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I'm so happy today because my team, Manchester United, won. This is our first back-to-back victory under our new coach. It is also the first time since January 2016 that we have won at Anfield. It is so exciting to see. Also, I visited a friend, and it was a pleasant experience because I talked and interacted with someone. Loneliness is one of the major struggles of youth. It can be very hard, but having someone to talk to can be a blessing in one's life.
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**Boredom!?** How do you deal with it? Do you pick up your phone, watch series, use social media, etc.? Lately, I have been bored, and I am trying to cultivate the habit of not reaching for my phone and instead try to understand my boredom, but it is hard. Many habits I formed are what I do to kill boredom. I am trying to meditate at least once a day, but I haven't been consistent.
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"Making mistakes is always better than faking perfection". Lately, this has been my mantra, and I have often recited it to help me overcome the mental block of waiting for things to seem perfect before acting. That's why I am making this short post now, not waiting until I have the perfect short post to share.
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It been a while here and I feel bad for not keeping up with my streak here on read cash. But I am back now. I wrote my first ever article on substack. And it is titled; "Making mistakes is always better than faking perfections." I would appreciate if you read and also subscribe or follow me over there. Thank you. https://open.substack.com/pub/ajanakuifeoluwa/p/making-mistakes-is-always-better?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android&r=1okl3i
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Lessons from the book: "Psychology of money" Chapter 2 Luck and risk are siblings and they both guide every outcome in life other than individual effort. Bill Gates was lucky to attend one in a million high school that had a computer. Difficulty in identifying what is luck, what is skill, and what is risk is one of the biggest problems we face when trying to learn about the best way to manage money. Be careful who you praise and admire. Be careful who you look down upon and…
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**Lesson from Psychology of money** ***Chapter one summary*** I learnt that no one's crazy when it comes to what they do with money. Why? The reason is that people learn very different lessons about money and they make their investment based on their experiences and they are also influenced by their different backgrounds, generations, environment, countries Etc. No amount of study or forecast can recreate the power of fear and uncertainty. And we can't truly understand some…
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Today was a bit like yesterday. I didn’t do much and it everything felt dull. But I’m already feeling better, and I was able to exercise this evening. In the afternoon I watched my team, Man U, lose 3-1 to Brentford (painful to watch). For a week now, I’ve been reading "The Psychology of Money" by Morgan Housel. Starting tomorrow, I’ll begin sharing what I have learnt from each of its 20 chapters here daily
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**What a day** Today wasn’t productive. I mostly slept and scrolled on my phone, and I think I might be coming down with malaria. It’s not the kind of day I hoped for, but it’s part of the journey too. Some days are about pushing forward, and some are about simply resting and listening to your body. I just pray for strength to bounce back tomorrow
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**Courage to Start** Lately, I’ve realized that the hardest part of anything is simply starting. Whether it’s reading, research, or chasing a new goal, the beginning always feels heavy. But once you take that first step, the weight becomes lighter. I'm experiencing it.
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**Gratitude** Sometimes I get caught up worrying about the future, but today I just want to pause and be grateful. Grateful for health, for strength to keep exercising, for the chance to learn, and for the gift of another day. It’s easy to overlook these simple blessings, but they are what give me the energy to keep moving forward. Thank you God.
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**My Little Steps 23/09/25** I’m learning more each day about the power of consistency. When I resumed jogging, I was covering a distance of 3-4km. But by showing up regularly, I can now run 8km. That didn’t happen overnight, it came from little improvements stacked over time. It reminds me that life works the same way. I may not have everything figured out yet, for instance in my career path, and next steps after school. But consistency will take me closer. Just like…
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**A new week** This morning, I went to church and felt refreshed stepping into a new week. Last week is gone with its wins and mistakes. I’ve also been consistent with my exercises lately, and it’s a reminder that small daily right choices leads to progress. Now, I want to extend that same consistency into every area of my life whether it’s building the right habits, or even finding the right career path. I don’t want to wait until I “feel like it” before I act. I want to…
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Breaking the Mental Barrier Sometimes I reflect on my life and wonder how much more I could have achieved if I had simply acted instead of overthinking or waiting for the “right mood.” The truth is, moods come and go. Some days I feel like writing, other days I feel like exercising or learning, but moods alone can’t sustain anything meaningful or lasting. That’s where discipline comes in. Jocko Willink once said, “***Discipline equals freedom.”*** And the more I think about…
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**The night before** It’s been a day since my last post. My first exam is tomorrow morning, and I have been reading since morning and I'll continue in the night. Right now I'm trying hold back the worries on my mind and just focus. I’m reminding myself to breathe, take water, and move through my notes one page at a time. I haven’t touched my research project yet. It bothers me, but tonight my job is simple: prepare for this paper. But I know that my delay in starting would…
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**More than a week** It’s been more than a week since my last post here. Honestly, sometimes I feel scared or I just procrastinate posting. It’s like I don’t always have the mood or confidence to show up. But one thing I can say is that I’ve been consistent with my exercise and jogging. Almost every day, no matter how little, I read something too. And my body feels better than it has in a long time. I haven’t fully faced the responsibilities I’ve been running from,…
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***I need action!*** Yesterday, I wrote about the mountain—my final project, but it's still untouched, but I feel myself moving closer to starting. Maybe I should stop creating excuses or overthinking, but act instead. It’s funny how momentum works. The first push always feels the heaviest. Your brain whispers all the reasons to delay, but once you start, you wonder why you waited so long. I’m still juggling exam preparation, exercise, and life in between. It’s not perfect.…
