@Tomi-Ajax 21 August 2025

**More than a week** It’s been more than a week since my last post here. Honestly, sometimes I feel scared or I just procrastinate posting. It’s like I don’t always have the mood or confidence to show up. But one thing I can say is that I’ve been consistent with my exercise and jogging. Almost every day, no matter how little, I read something too. And my body feels better than it has in a long time. I haven’t fully faced the responsibilities I’ve been running from, especially my final year project. The negative thoughts are still there, and they sometimes hold me back. But even though everyday I am battling with not succumbing to temptation, I know I’m not the same person I was some weeks ago. Step by step, I’m trying to restart my project write-up and prepare for exams. And in between, I’ve been thinking a lot about what comes after school; about purpose, direction, and what I really want for my future and that makes me anxious.