

I always remind myself, that I am not alone in this world who has a sickness, everybody has its own different condition.

In reality, as we are in this human body, we can be a subject to different illnesses, which sometimes hard to accept. There is a tendency that we can ask why, out of confusion but in the end, I believe we can find answers as we are able to ponder and realized on how did our life goes on.

Why did I choose to be a full time mom?

My answer is driven by love.

I'm not saying that moms who are working didn't love their children but for me, I want to be a hands on with my children as long as they are still young.

It's a reasonable sacrifice and worth it as I witnessed my kids are already growing up. And finally, they knew how to managed themselves slowly. It's not too late for me to start my plans of developing myself,and having a work.

Why did I get married early?

Honestly, maybe for the second time I'm gonna say this, I want to escape.

Escape from what? From a guy who stalk me when I was in high school until college. I feel like I'm always in danger, he follows me everywhere. That's why I've decided to get married early. Second reason is, I'm tired of my family before, they always quarrel, and my siblings too.

All of the grounds that I've mention may sounds negative, to get married because I've tried to avoid something, but it's true. The motive at first was wrong but it turns out fine. But, I do love him, only that we did it in a hurry decision.

When I'm already married, although I have regrets but above all, " it works together for good". It's one of the cause that teaches me to be responsible with myself and in my life. I can say, that I finally live with positive purpose in waking up in the morning.

And those why that I have, are just a step of process that molds me to become a who I am today.

And lastly, Why did God allow me to suffer and being harassed?

It happens a few years ago, when someone get inside our house, and I was physical hurt. That night was the greatest nightmare that happens to me, but I realized that it's also my turning point in life.

It change me completely, to be responsible, and makes me closer to my family, siblings and with God above all.

My why's in life turned out to be a driving force that motivate me, though it was unfavorable if I evaluate it, it's still work for my sake and its my unique story in life, my unforgettable journey that is being unfolded already through the years that passed.

Why about blogging

Why do I keep on writing?

Because I don't have a choice, yes I am,

due to pandemic, it makes me to stop from doing my small business at home, and all of our flocks are sold to provide our needs during the hardest days of pandemic, and this platform comes to me exactly those times that we have suffered a financial crisis. Though it's not our main source of income, but it helps a lot.

Why do I seldom post with Noise.cash account?

To less stress,

I admit that blogging for a year sometimes eaten me, it can drained my thoughts and even give me stress. I choose this platform over the other to minimize my time and able to perform my obligation as a wife, and mother. My husband got jealous thinking that I don't have time for Him and always facing with my phone.

I can't serve 2 masters at the same time, that's why I take it slowly, I just post and explore maybe 3 times a day for a few minutes then I quit.

Another reason is for my health, I can't deal with too much, it affects my emotions and it bothers me too. I also have a responsibility in the women's group in our locality that is why I have decided to prioritize things. I'm planning to work or having a sidelines to next month, so probably I get busier.

I choose to maintain this platform, because I think the connection and interactions here are unique than the other. I always ask myself, if I will engage in many sites, I will ask myself, 'can I deal with it and why? I can't let my health to be compromised of staying up late at night.

I admire people here are maintaining lots of sites , which I can't be able to perform.

Author' s Notes:

"Working hard for something that we don't care about is called - stress;

Working hard for something we love is called--passion. "

This is one of the quote that I was inspired lately, If you love what you are doing even if it's hard or challenging it doesn't matter, if you you have a heart for it.

Some possible answers for our why's are ;Family, a better future, maintenance, and school expenses, bills and a lot more answers for our why's in life are not that heavy thing, instead, all of this are valid and not qualified as a hustle because we care, that's why we exert effort.

We sometimes call it stress, but generally it's not, when we do something for good.

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