@Tomi-Ajax 21 July 2025 more from that month

**Today’s Shift** It’s been four days since my last post, and honestly, not much has changed. I’ve been in what I call my *hell loop*: a cycle of binge-watching series to silence my thoughts and escape the weight of everything I’ve been avoiding. Friends and family, have been trying to reach me but I didn't have the guts to pick thier calls, and now I feel like a bad person. Even though I know that escaping the moment only tends to fill up my regrets of the dreams and the responsibilities I have abandoned. But today, after spending the midnight watching series I started the day in a good way by going out to exercise even though it was for short while; I felt better afterwards than I have been in days. And maybe that’s all I need for now—*little steps and sticking to doing the right things no matter how difficult it seems*. Just a small moment where I choose to face life instead of escape it. I’m still scared. I’m still unsure of how to fix the things I’ve broken especially my academics and relationship with friend and acquaintances.