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Before the Climb The quiet mountain I mentioned in my last post; my final project, is still there. It sits untouched, like a mountain I keep glancing at but haven’t started climbing. I know I’ll get there. I just need to take the first step. Exams are getting closer, and the days feel like the last calm stretch before a long, steep climb. I’ve been keeping up with my runs and study sessions, but I know I need to push harder. Lately, I’ve been thinking about discipline. And I…
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Three Days Later It’s been three days since my last post here, and life has been going steady. I’ve recovered from the brief illness I mentioned before, and I’ve been more consistent with my exercise and reading. Yesterday morning, I even wrote a geology test. This morning, I went for a 4km run. Later in the day, I decided to relax a little by watching my club's match - Manchester united. I was disappointed because we didn't win as the match ended up in a draw. Exams are…
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***Daily Update*** I was sick on Monday and had to visit the school’s medical center, I was given antimalarial medicines and antibiotics. I’ve been on medication since then, and although I’ve felt better each day, my energy hasn’t fully returned. But this morning, I went to jog, not because I felt strong, but because I need to be strong and sharp. My body was weak, but I kept my feet going. Emotionally, it hasn’t been easy either but, it is getting better although I still…
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***Daily Update*** I’m not okay today. There’s this thing called *"anhedonia"*: where nothing really feels enjoyable, or the absolute lack to feel or enjoy pleasure. I’m not feeling joy, excitement, or even much motivation. I still check my phone. I still think about crypto, school, future plans. But all of it feels distant, and it makes me more anxious and worried. But I still showed up here. And maybe that’s the only thing I can do right now; show up and be honest. There’s…
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#Daily Update We can't do without our mobile phone in today's world and that's why a lot of people like me have or are having *"internet and technology addiction.”* Yesterday for example, I opened Twitter because someone begged me to like his post and then I began scrolling and lost more 2 hours without noticing. This with some other bad decisions I made yesterday, made my yesterday felt useless. But I didn't let the hurt of that stop from doing the right things today.…
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# Midweek update It’s Wednesday. I wrote my 2nd photochemistry test yesterday after preparing for it on Monday. I'm glad that I showed up. That alone is a win I won’t downplay. This morning, I jogged again—3.88km. My longest yet since restarting. It’s not just the distance that's important but the decision to wake up, step outside and do what is hard. Now, I’m preparing to go for class. But I have wasted some precious time scrolling on my phone because I'm addicted to it. I…
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***27/07/25: Today’s Update*** I slept earlier than I used to on Saturday night and I woke up early (before 5am), and went for a jog (3.6km). My body was tired, but my mind felt clearer afterward. I went to church. For the first time in over three months. It was healing, and at the church one the topic treated was _"having confidence in God's presence"_ Right now, I’m reading in preparation for a test on photochemistry on Tuesday. There’s a class tomorrow. I’m nervous about…
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***Why I share*** I’ve been thinking about something lately—why am I sharing about my struggles, my failures, my small wins, here on read.cash. The first reason I can think of is that this platform isn't like other platform that is too public and harsh (like Twitter). People here respond politely or maybe it is because this platform has become a ghost site and most of my friends aren't longer here anymore. Right now, I'm treating this platform as a public kind of digital…
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***Today's update*** It’s been three days since I last posted, and here is a report of my progress. I have stopped binge-watching, it wasn't easy and I still constantly get the urge to watch something. I’ve also been trying to exercise every day be it morning or night. Yesterday, I did something I had been avoiding for a long time: I showed up to class even though I was really nervous. It turned out to be a test. I wasn’t fully prepared, but I wrote it. This post isn’t to…
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*** Bonjour mes amis*** I just got back from jogging. Second day in a row. It was better than yesterday. Today, I ran 2km non-stop and I feel amazing afterwards. For some weeks, I have been lying or seating down without any form of exercise that's why I am proud of myself starting again. I'm glad to be waking up early, stepping outside, choosing to move when hiding or lying down would’ve been easier. I don’t know what the rest of the day holds, but for now, I’m proud of this…
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**Night Note** It’s nighttime, and tonight, I’m going to sleep knowing that today, I did something different. Though, I still feel like I’m carrying guilt, fear, and uncertainty. But I also took a small step toward showing up for myself. I exercised, I wrote, and didn't watch any series. That might not seem like much, but for someone who’s been stuck in a cycle of hiding, it *means everything*. I’m not out of the loop yet. But today, I didn’t let them win completely. I want…
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**Today’s Shift** It’s been four days since my last post, and honestly, not much has changed. I’ve been in what I call my *hell loop*: a cycle of binge-watching series to silence my thoughts and escape the weight of everything I’ve been avoiding. Friends and family, have been trying to reach me but I didn't have the guts to pick thier calls, and now I feel like a bad person. Even though I know that escaping the moment only tends to fill up my regrets of the dreams and the…
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*Today Truth* Lately, it feels like I’m moving through life on autopilot, stuck between regrets I haven’t forgiven myself for and responsibilities I keep dodging and right now binge watching series to keep the emotions away. I am not writing this for pity but just to write out the voice I have in my head. I have disappointed people who believed in me. Worse, I feel like I’ve disappointed myself. I ran from something I built with my own hands; something I once thought I was…
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*Random thought* It's wild how the mind holds on to old pain like it's still useful. I'm currently scared because I ran away from responsibility I put on myself. Now I feel like a coward and I'm stuck in a hell loop of my making. I want to learn how to let go even though it might be slowly, but intentionally. Writing this post helps clear my mind but right now I feel like I am making the biggest mistake in my life by running away from my fears.