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I became selfish for a reason. I became selfish for a reason. **I am not perfect, I messed up, and I am flawed.** Maybe others will find me suitable, and others may see me as arrogant and nasty, but that is okay. I know who I am and am always proud of what I have become. I am soft-hearted and so open to the extent that I cannot even hide my secrets and weaknesses from others. I am also the type of person that, if you are close to my heart, I will do my best to protect you and fight your battles. My attachment towards anyone is somehow my weakness, I trust too much, but in the end, they will betray you and leave you nothing but hatred. This situation has happened to me many times; even if my intentions are good, in the end, they will turn into something that I thought they would never do. **I became selfish for a reason.** *I know others will judge me based on what they only hear, but that will be alright. As long as I live my life honestly and with the truth, I will sleep peacefully and wake up happy.* **To the person, who will judge me as selfish and arrogant, I have my reasons.** **First, that is because you hurt me and betrayed me.** I know that forgiving is a must. Yes, I forgave you, but I will never forget. The pain and the trauma you gave me, the moment that I trusted you with all my heart, but you betrayed me and made me the foolish one. You know how much I defended you how many times and shared with you all the pain that burdens you, but in the end, you ultimately destroyed me and left me hanging alone. **Second, that is because you are selfish too.** There are instances when I become tired and exhausted from giving all that I have. There comes a time that I almost sucked sharing with others what I know, not because I don't like to, but because you make me feel that I am not worthy of being shared when you have everything. I remember all the details when you are lying to me, the times that I need you the most, and the times when I am craving your help. **I became selfish because you made me one.** I'm sorry for not always being good; I'm sorry for being selfish at times because I am just a human; I get hurt and feel pained. **For those people who judge me and gossip based on what they only hear and without knowing my side, it will be okay, and I will never bother myself to prove who I am and what I am, but I will still wish you good luck who you trust.** I am sorry for the rant; I am not feeling well today because I became more emotional. By the way, I hope everyone is having a great weekend with your loved ones. Keep safe, and God bless!

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